Post by anshinodharma on Dec 3, 2022 16:15:43 GMT 9.5
Last nights practice I called upon my sponsor and asked him about Deneb. I was told things I can barely recall now but something about Deneb playing a critical role in my development. Lots of warmth started spreading in my body as soon as I felt Deneb approach me. Then I asked what the reason was for my anxiety during the whole day of yesterday. Almost like I couldn’t shake it and my kidney energy and lower back felt strongly impacted.
Deneb told me this was because the oppression system had sent negative entities to my kidneys to try and limit my current upward momentum and helped pull out multiple dark strands of energy from the kidney energy system.
Afterwards I felt warm and very safe and loving and thanked him for the help. I’ve slept a lot and the sleep was much better and I now feel very energised.
I still feel my kidney energy is not ideal as my physical strength is still not at a high level. I may restart various supplements in hope of aiding the elementals if they agree to be ingested when asked.
Post by anshinodharma on Dec 7, 2022 19:30:16 GMT 9.5
Haven’t posted the past few days but continuing to practice and interact with my sponsor and trying to connect with Deneb.
Had some disturbance in my partners energetic field so I established an anti octopus field which helped.
Still feeling my testosterone is quite low despite working a lot on kidneys though physical desire has increased which is troublesome when my partner is pregnant, live at her parents house, and we are not being intimate. I tried sublimating but found the physical pressure intense.
In some other news we’re now proud home owners. But won’t be moving in until 1st of may — but that gives plenty of time for practical things.
I am focused on helping my partner succeed in the medical school final examination which can be very stressful.
Overall energy is quite peaceful… but I am finding it hard to meditate for more than 15 minutes the past few days. The energy is nice but it’s like the intensity makes my mind want to do something else.
I think I need to really work on patience. And I feel this is again related to kidneys health. I am considering restarting a low dose testosterone supplementation but only if my body asks for it. It is still risky since it is such a powerful hormone.
So I’d rather not… but I’ll see how the next weeks go. I am barely exercising as I find my strength very poor. I notice if I overdo anything I crash for days afterward. Then again maybe the winter energy is making us less active and restorative in the first place. Unsure…
Dark energy coming into the back of the pelvis. Energy looks to be from family/group karma. Ask your partner to give heart light to her parents, grand parents and great grand parents. Then ask the group to move that karmic energy away.
>considering restarting a low dose testosterone
Ask your body if it wants DHEA
>though physical desire has increased
Is that actually an emotional need? If so, there are other ways of meeting it.
>energy is nice but it’s like the intensity makes my mind want to do something else.
The mental subplanes should line up at their centers. So visualize 5.1 across the top of the head and check that 5.2 and 5.3 centers line up underneath. They look ok to me
But 5.4 is off-center so use your intent to line it up.
5.5 is a bit wobbly but 5.6 is lined up as is 5.7
When the subplanes are not lined up there is disturbance in the downflow of light
> again related to kidneys health
Dark entities consuming kidney energy. I suspect an invitation. Look at the nature spirit that operates your sacral chakra. It needs healing
Post by anshinodharma on Dec 8, 2022 7:18:15 GMT 9.5
Re: partner
She did the method twice. I felt her energy field was much better today so I think it helped. Lots of 💕 in the field today. Very lovely.
Re: DHEA
Absolutely yes. Solar plexus chakra lightens up when asked intense contraction in the area as energy builds when asked. I took 2 x 25mg along with a micronised zinc. It seems to have liked it.
Re: physical desire
It happens when the energy from Heart Flame method builds in the body. When the white-golden light starts touching the lower parts of the spine / vertebrae including the coccyx it tends to really lighten up the perineum area which then starts intense pulsing. This feels very pleasurable but also tinging toward a sexual feeling which makes the mind attach slightly to the feeling and then a manifest sexual desire can arise.
Re: kidneys
Gave lots of light to the sacral nature spirit. It seems happier now. Warmth all over.
Post by anshinodharma on Dec 8, 2022 7:21:09 GMT 9.5
Todays session 15 minutes.
Very lovely. Connected with sponsor and Deneb.
Warm flow of energy all over the body no part of my body feels cold. I feel wrapped in warm loving embrace. I feel it was communicated to me that Deneb will play a crucial role in allowing me to become a bridge for the Grail energy and allowing it to manifest on multiple planes and the more aligned I become the more I will exude this by my mere presence so others can live from the Grail energy as it naturally draws minds upwards to a higher realm where the more dense karmic nature cannot coexist.
If I even speak or think of the Grail energy I feel tears well up in my eyes. If I think of the Rishis it is even more intense.
Post by anshinodharma on Dec 11, 2022 0:50:24 GMT 9.5
Very interesting. By the 7 Rishis I was told I am most connected to the one “two to the left” and when asking about the seven sisters I was told my partner is directly connected to “the one to the right”. When I connected with the Pleidean energy I felt really loved again. I feel that my partners energy comes directly from there — maybe it’s Electra? Interesting.
When I connected with the Pleidean energy I felt really loved again.
Good Anshinodharma.
I will confess that given the strength of Sirian and Orion energy, I find it more difficult to sense Pleiadian energy: when I do, I agree it is very comforting. These are not the right words as I am struggling to find the right words, but in a positive way, Pleiadian energy feels like a (and this is the wrong word, it’s too strong) judgemental balance. A bit like a parent, I guess, wishing their children well.
A Simple Man, who tried and failed to reilluminate this planet.
Slogging Scotsman Ma’at Ankh Re
Who am I trying to kid for I can’t even resolve family darkness. Whoever is next to step up, please do.
Post by anshinodharma on Dec 15, 2022 2:20:30 GMT 9.5
30 minutes practice last night.
Was wonderful. Rested in the heart and then in the lower part of the body as I felt pulsing and wonderful warmth there. Felt a lot of peace and love. Will continue with this. Felt incredibly nourishing.