Interesting childhood dynamic
Oct 5, 2024 2:07:14 GMT 9.5
Post by tundrawolf on Oct 5, 2024 2:07:14 GMT 9.5
There have been deeply disturbing memories coming back to me about my childhood, about a specific incident involving my mother and emotional/sexual abuse, which may have been why my father tried to murder me and failed,
Watching this:
About how an abused child will "take on their parents evil" and bury their true selves
Well, this happened to me to such a degree I am, "lucky to be alive", and this trauma was used by the reptilians/other beings involved at the wolf sanctuary incident, to take that "real me" captive
While, the "old self" created to help the real my survive this horrible world, was attacked and is dying, and the real me, is wounded, this entire dynamic has been planned for a long time, much longer than just one incarnation
Well, I am seeing it. This is why there is a growing rift between my mother and I
Well, I am seeing it. This is why there is a growing rift between my mother and I
She does not remember it
I did not remember it
I am recalling it just now,
She is incapable of dealing with it at this point
Well, this is how I was made so vulnerable, to be attacked on multiple fronts simultaneously at the wolf sanctuary, and in trying to heal, it has been ineffective, due to the fact that the real me has been masked and hidden, wounded- not known to me or allowed to be known, as my mother could not allow him to emerge, survive, or experience life, as it would uncover her sins
Well, this is how I was made so vulnerable, to be attacked on multiple fronts simultaneously at the wolf sanctuary, and in trying to heal, it has been ineffective, due to the fact that the real me has been masked and hidden, wounded- not known to me or allowed to be known, as my mother could not allow him to emerge, survive, or experience life, as it would uncover her sins
Because- I have been desperately trying to heal the false ego... Which is also why nothing ever worked for him, relationships, religion, etc. He was the false self, and the real healing and discovery must be done with the true, real self that has been shrouded for some time, perhaps even held hostage, by dark forces (no blame to Ladywolf)
It still remains to be seen, who will "win", as this is a fight, and it seems as if the outcome was pre determined at the wolf sanctuary
It still remains to be seen, who will "win", as this is a fight, and it seems as if the outcome was pre determined at the wolf sanctuary