Beginning to wake up.

[tundrawolf]

Been going through a lot (I cannot remember a time when I haven't in this incarnation.)

Loss of the love of my life (My other half, a slave of the reptilians, forced to endure this connection, and finally, discarded as trash by them. Let this be a warning to all of humanity.)

Destruction of myself through influence of adverse/evil forces

Returning from said destruction as I rebel against the wicked reptilian forces (and others.)

In all of this, and being a part of this forum and making earnest attempts to heed Pauls advice, I am beginning to discover, the original untainted "me"

The being who came here, for a purpose, to lay hold of MYSELF, and shrug off the reptilian chains and darkness

The process has been ongoing the last few days.

It is not a transformation, but a resurrection

It is clear to me, now, the reptilians are the true enemy of mankind. During embracing the darkness, I began to find within me, a deep knowledge of how vulnerable the human race is, and that is why I am here. This is why the reptilians did all they could to capture, enslave, and destroy me. Surviving an attempted murder by my parents, a lifetime of torment by them, even separated from them, their genetic connection to me is being used to affect me negatively.

Drug use, two near fatal overdoses, wolf attacks, being shot at, surviving war, motorcycle accidents, vehicle accidents, near suicide, heart issues, health issues, forty years of depression, aimlessness, lack of meaning.

The list is a short one. I have survived a number of things that have taken other humans out.

My heart reminds me, of what I discovered when I faced the reptilians, and walked into their lair, the tenderness I had been searching for, was within me- exploited cruelly by the reptilians in their hubris. May it be their undoing, as the human race finally begins to wake up.

This planet needs a purge, and it has needed a purge for millennia. The oppression system thrives under the subjugation the entire human race is experiencing under the thumb of the reptilians. I need more healing. Perhaps this is why I am here.

Revenge aside, I am pursuing this, newfound discovery of a root in my self.

I see it, clearer all of the time. And, with it, comes the energy to rise up, to push forward, to claim the day. This, out of the ashes.

From what I can see, I am to give it a week. I am chomping at the bit, however I am also trying to allow the rest process to complete naturally, instead of pushing my own timeline and agenda.

I pray the human race awakens, and opens its eyes.

There is a time of tyranny coming, that will not be stopped without a massive shedding of blood, which will empower and feed the reptilians, which we may never recover from.

Never before has the technology on the surface of this planet been seen to enact the ancient prophecies.

Humanity, is slated to be enslaved by its own technologies, by useful morons, and those under the spell of these reptilian agendas and energies.

There is a shrinking window of time for us to wake up and shake off our chains, before the plans will be enacted. As we are seeing, nations are being intentionally weakened, all across this planet. It is not going to get better. It is going to get worse. And, your vote will no longer matter. "they" are just going to "do" against the will of the collective human race.

All because the "right" humans, who had been slated to be born, groomed eons ago, fell into the traps set before they were ever even born, and right into the slimy green hands, dripping with the stench of eons of decay, that waited for them. Obsolete, old, decaying, rape of life force.

Humans will wake up, or we will continue to be the cattle the reptilians see us as. The choice is ours.

[tundrawolf]

As I see my upbringing, and the assholes who had their hands in my subjugation, that played perfectly into the hands of the reptilians and other forces, I see further evidence for Pauls words, to be wise- to forgive them. They are only pawns. Those who, pulled the strings attached to their consciousnesses are the ones who should truly be punished.

It is a waste of my attention and energy to focus on these people and these groups.

They are a diversion, a distraction, from the real adverse forces, here.

Well, I still have healing to do. It may span across multiple lives, however, I am doing my best in this one.

[tundrawolf]

I forgot the main point.

I am discovering reptilian energetic influence of myself.

It always comes in as,

Rest

Please

Sexual pleasure

Enjoyment

Euphoria

A friend

A comforter

Someone you love

A hobby

Literally, anything they an use to distract you and get you TO AGREE WITH THEM.

They are masters of, getting you to agree to your own demise. Masters of it.

Before you become aware, you are already in an oven, or so twisted up in a machine in an immortal body, you may never see the light of day, again. But the point is, not to be afraid. And, not to become pious so these things never touch you, none of that is the answer!

The answer, always, is to have root in yourself. Know yourself, know your origin, know your destination, and know your purpose.

When you stand, planted in these things, these external forces, have little to no power over you. You, an focus on the end goal.

This has been my discovery, the last few days, today, especially.

Caffeine helps me, strangely. Caffeine and tobacco. Alcohol is a help but it is also a double edged sword, and you find yourself often falling on the other side of that blade. just when you think you have it under control you find yourself trapped in another adverse situation, BUT I DO NOT CONDEMN IT.

In my dying moments, I hope to, as the Bible says, to have "Strong drink" to help me into the next world.

[tundrawolf]

The reptilian influence, connects to your energy, dances with it, then snares and enslaves it

All...

With your consent.

It is terrifying to the layman, who may see paranoia at every turn, every emotion...

If you ever get to where I am at, when you learn to differentiate the energies, you find it easy to discern them, to swat them away.

Pauls energies and levels of control of ones self, is essential for this, and I see why it is necessary.

I am going a round a bout way to this end, as it seems I have always been approaching life from a backwards method, and have always wondered why, but that, too, could be a byproduct of being so influenced by the reptilians, and others.