Positive update.

[tundrawolf]

I am beginning to see why I am not allowed to leave this ranch, yet.

I have not made peace with my mother, and as the new person I am becoming. not peace with her physically, as she does not possess the necessary intelligence or memory to understand what she did, but a number of things came to me, and yesterday, I was partly, able to let the dynamic with her go. I was planning on changing my name, but now, it does not seem necessary. As this dynamic is becoming nullified.

Two positive jobs have manifested, which may get me through the year.

I was able to begin to discern, between the karma and trajectory, of the old me, vs. the new (original) me, the original me does not suffer like the old me does.

I have decided to stop drinking hard alcohol. beer only. For me, this is significant. I tend to suffer a lot when drinking hard alcohol. The experiences have not been positive. (Outside of resetting my brain and perspective.)

I am seeing more motivation to complete the overland vehicle- at a minimum getting in running and driving

I had a conversation with the tenant of one of the jobs, and it was very positive. I learned a lot. He is a Christian, and I shared some of my religious experiences. It was a very good, positive, and edifying conversation, and I learned in some respects not to be so judgmental

I discovered two new sets of spices, I have not used them, but I exclaimed verbally positively when tasting them together,

Both from Trader Joes (Use amazon)

1. Mushroom and company, multipurpose umami seasoning blend (Grey label)

-and-

2. Everything but the Elote seasoning blend (Yellow label)

These spices seem to be life changing when combined.

There were perhaps some other things but I forget them

The downside, I have been telling my dogs we are going to go to the park, but have failed for two days now. This makes me sad

Unfortunately there is an asshole there who seems to have beef with me, but I believe he has been trying to avoid me

I was contemplating Pauls word about loving self, and it tainting my efforts to help people. I am struggling with loving myself, but I am also confident I will find the solution or it will be presented to me

I am giving up on the attachments to this life, and it is good. Then, nothing can have a hold over me.

I am adjusting my cult, the first steps are to be enlightenment, then sexy women and cocaine, and pizza (good food)

First, adoring the shapely butt of Asrael, (love and appreciation of animal folk, and hot wolf people/wolf "girls"-women.) and blessing her various ways that please, bless, benefit her, then enlightenment, then fun parties. I think this works better than just going straight to the parties.

Ohhh I saw some light clearing, about the situation I am in

It was real good

[tundrawolf]

Ohhhh fuck I nearly forgot, I discovered why I was sent here- and how the darkness tried to fuck that up

Also feeling a strange kinship with humans

Seeing this thing come full circle, dealing with it

[tundrawolf]

I think, (i am creating bylaws, as is required) one of the rules is, you can do anything you want

But, if it is discovered what you are doing is adverse, then we will hunt you for sport (fun) and kill you (for example, if a pedophile molests a kid and the kid grows up and claims the experience was adverse, then we will hunt you, even after death. It is a soul contract)

So be good

Certainly better than eternal damnation

[paul]

>So be good

There are 3 phases of being good.

In the first manifestation of this solar system, the solar Logos was learning about energy and intelligence.

In this second manifestation the (replaced) solar Logos is learning right relationship - a god of love

In the next version of this solar system, the Logos will be learning Intent

Thus being good requires practicing the current lesson of the Logos

For example, martial arts exist within the aura of a great entity left over from the previous version of this solar system. Be careful not to practice what the solar Logos does not need to learn

[tundrawolf]

I like watching drunk Scottish people camping

www.youtube.com/watch?v=EvwfKoa2rMo

[tundrawolf]

Oct 2, 2024 14:04:41 GMT 9.5 paul said:

>So be good

There are 3 phases of being good.

Be careful not to practice what the solar Logos does not need to learn

this manifests to me as viciousness

I quite enjoy it

As if such things are necessary to produce the next stage of evolution

And yet- such violence is abrogated in the next realm

What dichotomy