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Post by sammy on Nov 13, 2022 3:57:56 GMT 9.5
"So much to learn..."
You are processing well, and also part of the experience.
Paul I think will have more to offer for your inquiries than myself. I will offer anything I happen notice.
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Post by stewartedwards on Nov 13, 2022 5:28:44 GMT 9.5
'Deneb'. I am still exploring the intensity of my desire for women - a very classical masculine trait, related to very base desires. I keep removing the octopuses related to this - but I find the visceral deep heartfelt desire remains. Like something is "missing". Like I'm lacking some sort of key or understanding - and God has given me this lesson in a thousand different forms so I can truly understand it. Is this part and parcel of learning to embody the Planetary Logos? So much to learn... 1. Deneb. Anshinodharma please give me an honest answer here (assuming you are willing to answer), as I need accurate feedback to improve myself. I was drawn to ancient Egyptian feminine energy, with a hint of Sumerian/Assyrian/Babylonian (I can’t differentiate them yet). Am I close or way out? Thanks in advance. ( Added: certainly a hot sandy place with gold and vivid colours). 2. You will need to master your base instincts re women to fully progress. I would go as far as to say you have to become neutral, by which I mean well balanced between your own masculine and feminine energies. It will happen in time. For clarity I do not mean become bisexual, you can still enjoy solely women, but you do need to rise above it all. I have been born pretty lucky in this regard, so I can’t tell you ‘what is missing’, all I can do is suggest you keep working on making yourself a better person on the twisting stony path of life. Hope that helps a bit.
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Post by paul on Nov 13, 2022 5:39:31 GMT 9.5
Deneb is the dominant star in Cygnus.
>I find the visceral deep heartfelt desire remains. Like something is "missing"
Look inwardly at your heart. Can you see a gap near the center - missing etheric substance?
Look at your mother to see if the missing substance is attached to the front of her chest. Give her light from your heart and ask for the return of that substance
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Post by paul on Nov 13, 2022 5:40:23 GMT 9.5
>I feel more vitalized today despite sleeping very little
Increased life force reduces need for sleep
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 13, 2022 23:53:55 GMT 9.5
Deneb is the dominant star in Cygnus. >I find the visceral deep heartfelt desire remains. Like something is "missing" Look inwardly at your heart. Can you see a gap near the center - missing etheric substance? Look at your mother to see if the missing substance is attached to the front of her chest. Give her light from your heart and ask for the return of that substance This was profound and exactly right. Deep in the center I noticed there was a piece missing. And my mother was holding it for me... I gave her heart-light and she returned the substance to my heart. With it came immense kriyas throughout the entire body -- and a sense of deep calm and love. Deneb is wonderful. I feel deep love and reverence even just speaking it internally. I wonder its connection to me - much to explore.
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 13, 2022 23:54:30 GMT 9.5
"So much to learn..." You are processing well, and also part of the experience. Paul I think will have more to offer for your inquiries than myself. I will offer anything I happen notice. Thank you sammy, appreciate the kind support.
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 14, 2022 0:01:44 GMT 9.5
1. Deneb. Anshinodharma please give me an honest answer here (assuming you are willing to answer), as I need accurate feedback to improve myself. I was drawn to ancient Egyptian feminine energy, with a hint of Sumerian/Assyrian/Babylonian (I can’t differentiate them yet). Am I close or way out? Thanks in advance. ( Added: certainly a hot sandy place with gold and vivid colours). Deneb is special. I am unsure as to its spiritual background yet - will let you know as I explore more. 2. You will need to master your base instincts re women to fully progress. I would go as far as to say you have to become neutral, by which I mean well balanced between your own masculine and feminine energies. It will happen in time. For clarity I do not mean become bisexual, you can still enjoy solely women, but you do need to rise above it all. I have been born pretty lucky in this regard, so I can’t tell you ‘what is missing’, all I can do is suggest you keep working on making yourself a better person on the twisting stony path of life. Hope that helps a bit. It does - thank you for your advice.
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Post by sammy on Nov 14, 2022 0:15:38 GMT 9.5
Something I have had pinging around.
When bodies started (the beginning) they were a result of will, as well as inanimate materials. So like you are let's say hammering a nail in a wall to hang a picture. You think I need a nail and it is in your hand. You think next I need to hammer it and a hammer is in the other hand.
This is from your will though so you could think I need a nail right here, and there it is. Some people preferred to do things the physical way even knowing how not to.
So back to my point (sorry). Part of this was every person has a male and female energy inside them. Gender was only as much as a thought, and both exist in all of us.
I don't know why exactly I kept having this nudge me but I felt it might bring something to the table.
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 18, 2022 8:25:27 GMT 9.5
Kinda roller coaster day today.
My girlfriend who is pregnant was feeling anxious because of some intermittent pains (apparently quite normal) that happened the past few days. I checked and didn’t find anything wrong with the baby and everything thriving. But she kept worrying and then decided to do a private ultrasound. While it was nice to see everything was well — I can’t help shake the fear surrounding the ultrasound. Thankfully it’s transabdominal and not transvaginal like really early scans — so it felt less invasive. She’s also only one week from the 1st trimester scan that is recommended all pregnant women all over the world now without them finding any issue regarding this so perhaps just needless worrying. I’ve sent a bunch of heart light my child (I feel it’s a male child/personality incoming) and as much love as I can. I hope it’s doing well.
On top of this I feel the burden of working at a general practice as a family physician where the senior doctor has decided to go on vacation for three weeks and left me in charge of 5000 patients. I should’ve never agreed to it — but I’ve learned a lot from the experience. But it’s been very rough very constant onslaught of patients constantly needing things from me and then on top of very uncomfortable patients as well (two of whom I’ve told Paul about).
In tonight’s session I felt a lot of anxiety at first and unable to sleep after. So I’ve just been working with my sponsor again and again and there’s this huge density / physical pressure around my throat that was being worked on. Almost like endless streams of dark clouds/masses or octopus arms were being pulled out from my thyroid/throat area. Felt very uncomfortable but while this happened my ice cold feet suddenly turned warm and my body feels warm all over. Anxiety also got better.
I wonder if I was being attacked by certain intelligences related to the patient I mentioned to Paul… I wonder if I need to shield more or I simply need to become more equinamious.
When a patient complains I feel it almost like a physical attack. Heart beating and massive anxiety. Despite knowing I’ve done my best to help them and wish them the best. So it’s frustrating that my physical response is so quick to kick in in such a visceral and fear-based manner.
I hope more Heart Flame will over time change my relationship to the elementals so they become more cheerful and less afraid even when something unexpected happens…
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Post by paul on Nov 18, 2022 9:19:28 GMT 9.5
>left me in charge of 5000 patients. Many years ago I lived in a spiritual/intentional community. There were 3 founders and the male took the lead in managing the 300 resident members. I would see him walking around and could tell by his walk whether the community was happy with him. When he had upset quite a lot of members, they, having inadequate control of their emotions, would focus their upset energies upon him. And he would walk bent over. When the community was happy with him, he walked quite upright. So you have taken on 5000 patients and have some sense of why the senior doctor has stepped away. There are two obvious issues. One is lifting your emotional body above the subplanes on which the heavy energies are entering your system. Here is the exercise: a406.proboards.com/thread/973/21-steps-enlightenmentRead the thread twice, looking for body locations. Then use intent with the relevant plane/subplane numbers at the those places etc. The exercise is a technical extension of the Flame. It takes some time to lift the emotional body, but working slowly through the lower subplane locations will largely release the daily attachment of adverse energies. Of course where you have unresolved issues it will take longer to clear those subplanes. Some of your unresolved issues seem to come from The Holy Inquistion. churchandstate.org.uk/2016/04/the-horrors-of-the-church-and-its-holy-inquisition/Mental, emotional and physical memories of the Inquisition produce a variety of symptoms including fear of being denounced to authority. Aside from the Inquistion, one of the common physical memories of past lives is dislike of tight things around the throat. This comes from being hanged too often as well as from some variants of The Rack. The physical, emotional and mental bodies contain trauma, through the mechanism of "permanent atoms". They carry over the learnings/traumas from past lives, thus avoiding a "black start" each life. beaskund.helloyou.ws/netnews/bk/fire/fire1037.htmlen.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_start>When a patient complains I feel it almost like a physical attack In that situation, increase the Flame and sit completely inside It, consciously drawing all your limbs inside its energy field. Then send heart-light to the patient. You may wish to remind the patient that it is a medical tradition to seek a second opinion. >my ice cold feet suddenly turned warm and my body feels warm all over. So the life force finally reached your feet. Keep working on that.
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 21, 2022 18:10:46 GMT 9.5
>left me in charge of 5000 patients. Many years ago I lived in a spiritual/intentional community. There were 3 founders and the male took the lead in managing the 300 resident members. I would see him walking around and could tell by his walk whether the community was happy with him. When he had upset quite a lot of members, they, having inadequate control of their emotions, would focus their upset energies upon him. And he would walk bent over. When the community was happy with him, he walked quite upright. So you have taken on 5000 patients and have some sense of why the senior doctor has stepped away. There are two obvious issues. One is lifting your emotional body above the subplanes on which the heavy energies are entering your system. Here is the exercise: a406.proboards.com/thread/973/21-steps-enlightenmentRead the thread twice, looking for body locations. Then use intent with the relevant plane/subplane numbers at the those places etc. The exercise is a technical extension of the Flame. It takes some time to lift the emotional body, but working slowly through the lower subplane locations will largely release the daily attachment of adverse energies. Of course where you have unresolved issues it will take longer to clear those subplanes. Some of your unresolved issues seem to come from The Holy Inquistion. churchandstate.org.uk/2016/04/the-horrors-of-the-church-and-its-holy-inquisition/Mental, emotional and physical memories of the Inquisition produce a variety of symptoms including fear of being denounced to authority. Aside from the Inquistion, one of the common physical memories of past lives is dislike of tight things around the throat. This comes from being hanged too often as well as from some variants of The Rack. The physical, emotional and mental bodies contain trauma, through the mechanism of "permanent atoms". They carry over the learnings/traumas from past lives, thus avoiding a "black start" each life. beaskund.helloyou.ws/netnews/bk/fire/fire1037.htmlen.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_start>When a patient complains I feel it almost like a physical attack In that situation, increase the Flame and sit completely inside It, consciously drawing all your limbs inside its energy field. Then send heart-light to the patient. You may wish to remind the patient that it is a medical tradition to seek a second opinion. >my ice cold feet suddenly turned warm and my body feels warm all over. So the life force finally reached your feet. Keep working on that. Thank you so much for this response. It made things so much clearer. I imagine the intense feeling around the throat was related to the inquistion memories that were being purged or processed rather than actual dark energy being released in that case? I've experienced it before multiple times, so it seems a recurring theme.
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 28, 2022 0:00:56 GMT 9.5
Been on travels visiting family — grandmother and her husband. Good news was that his cancer in his liver had not grown and he was feeling much better. I sent him heart light.
At night when about to sleep I felt so much love for my partner and the growing child inside her — I feel it is a boy coming. And feels very similar to my elderly sister’s child in personality which is very loving and kind. I traced the golden thread which I saw go from the child in the uterus and then all the way to the higher realms with lots of white light when I tried to trace it. And I felt so much love and gratefulness and just immense joy. Tears roll from my eyes. I also told myself how much I love myself and I could feel my body react favourably to all the love so there was warmth spreading all over the body including my feet.
I feel much less lust as well… after drawing the energy from my mother as per Paul’s advice I feel more whole and loved. There is still lots to do — especially the spleen and kidneys are still not completely strong yet but I feel they are getting stronger the more heart light and love I spread around my body… I feel I must envelop myself in love to rise above any and all fears and anxieties I may have…
We are about to buy a house — and going to do a bid tomorrow. So I tried to trace whether we were going to get the house and I got a very favourable energetic response…
Very grateful. Will keep going.
I also feel like I’m starting to get a feel for the different elementals of the different sections of my body. The elementals at the perineum feels very energetic and fiery and the elementals around the solar plexus I feel needs a lot of attention and love and care from me.
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Post by sammy on Nov 28, 2022 0:35:53 GMT 9.5
So glad you have found this! A truly blessed experience and one I have shared with my own family.
Life will always throw curve balls but just try your best to keep expressing that moment. It holds the potential to last forever.
Congratulations on the bun in the oven and good luck on the house!
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 28, 2022 1:07:03 GMT 9.5
So glad you have found this! A truly blessed experience and one I have shared with my own family. Life will always throw curve balls but just try your best to keep expressing that moment. It holds the potential to last forever. Congratulations on the bun in the oven and good luck on the house! Thank you so much for the kind words sammy! I will do my best 🙏
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Post by paul on Nov 28, 2022 5:30:17 GMT 9.5
...the elementals around the solar plexus I feel needs a lot of attention and love and care from me. Quite so. The experience of joy demonstrates you are doing well
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Post by anshinodharma on Nov 29, 2022 5:44:15 GMT 9.5
Last night spend at least ten-twenty minutes going through the method.
First I re-established the anti-octopus light in the room where we stay, making sure to bless my partner and my child before lying down.
Then I saw a clear strong blue brightly and densely burning flame deep in the center of my chest - and then went on to spread the white-golden light around the body. First down through both legs and then back up locked in the hip area. I then focused a lot on the lower spine. I could sense between each vertebra when I placed the heart light around each of them there was muscular tensions - like immense pressurizing feelings that would manifest as I moved my awareness over these areas... Warmth would spread in that area. I sensed locked traumas that I then released and had relatively small kriyas through the body through each of the vertebral spaces... When I went to the head and into the brain there was bright white light and I felt immense joy...
Today was good too but toward midday, I was feeling very fatigued and wanted to rest.
I am still trying to understand the fluctuations of energy that can happen. It seems my kidneys still need a lot of healing and may require more rest here during winter.
I also felt a bit more lust energy arise again today when initiated - perhaps initiated by one of the patients who I felt were deliberately sending sensual vibes. As time passed however I recognized that these were simply energies parsed through my system and to rise above them. I try to focus more on love now and relationships rather than the dense physical feeling that can arise.
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Post by anshinodharma on Dec 1, 2022 16:38:22 GMT 9.5
Not much new to report. Heart Flame method before sleep time sitting upright in bed. Went through each section of the body and circulated white-gold light around until all parts were nice and warm. Called upon both my sponsor and the 7 Rishis and immediately flooded with gratefulness and happiness. Went through the spine deliberately too, lots of tension release.
In the end just sat in emptiness. I didn’t feel much communication happening. I then put my hand over the baby and felt it swimming around inside there and inside a glowing purple light. I feel tears welling up in my eyes… it was beautiful. My internal vision wasn’t very clear however.
Then just sat in emptiness.
I hope I am still progressing. I didn’t feel much direct communication happening— just a peacefulness. Maybe it was too late and the energy was telling me better to prioritise sleep. At least my sleep tracker Oura tells me I’ve hit a score of 90 today which is excellent — so something was done correctly. :-)
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Post by paul on Dec 1, 2022 19:26:42 GMT 9.5
You are getting good results. No need to over-think
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Post by stewartedwards on Dec 1, 2022 23:57:31 GMT 9.5
Internal peace while chaos reigns around you Anshinodharma is not a bad place to be. Where this can lead… 1. Some in chaos might get quite upset by your peacefulness and scream at you that you lack emotion. There are perhaps annoyed that this energy source has been severed, as they can no longer get you to feed their anger etc. 2. This might take some years, but you might find that you begin to rise above daily life and begin to see bigger pictures. From how individuals can throw and receive back anger a bit like a tennis match, through to global events and how eg, in the current context (of which Ukraine is important but it has become a single element in this context), we are almost sleepwalking our way to global war. Don’t get me wrong I hope that much is being done behind the scenes to prevent it, eg the talks with China. Even so the energy is still flowing in the direction of stumbling and bumbling our way to ww3. It’s both fascinating and frightening. The problem is that, like back in ww1 days, we are still too focused on our specific nation. Evidenced eg by the rise in nationalism globally, and populist politics geeing up individual emotions to be played for political benefit.
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Post by anshinodharma on Dec 2, 2022 7:56:51 GMT 9.5
Thank you both for the kind encouragement. Much appreciated.
Todays practice 30 minutes, 20 minutes seated and 10 minutes lying down basking in the energy.
At first I felt compelled to connect directly to the 7 Rishis after the talk with Paul about them and the incredible love I feel for them. As soon as I connected I felt I “saw” the Great Bear in front of me and then heard “the third from the left” repeat quite a few times as I got the impression that I have a special connection with the “third from the left” and as the stars emitted light. As I began to move my attention to my heart the flame was quite huge — emitting both blue and massive red glows that expanded in a cocoon of golden light. This light then enveloped me and I also felt my sponsor arrive as the “bird”-headed being almost like a crown 👑 at the back of me with wings spreading being superimposed onto me. I was told from the “third from the left” that “we are upgrading you — you have an important role in uplifting humanity as a planetary logoi — we are rising you from the lower substrates and into the higher”. My impression here was that I was still deeply enveloped in the anxieties related to the worldly as pertaining the lower chakras and they and also feeling Paul’s influence here are helping me move up the scale so to speak to become more developed.
Then I went ahead and spread the golden light all over my body and everything became nice and warm… Flickering lights behind my frontal eyes and a complete emptiness without thoughts… just presence. Quite intense energetically with a feeling of downloading extra stuff.
I placed my attention after this on my/our child and prayed that it will be a healthy and happy child. I could sense some of the underlying lower chakra fears trying to distort things in my minds eye and try to impact the visions so I instead focused on praying and thanking the incoming personality for wanting to join us in love.
As I finished and lied down I noticed I was suddenly getting thoughts related to prior lovers and potential lovers — and how those thoughts were almost manipulated as a “maybe that would’ve been a totally different life for you” in a fear of missing out-kinda way and also with a critical slightly nuisance-like view of my partner instead of simply loving her fully for all her flaws and imperfections — like I have mine.
I reminded myself that these were not my thoughts but most likely external interference and thus rose above them enveloped myself in the white golden light and moving it up and around my head like a cellophane layer and resting the empty space. The thoughts disappeared and more warmth emerged in my body and here I am writing this now.
Thanks again 🙏😊
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