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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 7, 2022 2:51:05 GMT 9.5
In the hope of both feedback and sharing for the benefit of others I will here chronicle my experiences and development using the methods taught by Paul here on this forum and through his kind guidance that I have been fortunate enough to receive. If this is not the appropriate forum to have a practice journal please move my thread to an appropriate area of the forum.
Today, as per Paul's recommendation, I first started with the following method:
After getting a hang of it and actually demanding a complete reset of my human system (I literally spoke/demanded to the white sphere above my head that I had completely stepped into that I needed to reset my system) I am still in awe of what happened. I felt a massive rush of energy - first it was my lower abdominal area that reacted then it built up into the solar plexus and then it suddenly exploded throughout my body and let to massive convulsions of my entire body - also known as Kriyas. But more similar to the Kriyas I've had during intense energetic transmission than otherwise. Extremely intense energy rushes throughout the entire body which lead to my arms and entire torso shaking itself and strange voices coming from my mouth as I felt the release of energy.
After this I went into stillness and my entire body started becoming extremely warm. Feet and hands (that are usually cold) suddenly started becoming very warm and my entire body felt warm and vitalised. I remained in the stillness for a while and then began focusing on the appearance of the Blue Flame in my Heart.
I have big trouble with visualization so whenever I say "I see" here in the forum know that I am not really seeing, it is more than I simply intuitively "know" that it is said color. I find the seeing part quite difficult.
In any case - I found that the blue flame was surrounded by some red as well - and found the white and golden light difficult to "see" but nevertheless had it spread throughout my entire body leading to more warmth. I found that my impression of the light throughout my entire body was more a vermillion colour than it was White-Gold which I found a bit interesting but have no good explanation for.
Some questions for today's session are:
For the Flame In The Heart method after completing the set of instructions - should one simply remain in the stillness for as long as possible or should one continue to work on actively spreading the energy using the spiral pattern to go through each part of the body in more detail enlivening it and bringing more light to the area?
Or is the method instead used to create a level of connection with the light throughout the entire body after which one then enters stillness and stays there - letting the energy naturally build in such a way?
Is there a recommendation for the use of timers such as used in other meditative traditions - or simply allow the natural unfoldment of time?
Happy to be here.
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Post by paul on Mar 7, 2022 8:22:14 GMT 9.5
An impressive experience that seems to have discharged a large number of adverse entities. Try pushing light from heart along the spine - looking for any remaining entities between the vertebrae
> my entire body felt warm and vitalised.
The life force is very pleasant when it flows strongly
>I have big trouble with visualization
The more time you spend looking the more you will develop the ability to see
>light throughout my entire body was more a vermillion colour than it was White-Gold
I suspect that your life force is entering the solar system via Mars. Put your vertical stream of white light near Mars and see what happens
>should one continue to work on actively spreading the energy
Keep working. There is much to achieve. On occasion you may be prompted to particular actions.
The stillness is stillness of the mind. Higher levels continue to work and may draw you in. The Flame is far beyond the mind
>use of timers
Better to go with the flow. Sometimes longer sometimes shorter.
The fact that your exercise worked indicates that cosmic intelligences know to respond to you - as would befit one aspiring to be a planetary logos
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 8, 2022 3:30:52 GMT 9.5
Heart of the Flame Exercise. Once again a lot of things going on here. Not even sure where to start. Following the instructions I started with seeing the Flame of the Heart - at first it was a faint blue colour and the golden white light around it and I started pushing the energy throughout the body as instructed. As I arrived to the part where I had to push the energy through the front and the back of the body - I felt my vision turn dark, as if I was suspended in empty space and my breath disappeared. I tried pushing the white-golden light but felt like there was no direct colour to it - yet felt the intensity of the tactile sensations as the energy touched the vertebrae in my spine. I moved back to the heart and as instructed pushed the energy up into the throat and then into the head. At this point there was lots of white light around me and everything became empty and still yet again.
Then after a few moments it appeared that the white light all disappeared to be replaced with the red vermillion light once again. This red vermillion light then started spreading throughout my entire body - and started glowing hot inside - I felt the solar plexus energy build up and physically pull me - spreading the energy around until I was one glowing red energy.At this point I found myself moving my spine even straighter and upright and leaned a bit forward as Kriya pulled my hands apart and made the posture of receiving energy from above with both arms up in the air - they then circled around my body until they formed a sort of interlaced mudra which was then pushing the energy into my heart area.
At this point I started seeing blues and greens around the flame and petals turning around in a clockwise manner turning and turning with each of the petals shining in various different colours which felt like shades of greens, blues and reds in the heart area. At this point I felt a change in the energy and suddenly felt myself to be a Golden Phoenix with my sternum and color bones forming the shape of the Phoenix Bird.
Then it seemed that the Phoenix or maybe a Golden Eagle started shooting energy from afar into my entire body with streads of golden light. It then flew over atop of my head and I asked it: "Who are you?" and it said something along the lines of: "I am the Highest Intelligence. I am the Most Highl" and I asked who it was and it said "I am Anu", and I told it "I will look you up.", and it said "Yes, I am the One, I am All, I am the Highest of the High."
I am pretty amazed at how much stuff happens with this seemingly "simple" method as it is incredibly unexpected every time.
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Post by paul on Mar 8, 2022 6:46:42 GMT 9.5
Very good. Have you tried the experiment with Mars? > I felt the solar plexus energy build up It is important to have good relations with the solar plexus chakra entity - usually a nature spirit. >found myself moving my spine even straighter and upright The Light likes a vertical spine - including as an antenna for energies from on high > Golden Phoenix Go back in time to the appearance of the phoenix and visualize a piece of paper next to it with the words "Solar Logos". Push the paper close to the phoenix and see what happens >Phoenix or maybe a Golden Eagle Here is the Earth's golden eagle in Leonardo's drawing of the Allegory with Wolf and Eagle. In China, Sirius (the dog star) seems to be called the wolf star. >I am the Most High" and I asked who it was and it said "I am Anu" This is interesting because THM is Anu but not the same as the Phoenix. Anu means heaven so is not a personal name. In Egypt he is An - the god of millions of years that travels in a boat of millions of years - and hence an alien in craft. Here is Sumerian Anu as the cup-bearer for Alalu whom he later overthrew. This is actually a life-like image - hence the common translation of Annunaki as repulsive Here is an OT reference to Anu as the Most High - he was the oldest and hence the tallest because those "gods" apparently do not stop growing as they age. (See: www.sacred-texts.com/ufo/irl/index.htm ) Hence as the tallest he was/is the Most High. Deuteronomy 32:8 When the Most High gave to the nations When He separated the children of men, He set the borders of the peoples According to the number of the children of Israel. 9For the portion of the LORD is His people, Jacob the lot of His inheritance. You will note that the lord god of the Jews only was given the people of Jacob - and accordingly he was jealous of other gods. Also those people were his inheritance - suggesting a family relationship with TMH - seems a grandson by Sumerian accounts - therefore meriting only a very small group of humans The Hebrew word Al/El - often translated as god, comes from the Sumerian Ilu where it meant both tall and god. Thus Alalu referenced above can be translated tall-tall - TMH. What fun you are having!
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 8, 2022 21:30:09 GMT 9.5
Very good. Have you tried the experiment with Mars? Yes. When I do it I feel an influx of the red vermillion colored energy build up in my heart and spreading throughout the body with warmth. It is important to have good relations with the solar plexus chakra entity - usually a nature spirit. Is the energy building up there and feeling the solar plexus directly a sign of good relations with it, or how does one build a good relation with the nature spirit in the solar plexus? The Light likes a vertical spine - including as an antenna for energies from on high Makes good sense. In the instructions you mention uncrossed legs - is that important? I've always done seated meditation with crossed legs which I find quite natural. If you insist on the recommendation for uncrossed I will do that instead in that case. Go back in time to the appearance of the phoenix and visualize a piece of paper next to it with the words "Solar Logos". Push the paper close to the phoenix and see what happens It became a brilliant Sun with Wings of the phoenix. Here is the Earth's golden eagle in Leonardo's drawing of the Allegory with Wolf and Eagle. In China, Sirius (the dog star) seems to be called the wolf star. This is uncanny. Feels like that is the exact image I saw of the Golden Phoenix and even how its rays then shot from it and into my heart. You will note that the lord god of the Jews only was given the people of Jacob - and accordingly he was jealous of other gods. Also those people were his inheritance - suggesting a family relationship with TMH - seems a grandson by Sumerian accounts - therefore meriting only a very small group of humans I don't think I understand. Are you saying I have a relationship with Anu? The Hebrew word Al/El - often translated as god, comes from the Sumerian Ilu where it meant both tall and god. Thus Alalu referenced above can be translated tall-tall - TMH. What fun you are having! Fascinating. Thank you so much.
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Post by paul on Mar 9, 2022 6:27:02 GMT 9.5
>When I do it I feel an influx of the red vermilion colored energy build up in my heart
It seems that the stream of Light that is your connection to the Source of All comes into this solar system through Mars - hence the color you see
>how does one build a good relation with the nature spirit in the solar plexus?
Send light from the heart
>Feels like that is the exact image I saw
Leonardo was/is a profound spirit sent to help Earth humanity
>It became a brilliant Sun with Wings of the phoenix.
So the phoenix is brother to our solar logos and no doubt to many other logoi
> Are you saying I have a relationship with Anu?
The quote was not directed to that point but your own experience with TMH/Anu would seem to indicate that.
Here is an experiment: Visualize yourself and put a piece of paper next to you with the words: a son of Anu
What happens to the paper?
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 10, 2022 7:04:05 GMT 9.5
Heart of Flame Exercise. Naturally ended the session after 20 minutes.
Where to begin... The flame itself. I find that the flame now is multicolored, I am sensing shades of green, blue and vermillion red all intermixed - the flame itself also feels brighter and stronger. The light around the heart in the method has a tendency to become more Silvery White than Golden white which I found odd - it kept happening throughout the whole session.
As I began working on my legs - my attention was immediately drawn to the lower part of my body - around the perineum. There I sensed a very big octopus with multiple arms sucking near my perineum - almost directly from there. I asked it who it was and I essentially said that it was there because of all the karma surrounding sexuality and abuse of its function. I tried giving it light from the Heart - but it said that is not what it wants - it wants forgiveness. And I asked forgiveness for what? Forgiveness to yourself - for abusing the sexual function. So I forgave myself and felt tears well up in my eyes as this happened - and found at least one of the octopus arms release - though I kinda feel/sense there is more work to do there.
I continued with the spreading of the energy - and as I got to the next step my attention was immediately draw to the right side of my torso - around the heart area - another big blockage. It felt like a web of karma - and when it required to its genesis - it said that it was a field of untamed desires. And that only by releasing the desires could I rid myself of it. So I said you can have Light from my heart instead and I filled it up with that - and it said "Yes - this is good, but I will come back unless you release your untamed desires"... After this I felt a big build up and release of energy from the sacral to the solar areas and shaking out of my body.
As I moved onto the front and back of the body I found a couple of spiders that when inquired said, "I just like being around your light" but then scattered as I filled myself with white light. At this point I found the white light to be even more silvery and to have filled the entire part of my body.
As I reached into the throat and head areas - I got the returning strobelight effect of white light behind my eyelids and in the third eye inner space. Like a download of light of sorts.
At this point I felt several things happening. One I felt the return of the Eagle of Light - it flew in front of me and over me and landed in my heart at one point. At another point I found an almost Jesus like figure made of light that made a mudra similar to the Prana Mudra but without the ring and little finger and thumb touching and with the thumb on the side instead. And I felt a stream of Light coming from this being. I felt this Light was connected with you Paul but I am may be mistaken. I felt incredibly grateful to have received that Light as it felt powerful, holy and intensely cleansing at the same time.
After this I tried the experiment with the "Son of Anu" - at first I tried with the piece of paper, and I am still perplexed. It was immediately destroyed - and burned or smashed into pieces. Instead I asked what my connection with Anu is and now my memory is slipping but I vaguely recall something along the lines that I helped free some beings and that now I am being aided in freeing other beings - and that the Annunaki are now with me.
I am left with a nice calm feeling now - lots of warmth in my entire body and a feeling of inner peace and lightness. It's quite lovely. So I place my hands together and give thanks from my heart.
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Post by paul on Mar 10, 2022 8:31:28 GMT 9.5
> the flame itself also feels brighter and stronger.
Good
> become more Silvery White than Golden white
Visualize a piece of paper with the words: Diamond light of the Buddha. Put that paper next to the silvery white light. What happens?
> found at least one of the octopus arms release
Doing well. Some of the sexuality misuse is using it to hold partners
> this is good, but I will come back unless you release your untamed desires
Are you surprised about how clearly you are able to communicate with inner plane entities? Such skills require a refined light body
>returning strobelight effect of white light behind my eyelids
Go back in time to the experience and put a paper next to that strobe with the words : Light of the soul. What happens? Try: Light of the World. Try : Ancient of Days
> almost Jesus like figure made of light
Go back in time. Paper with : My sponsor. Paper with: RPH
>"Son of Anu" - at first I tried with the piece of paper, and I am still perplexed. It was immediately destroyed - and burned or smashed into pieces.
Extremely strong interaction indicates not only an accurate statement but also a lot of energy in the statement
You are moving remarkably quickly
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 10, 2022 8:46:47 GMT 9.5
> the flame itself also feels brighter and stronger. Good > become more Silvery White than Golden white Visualize a piece of paper with the words: Diamond light of the Buddha. Put that paper next to the silvery white light. What happens? > found at least one of the octopus arms release Doing well. Some of the sexuality misuse is using it to hold partners > this is good, but I will come back unless you release your untamed desires Are you surprised about how clearly you are able to communicate with inner plane entities? Such skills require a refined light body >returning strobelight effect of white light behind my eyelids Go back in time to the experience and put a paper next to that strobe with the words : Light of the soul. What happens? Try: Light of the World. Try : Ancient of Days > almost Jesus like figure made of light Go back in time. Paper with : My sponsor. Paper with: RPH >"Son of Anu" - at first I tried with the piece of paper, and I am still perplexed. It was immediately destroyed - and burned or smashed into pieces. Extremely strong interaction indicates not only an accurate statement but also a lot of energy in the statement You are moving remarkably quickly >Are you surprised about how clearly you are able to communicate with inner plane entities? Yes, very surprised. Diamond Light of Buddha => Silvery Light expands and becomes more intense and picks up in energy intensity. Starts moving in a sort of spiralling almost toroidal shape from the top of my head and down through my torso and then kinda enveloping my body in it. Light of the World => Earth Globe spinning above my head with Light where I then saw multiple places from Earth's grid shoot out with Light beams that then went into my heart and gave quite the Light show. Ancient of Days, led to reaction with intensity of energy leading to each of my arms going out with the same mudra but in a hanging on a cross position with my arms outstretched and Light building up in the entire body with a massive flux that then calmed down again. My sponsor: Intense energy rush of White Light entered into my body along with a massive Kriya that lead to spontaneous movements and seeing/sensing something like either a Lion or Falcon-headed connecting with me. Super intense. RPH: Massive build up of energy in the solar plexus, stretching from inside and out in all directions. Feeling something like a Golden-light emanating from there and expanding out.
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Post by paul on Mar 10, 2022 8:53:32 GMT 9.5
So you win on every test. Brilliant
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 11, 2022 2:22:30 GMT 9.5
So you win on every test. Brilliant What is RPH? What is a sponsor? So many questions
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Post by paul on Mar 11, 2022 6:09:18 GMT 9.5
>What is a sponsor?
You have a sponsor standing just outside the planet. After you next do the Flame, have a look for him.
>What is RPH?
I used a code so as not to allow your mind to interfere with the experiment. I will observe for a while
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 11, 2022 6:47:21 GMT 9.5
>What is a sponsor? You have a sponsor standing just outside the planet. After you next do the Flame, have a look for him. >What is RPH? I used a code so as not to allow your mind to interfere with the experiment. I will observe for a while I believe I made contact during the Flame exercise. I went outside the planet and found him waiting for me there. Clearly Falcon-headed in its appearance and in my mind I then heard "Horus". He said, "Yes. I am your sponsor. You are under my protection" to which I asked and for what purpose? To which He responded, "We are preparing you for what is to come. You will be guiding sentient beings through the transition into the new solar system" (or something to that effect). Is there a relationship between the Egyptian pantheon and the Annunaki? This feels like a silly question because I intuitively feel that to be the case - but I don't know how or why.
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 11, 2022 6:56:43 GMT 9.5
Flame Method.Flame today was vermillion red with tinges of green. White light enveloped whole of my both legs easily and started activating quite quickly and immediately as it appeared as such. Going through the abdominal space a massive build of energy occurred with an activation of both the sacral and solar entity - with a feeling of something 'releasing' from the solar plexus area. Almost as if building more energy and then shooting it out from the solar plexus area into the emptiness. I felt intuitively guided to spend more time on the spine today - the back side - and felt myself intuitively brightening the entire spine area by area - as each part of the light penetrated deeper into the tissues I would feel a muscular release. I felt some entities scatter by the Light that hovered over there - but I did not feel moved to communicate with them - they felt less important than simply moving through the spine section by section as each part released.
I also made sure to give my kidneys energy from my heart - and as the white energy touched my kidneys - I would see the energy transform in frequency and become blue. I breathed through the kidneys multiple times and making sure not to release the energy on the release.
The light moving through the arms very quickly picked up the energy as well and instantly felt blood flow increase through my hands. As the energy was pushed up in the throat and mind - I felt a complete silence and immense peace. It was wonderful and beautiful.
Breath ceased for many moments and I started smelling something like pure oxygen or a floral incense of Light - like being on the top of a enormous mountain. So fresh and charged with Yang energy.
As the white light enveloped in my mind - I moved beyond the planet and connected with the sponsor. At this point (besides the communication as described above) I felt intense transmission of energy through my entire body.
After some time - which felt like a long time but was not that long - the energy calmed down and I am left warm and flowing inside.
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Post by paul on Mar 11, 2022 8:00:54 GMT 9.5
Is there a relationship between the Egyptian pantheon and the Annunaki? This feels like a silly question because I intuitively feel that to be the case - but I don't know how or why. Zechariah Sitchin made a reasonably good case that there was only one set of gods on the planet at a time - until the war in the heavens resulted in a new group taking over au1lib.org/s/Zecharia%20Sitchin?order=bestmatch&page=2Isis and Osiris seem to be the same as Fuxi and Nuwa Here they are as Nagas with lots of Masonic ritual and symbols
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Post by paul on Mar 11, 2022 8:13:35 GMT 9.5
> with a feeling of something 'releasing' from the solar plexus area.
Go back in time to the event and slow it down. Put paper next to the flow with: Release of old patterns If that does not match try other words
>as the white energy touched my kidneys - I would see the energy transform in frequency and become blue.
Look at the kidney nature spirit. How does it relate to you?
>I started smelling something like pure oxygen or a floral incense of Light
So developing more inner senses. When an entity or energy approaches you, it is useful to have a sniff before letting it come too close. This sense is related to "a nose for trouble"
>connected with the sponsor. ... I felt intense transmission of energy
Go back in time, slow time down and do a paper test for "higher subplane substance for light body" and "intent patterning"
When you are in doubt about something (e.g. hormones) ask your sponsor. He knows you better than I
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Post by paul on Mar 11, 2022 8:16:57 GMT 9.5
>Flame today was vermillion red with tinges of green.
I suspect that progressively your flow from The Source of All will bypass Mars and come more directly to you.
You can test this by moving up the stream of white Light and see if only part of it goes through Mars
It is likely that as you refine your light body the incoming Light requires less transformation to lower frequencies
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 12, 2022 9:05:17 GMT 9.5
Did the method twice today. Second time better than first. I will describe the second time today as it was more of a full session. When I focused on the flame today I got the distinct feeling that it was silvery. Around the heart was also very much a white silvery feeling rather than the white-golden feeling. Spreading it through the legs was similar as usual. Pushing the light from the heart into the abdomen was intense and lead to swirling motions of energy. But when I got to the front and back part of the spine - and started pushing on the back - I had a distinct feeling of something stuck at the bottom - the impression of multiple big octopuses or similar many-armed entities. I connected with my sponsor - and He gave me the clear mudra-sign and appeared with the Falcon-head once again - and I asked him to insist in removing all the entities in my spine and around that area - as as soon as I asked for it, He said "Sure thing" and I felt a massive influx of energy which lead to a massive Kriya with a complete trembling and shaking of my entire body, twisting of the spine and speaking in tongues. Super intense. After this there was a sort of download into my brain with lots of light (strobe light) again. I also did the test in connecting with the kidney nature spirit to find our relationship and how it relates to me - I found this difficult as there were many different messages. At first I received a message that its relation to me happens through the Solar Plexus and is intricately connected with my Self-Esteem. I then went on to receive the message that one way to show it joy is to move more physically through running and using my muscles. I found this quite strange as I assumed this would deplete the kidney energy (as you mentioned Paul). It then said that just giving it attention and love was a big deal in itself. So yeah many messages at once I felt. This one was interesting - as I did the higher subplane substance for light body - I felt something was placed around my head? A sort of toroidal sphere that was turning around inside and out in a upside-down spiralling pattern. Something like this but with my head immersed in it - With "intent patterning" I did not really get a clear response. And I tried "download" myself and not much happened besides the continuous inflow of energy through the center of my brain with the strobelight effect.
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Post by anshinodharma on Mar 12, 2022 9:15:10 GMT 9.5
When you are in doubt about something (e.g. hormones) ask your sponsor. He knows you better than I Do you know who my sponsor is? Was my understanding of the communication correct?
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Post by paul on Mar 12, 2022 10:29:12 GMT 9.5
> I felt a massive influx of energy which lead to a massive Kriya with a complete trembling and shaking of my entire body, twisting of the spine and speaking in tongues.
I can see there was a major clearing but there is still a ball of dark light a little above the tail bones
Ignore the speaking tongues - very rarely is it actually a language
>one way to show it joy is to move more physically through running and using my muscles. I found this quite strange as I assumed this would deplete the kidney energy (as you mentioned Paul). It then said that just giving it attention and love was a big deal in itself.
So give light/love to the kidneys and then do your run. I do about 3 km in the morning, some through parkland
>A sort of toroidal sphere that was turning around inside and out in a upside-down spiralling pattern.
Hopefully that will remain continuously in place. Intend that lower mental substance is discarded
>With "intent patterning" I did not really get a clear response
That will come when your mental structure is more refined
>Do you know who my sponsor is? Was my understanding of the communication correct? > Falcon-headed in its appearance and in my mind I then heard "Horus". He said, "Yes. I am your sponsor. You are under my protection"
So you were in contact with your sponsor when you were incarnated in ancient Egypt. The name Horus is not personal.
Horus/Heru has the root HR. It means both high born and from far away. Even today English royalty are HR.
Try looking at your sponsor and putting paper next to him with: amphibian
Then try: Deneb
Initially my sponsor was an amphibian rather like a deacon in Masonry. I was quite close to him over various lives, but then he got promoted and his replacement was just functional rather than personal
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