Investing energy in the wrong things.
Oct 11, 2024 6:05:47 GMT 9.5
Post by tundrawolf on Oct 11, 2024 6:05:47 GMT 9.5
I have become increasingly aware, that I have been investing "hope energy" for the future, in wrong (passing/decaying) things.
Case in point, when i was still enduring some deep sorrows, I bought a sort of Chinese, lantern style light.
it remains, decaying int he sun, outside of my window. I thought, for a moment, if i buy that, it will be a source of beauty that may help sustain me.
But, I am wrong. When I leave from here, if and when that time comes, it will, either be thrown int he trash, or left to continue to rot in the sun where it will crumble to dust.
Case in point, when i was still enduring some deep sorrows, I bought a sort of Chinese, lantern style light.
it remains, decaying int he sun, outside of my window. I thought, for a moment, if i buy that, it will be a source of beauty that may help sustain me.
But, I am wrong. When I leave from here, if and when that time comes, it will, either be thrown int he trash, or left to continue to rot in the sun where it will crumble to dust.
It is "nice" to look at, but it does not provide me with any real hope. This is part of the dynamic of the situation I entered into at the wolf sanctuary, a painful and adverse dynamic, that not only take your authority from you, but does not allow you to escape it, either.
things continue to be adverse, and I struggle to see how they could be anything but such.
Come november, we will begin to see the trajectory of the planet, on the surface, at least.
Come november, we will begin to see the trajectory of the planet, on the surface, at least.
"So, what are the right things?" coming out of delusion. some light peeking thru