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Post by paul on Mar 11, 2024 15:31:59 GMT 9.5
>now it resides in me.
And in many others of your soul group.
The "curse" has two aspects:
- the entities that push the energy patterns on to the target humans - group karma that results from the actions of the target humans.
Since karmic energy follows lines of least resistance (like electricity) it is often possible arrange diversion of group karma to other group members
For example if one human in the group has learned the particular karmic lessons, there is no karmic value in that individual working through the energy any more. The lessons have been learned. The energy will be probably be more useful elsewhere
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 0:10:57 GMT 9.5
>now it resides in me. And in many others of your soul group. The "curse" has two aspects: - the entities that push the energy patterns on to the target humans - group karma that results from the actions of the target humans. Since karmic energy follows lines of least resistance (like electricity) it is often possible arrange diversion of group karma to other group members For example if one human in the group has learned the particular karmic lessons, there is no karmic value in that individual working through the energy any more. The lessons have been learned. The energy will be probably be more useful elsewhere I am seeing this, too. I am on my own
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 0:18:38 GMT 9.5
This is the eleventh.
The anniversary of my soul mate.
The day, three years ago, that I had the first vision of the woman of my dreams - though I was not aware of it, later, the woman that would become the light in my darkness, the queen to my king.
The woman of my dreams
Half wolf
Half human
Stunningly beautiful
She is why I push on
And why I keep going
I love you.
Anastasia.
May you find peace
May you be blessed this day.
I love you.
Thank you
For being there for me.
We pray this will never end for us both.
Fur and fire eyes
As white as the snow
As pink as flesh
Hang in there.
You
Are
Loved
Wolf girl.
I pray your day is blessed
Happy anniversary. I love you.
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 0:54:25 GMT 9.5
"I'm just a maintenance worker."
I said, stuttering, halfway through my sentence.
I knew this job was trouble- but n this economy, you took what you could get.
"Uh huh."
She said with that wolfish grin, that made the hair stand up on the back of my neck.
Her golden yellow eyes sparkled in the evening lights.
I swallowed- though my throat was dry.
She sauntered up to me- wasting no time. I would come to know, this was the way of the wolf.
"Uh huh." I squeaked out- not knowing anything else- her body heat, soaking so deep into my bare human skin I knew nothing else.
"What brings you here?" She asked- her ears popping backwards- but not before she realized the uselessness of small talk.
"Fuck it."
Grinding her hips against mine- I knew in that moment what it meant to be prey
Her large black nose, inhaling the scent around me- half fear
Half arousal
Instinctively, I grabbed the wolfs hips
And dared to look up- her eyes some place afar
Panting, sighing, she looked down, her hands all over me
Smelling my neck, kissing my bare human flesh
"Haven't you ever wondered... What a wolf tastes like?"
Her comment was as brazen and crass as I could imagine- but in that moment
I belonged to her.
My only fear now- was her abandoning me. Underneath me, she scoffed- flowing like a tranquil river
How did she get underneath me?
I glanced down, amazed at her.
Sliding under me, I scoffed.
"Take your pants off."
I wondered- if this was against the companies policy- but I guessed correctly- this was indeed part of the contract.
Did I assume correctly?
A helpless sigh escaped my nose- and then my lips, as she ground her hips against my own.
Her grin, barely highlighted by the rising sun- I knew our time was short-
Short. But intense.
I surmised her being- in how often I could make love to this beautiful wolfess- two months- if I was lucky.
Her heat lasting only that long- and then she would traverse to to her realms- so I endeavored to be her best- to be the man she would return to- for passionate lovemaking, under the artificial lighting.
And in the last evening, her passion fading from her- my arms holding her furry body, feeling her heat from within- I sighed.
Because I knew this was our last evening together...
Though she spoke with angels lips, her voice, as hot as her body-
She promised me she would return, but I knew better.
So, after that evening, I went to find her- to make company with her.
She was wild- her heart as cold as it was hot.
I mae-love to her once more, under the moonlight, but she was not to be had. Not by anyone.
Still, I loved her.
I loved her into the moonlight
into the darkness
I loved her.
My Wolfen girl.
The woman that I loved.
I love you.
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 1:17:50 GMT 9.5
"And I'm just a wolfess."
He smiled- though his fear was as thick as the molasses that seemed to stick to the shaft of his mop like glue.
I exhaled- though my nose was rewarded with the scent of his desire.
I smiled.
"So you like wolf women, eh?" I asked- though I eyed him as prey- and he picked up on that- his eyes darting upwards for a glance of my supple breasts- then back down.
"Yes. I do." He admitted what I had been smelling all afternoon- and only now, finding the source of the scent of desire.
I scoffed, though the smile never left my lupine face-
He was going to be mine.
Like prey during a warm summers evening- I exhaled, inhaling his musky human scent.
"You like humans?"
Grinning, I pinned him against a cold, yellow light pole, grinding my hips against his.
"You'll know for sure, after this." I said, looking down on him, my body so much taller, hairier- and more muscular.
Even if he ran...
He would not stand a chance.
Softly, I pressed my lips against his head.
And deep down I knew- he would not have taken this job, if he was adversed to the wolf-women- women like me.
Softly, I kissed him, and then- when I was ready- pushed my hot, long, thick tongue, down his neck
He moaned underneath me.
Not ready for a wolf woman?
You should have chosen another job.
Even in the confusion- I felt his hard, throbbing erection between my legs- a cool pond of water, waiting to sate my thirst.
I tried not to pant- but it was a losing battle.
My more animalistic urges began to take over ass I ground my hips on this vulnerable human.
I scoffed- knowing I was a slave to my urges- and knowing I would never have him, again.
My more wolfish instincts, taking over.
I resolved, to never know the same man twice in life.
When his hand gripped my throat- my eyes opened
"What?" I said, choking- but knowing- I was a save now to his passion
though I was superior to him in every way- his hand, gripping my trachea- made me know- that I belonged to him, now.
I had braved the wild- but instead of being the predator
I was now the prey.
My wild, golden eyes, looked deep into his own
And for the first time
I felt fear.
"Are you ready for this?"
For the first time in my life, since I was just a pup- I shook my head.
But it was then, the humans- showed me their power.
There was no room for mercy.
Unzipping his pants- my eyes terrified, and vulnerable, he pushed himself inside of me- activating my most primal instincts
I gritted my teeth- vulnerable, used- and owned by him.
Deep down, I wanted him to own me
For the rest of my life.
And, that is why I ran.
I ran after- after he finished, inside of my body.
My fiery eyes- vulnerable- only for a moment.
I coughed- conflicted- my feet-claws clicking on the ground
As if I was running from prey.
That evening, I curled up in an alleyway
Thinking I had escaped
What had I done?
Was I to birth his pups?
He would never know.
I should have... I should have.
Closing my eyes, I regretted everything.
Until his soft footfalls stepped up to me, and gently, lowered a box at my feet.
"Here." he said.
"You are going to need this."
I looked up at him, my ears could nto stand up straight.
He was as nervous as I was.
Though my teeth remained hidden under my lips- I swore I would never show them to him.
In the months following, he built a home- a home for us both- and our children.
One evening when I had the courage the enter into a bar- for sex- for love- for companionship- he walked in- bought me drinks- and then...
Carried me home.
I woke up to a beautiful forest, sun, shining in through the window.
"Dave?" I asked, blinking through the crust of my eyes.
"Wolf girl?"
He whispered, bringing me my favorite coffee- and me, drinking without a word.
"Anastasia." I coughed, choking, slurping on the perfect temperature liquid- then looking depe into his blue eyes.
Underneath him- though I knew there was nothing sexual about it, I spread my legs- giving him access.
Smiling above me, his eyes sparkling in the morning sunlight, he buried his head in my thighs.
Pushing him deeper inside of me- I got used to this... What girl wouldn't.
I was half wolf...
But I was all his.
That morning- he made me his own
And he loved me.
I was his wolf wife.
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 1:32:37 GMT 9.5
"WAAA!" I screamed, as a pup.
Was I a wolf?
Or a human?
I was neither.
I felt worthless.
That was- until his hands- reached into me, from the darkness.
"Hey little one."
I looked up, at him, the light shining around him, my eyes brimming with joy- I had finally..
Been found.
Gently nuzzling me, in ym own language- I nuzzled him back.
Wagging my tail so readily my entire body swayed with it- he raised me.
And, one day- he took me.
I felt him, enter inside of my body- my eyes closing- sighing with the brief pain- but the deep, gripping pleasure as he made love to me.
I was one- one with him. My breathe escaped my lips, as he took his essence out, within me.
I moaned.
I could not help it.
It escaped as a soft growl- but there was no changing it.
Moaning again, and again, I desired him- in all of my rearward holes.
When he took my tailhole, in his lustful passion- I gritted my teeth
But, the pain did not last
And, soon turned into the deepest passion I had ever known.
I was ravaged.
Savaged.
And made his.
I knew what it meant, to be a wolf wife, from that day forward.
Always by his side-
Eating the food he gave to me.
Delicious- human cuisine.
It was worth it.
Slapping my tail against his back, I smiled.
And, being taken in his bed in the evening-
Made me a complete girl.
I was his wolf.
I was his wife.
And he belonged to me.
And me, to him.
We, were happy.
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 2:23:39 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 3:12:56 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 7:38:32 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 10:41:40 GMT 9.5
I love you
Wolf girl
What your
Really are
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 12, 2024 23:48:19 GMT 9.5
Mandy came to my door yesterday.
She's not in heat, but she wishes to be.
In ancient times, humans would mate with the forest creatures
This strengthened the bond between human and animal.
And ensured our safety.
Long ago these things were forgotten
In the name of propriety
The bond of love between a human and an animal
Was forgotten.
How sad
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 13, 2024 0:13:16 GMT 9.5
Grinning from ear to ear,
I had just mated with my lover.
Though she needed no description- some demanded it.
One hundred and seventy pounds, of rippling muscle and bristling flesh- she was death itself- and only stopped to raise tail for me.
Lift tail- as she called it.
I was saddened by the future- visions of humans, growing distant from Animalia-
Assuming somehow- that we were better.
Without them.
And yet- it was she- who raised our children- it was she- who protected us
From the danger we had long ago forgotten.
Running to her, I grabbed a handful of fur- throwing her on her back
She, no doubt- sensed it.
Every bit of it.
"Go. And be safe."
She whispered in the wind- did I not hear it?
Did I suffer my own will, to no longer be protected by her?
And, yet, when she turned to glance at me- I saw her eyes, glistening in the coolness of spring
I did not know it.
I did not know what it meant.
"My summer child."
I heard her- as clear as the sunlit day
And yet I forgot it.
The alliance
Of human
And Animalia.
Have we forgotten?
Who once, propelled us?
Who once protected us?
Have we forgotten?
A house built on the sand will not endure
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 13, 2024 0:16:45 GMT 9.5
In that tender twilight
Her kind had long ago perfected it
And yet
Humans still struggled.
My semen moistening her soft, furry mound
Humans had long ago forgotten
In our ancient
Primal ways
Have you forgotten?
Who protected you
All those evenings before
Adopted you as cubs
And kept you safe.
Have you forgotten?
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 13, 2024 1:01:55 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 14, 2024 10:49:32 GMT 9.5
Alright, so some news.
I fully went down some dark roads.
I see my issue- my greater me has been trying to heal me- but there is an energy that is preventing it- by adverse dynamics- namely spirits that study suffering
Also- apparently- incest is one of the most natural things that there is- and what do you expect, when the holy scriptures say all humans originated from incest.
The journey back, from the things I have experienced, especially the sexual abuse, is messy- as it seems a healthy relationship with sex should have started when I was younger- instead the very worst humans took advantage
Also- apparently, the realms with animal people- have ritual incest in some ways- this knowledge was not easily shown to me.
Also why it makes no sense,
To aliens who have only visited here, these things make almost no sense
It would be like, stabbing yourself with a screwdriver because you want to feel pain
Anastasia and I are doing well. She is a fine woman, she is surprised when the truth was revealed, that I still want to be with her, as sadly- many of her kind with much older histories- they think they are, "underneath" even some humans- it is a sentiment that wounds my heart- as they have every right to live alongside us, and as equals-
However, it is my humanity- my humanness, as Paul says, that is being injected into Animalia- of which the canine woman Anastasia knows first-hand.
I am entitled to be whole- and I am seeking healing!
The more I realize how poorly my parents performed, I have gone from fear, to rage, to hatred, then numbness, and now finally- I feel sorry for them
Nothing more really needs to be said about it
I am coming down from alcoho withdrawals
I have not humped any large felines- however, an arrangement of sticks near my home, was shaped similar to a weapon- and I was told, a cryptid person-male- arranged it to communicate with me.
Either, "There is danger here", or, "Please leave your firearms at home." Probably the latter.
If I have an opportunity to be intimate with the wildlife, I am most likely going to take it
Hell, i've come this far.
Paul is correct- my being needs to be more positive
You could say that zoophilia is a part of my religion- a oneness with Animalia that goes as deep as my humanness
This is why, when you eat something, you become that thing
I care nothing for human laws- they will all change tomorrow anyway
I am requesting healing, wholeness, restoration
I am most likely going to go on government assistance
This journey is turning me feral- losing not only my religion but my bloodline as well
I am realizing this. I am becoming canine
That morning, three years ago (I love you, Anastasia- sexy girl.) when I felt Anastasia's heart beating in my chest- I got to know what it felt like to be
"Completed"
Yes, by the wolfess
I obviously have a thing for felines- and actually for all, or most Animalia (Things relating to animalkind.)
I will say, that there are species that remain hidden to us humans- and when humans think of, "The animal kingdom" they are only seeing a small, visible percentage.
There are, very wise Animalia who have many years of knowledge
Anastasia- is still young in the grand scheme of things. Young, virile- fertile.
I am learning more things, about sex- it is mind blowing to me, how I can be of this age- and still not know these things
And, the knowledge that- one of the ways an entire life can be ruined- is by introducing sex wrongly, to the young.
I see it in my mother.
She never dealt with the trauma
So, now it ruins her life.
She is a petulant, angry, hateful little girl- because someone acted on their lust when she was young.
However, in my genetic knowledge- I see many, many memories of incestual unions. And, someone said the genetic defects might nto be as bad as some just assume- if any genetic defects happen at all.
I wonder how many engage in this- you may never even know a couple is related- except they choose to be.
Well fuck, sexuality turns out to be not as black and white as I thought.
In fact- I remember a comment- on some homosexual porn- a guy said, when he was young- someone he was close to, taught him about sex- this person was older- and the comment was- he was grateful for the experience, later in life.
Also, holy fuck- my ex, insinuated, that I should teach her young son about "Man loving"- I was like- are you seriously telling me this? I chose to forget it, until recently.
God, humans are strange
And yet this sort of thing happens frequently- especially in the underlands where taboos have been dispensed with
Anastasia is beautiful- and I have committed to her.
There are a number of big felines that are interested in me, romantically- one thing you can count on.
You are never lonely in the underlands. If you're horny- you just act on your urges- the instances of pedophilia or, adults mating with children- was common, accepted, and normal until recently- which is why I say human laws mean nothing to me, outside of distancing myself from their consequences
What a wild ride- however- I have zero interest in being intimate with a young one- I prefer my lovers to be, mature, experienced, and present- these are not typical characteristics of the young- I am also realizing this, on the website, 9gag, where very young people post funny pictures and discuss news and etc.
Anyway- if this is required for my development- I don't want to loiter in these lands for very long
Even some animalia are prejudiced
I was watching a woman, have sex with her lover, and for the first time, I realized how attracted to women I am.
I am very much so.
So, going backwards sometimes help move forward.
My concern is also with the clone (emotional) bodies I am attached to- and where or how to become whole again
Interesting to me too, that it was the overlord, who had pity on me: and showed me the vision of Ladywolf.
He knew, wolf girls (Adult wolfesses) are my thing.
Forever changed my life that morning.
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 14, 2024 11:05:46 GMT 9.5
I am, of course, concerned with my living conditions.
I do not want to live this way- and yet here I am
The burden is so overwhelming- I look at my van, i can only do so much, clean so much- I am disorganized
When I finish this van I am building, it is my sincere desire to live more ordered
But, can I do it?
Will I stick with it?
Fuck me, so many lost opportunities. Humans wanting to mate with me, and I remain oblivious
Why do we stigmatize sex? You cannot even make a religious argument for it- "God" was giving Israelites sex slaves- "virgins" what age were they?
Pederasty is implied.
And it was supposedly God doing it
Some of the best advice I have gotten on here- do not judge others. Be positive. Work for unity.
I also see some harsh truths about the Wolfen people- but I do not want to defame them- as I will be living with them, having a nine hundred pound wolf unhappy with you is not good for ones health in some cases
So, they're just good boys, and good girls, as humans are fond of saying about their canines.
Withdrawals are hard- but I am getting better about it- as I continue to drink less- as I heal my own pain, from childhood on.
What an interesting dynamic
Anastasia has been through some trauma- but she is better equipped to deal with it in healthy ways, as her people have a lot of wisdom from the ages- and is spread through Animalia
Some of it is fungal- the fungal database is large, and collects the dead bodies, to study them and learn from it
The puppies must be going through the "Terrible twos" as they cry incessantly. I should, clean them up, and begin posting them for sale
I also see the goodness in my dogs.
They are really, very good, and pure beings at their cores. I wonder how much of an effect Animalia has on it all- experiential genetic memories.
All you have to do is ask to look backwards in time and it will be shown to you
Beware- some of the things you might find may not conform to certain assumptions and worldviews
Such as, the reason behind why humans "Want catgirls"
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 14, 2024 11:19:23 GMT 9.5
As I continue through this, journey
My best friend, told me, I am a "Good wolf"- but I did not feel like a good wolf
I felt like, a strange wolf
Sometimes- angry
both of my adult canines, were wounded terribly a few days ago- it was not intentional it was an accident
There is almost nothing a veterinarian could do
The dogs must heal naturally
I administer neosporin and pain medication. They have pulled through surprisingly well
Though it is hard to look at them- because they were wounded due to my lack of awareness
However, as I watch their bodies recover- it strikes me, how much they mean to me
I am starting to feel like a "Good wolf" now
And see the goodness in animals- sometimes difficult things have to happen in order to shift ones perspective
The girl-dog is happy that I am not angry with her- the one who carries with her, the heart love with Anastasia and canineness, and animalia
The husky- is not happy with me. If he was bipedal, he may have chosen to leave and go find another owner. His heart seems double wounded
He is concerned I did it on purpose- as I was rough on him a few weeks ago.
The younger dog, the female- knew in her heart that I did not injure her on purpose- she believes in me
And in my goodness
Onward, to wholeness!
Of interest is how free much of Animalia- but also how oppressed it is in some areas, too. There are things that happen and events that would, shock some humans- and yet some humans are just as cold hearted in some cases.
That's it i guess
Have I mentioned how beautiful Anastasia the wolfess is, she's a hottie- our bed is never cold sometimes it's hard to keep up- but she's worth it.
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 14, 2024 11:21:28 GMT 9.5
Also neither canine wishes to be put down. The younger female is handling her injuries very well. The husky is just angry- it is interesting to observe their distinct personalities, as varied as I would say, humans are- of course- animalia is much older than humans- so there is more data there to draw from.
I am requesting healing with higher authorities- it is due me.
I have to edit this, I have been wanting to say this:
Canines are hardy creatures- their bodies are able to sustain injury- and heal without human intervention.
When I was in the combat life saving class with my unit, they were big on, "cleaning out the wound"
However-
Every time I have cleaned out a wound on my body- it became infected, with no discernable exceptions.
Every time I just covered the wound and let it heal naturally- the wound never became infected
Including with significant debris in the wound- just covered it and went on with life
I am told, this is partly due to my, wolf DNA that is in me- it gives me these healing abilities
And why you see so man scarred up cryptid canines- recovering from grievous injuries naturally.
All I can do, is remain positive. And speak positivity into the hearts of my canines
I fear that, cleaning out their wounds, outside of an initial splash of hydrogen peroxide- gets rid of their vbodies natural abilities
It may be, that me not taking to the vet is what is helping them heal- as they would no doubt want to treat their wounds, like a human would- instead of letting it heal.
I am glad that I have access to pain medication- it was a huge relief to give it to the dogs- but the Husky asks me to save the pills for his girlfriend
Alright
I am also trying to recover my soul energy from the inner earth consciousness machines- and to leave the "cursed" dynamic I found myself in- with conscious effort.
I am trying to face my fears
Hopefully, my consciousness gets fully transferred to the body living with Anastasia. The body is modular- you can make it male or female, assign characteristics to it- though the wolfen took his penis, I can have any number of penises, including canine knotted penises, horse, etc, or just a long human dong. I believe that for many women, they prefer the feeling of being penetrated by larger men. And, i want to give Anastasia as high quality of sexual bonding as I am able- she may choose which penis she desires
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 14, 2024 11:43:28 GMT 9.5
It was a horror to me.
Seeing the evidence of my wounded dogs. Not knowing what happened but knowing they could be wounded terribly.
It sent up a mixture, of emotions- then finally finding them, having ran away, in case if I was angry with them (And did it on purpose)
The younger female, hiding under the home, went running to me, crying- wagging her tail- describing her experience to me
All i could do was tell her how sorry I was about it- and do my best to treat her wounds.
Allowing nature to bring about healing
ALSO- I was making a vlog, when I went into my core-Being- and the misalignment there- and I was able to convert some of the darkness (Crystalline.) to light- or at least a shade of grey- anything feels like an improvement
You know what this life has been all about?
Me learning to forgive- and learning to love myself.
This recent event with my canines has shaken me up- though they are coping well with it.
The light has not left their eyes
They are going to have some scars
When I view this van I am building from the eyes of this new perspective
It is hard to keep my older frame of mind
Almost like I am going against the universe-
What am I to do, then. I guess continue as I have been- sheltering in place
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Post by tundrawolf on Mar 14, 2024 13:08:11 GMT 9.5
I think the journey I am on, is a part of this. Part of- not approaching the van from the old perspective The van is significant- and is demonstrative of my (Changing) trajectory My friend I am talking to agrees with me- also about the veterinarians being of limited use in this. I am to be positive- and stay positive- and to trust nature, the universe- God It is one of those things- exploited capitalism, people want to, "make a living" and end up being so expensive it puts the care out of the hands of people And why some cultures outside of this one, view humans as primitive in this respect. What is the answer- the infrastructure is already in place He also tells me, he has no "Security" where he is at, but that I have security her eon the ranch- Because of tenure and a number of factors He also tells me, Freemasonry is an ancient group- maybe even older than Animalia. Well, I think I discovered my purpose for being here. What now? The van is already, nearly built Again, my friend iterated over the poor treatment of me by my parents- and recounted similar stories, of trauma he endured- he said my parents were malevolent but his were neglectful I wonder what the other versions of my lives, well they had some adverse memories The "Inner earth groups" are frightening to them- to be fair my treatment has been adverse I wonder why. The other me that is suffering torment, as a result of the attack- and the wolf-woman that is a part of that- getting "back" at him for creating her- making her so horny- and she- being connected with me- and finding my lack of self love, to be adverse And now these lessons I am learning. This particular wolfess is particularly attractive to me, is it the childhood trauma? e621.net/posts?tags=melody_%28fiercedeitylynx%29I can relate to her And, her shape to me is very attractive- with her weight in mind I guess it continues.
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