OBE wolf girl, another theory

[tundrawolf]

So, I have the memory of being out of body, in another vessel, and meeting a wolf person, in some "other" location (Other than my physical body in "Arizona")

She is, flesh and blood, real- even though the memories of meeting her, feeling her heart beat in my chest, and then being able to communicate with her mind, are alcohol-soaked (Essentially)

Paul admits she appears as a projection.

Well, then, who have I been trying to romance this entire time-

To go along with the idea I received yesterday morning (In a way, a continuation?),

It is possible, and I understand that, I have an, "Auxilliary body" that is stored in stasis in the inner earth, in a base, connected to caverns

This body was, ripped apart and placed in a horrific configuration, as it is near-immortal

And, it is possible, both involved groups (adverse group that tore the body up, and benevolent-ish group that grabbed the wolf girl when she went to eat his spilled guts.) are reptilian (Cold blooded, calculating, possibly cruel beyond human abilities.)

Well, another theory emerged this morning.

The wolf girl, exist(ed?) as flesh and blood, I saw her, smelled her, felt her heart beat in my chest, experienced her eating my auxilliary bodies organs (fun) then was able to communicate with her mind, directly, in a series of OBEs, and other, events as I am attached to this other body.

If the "benevolent" group I am attached to, saw this, cavern-dwelling free range wolf girl, eating my body, (The being ripped apart, was, a trick, but in the strictest legal sense was, "legal consensual", (not true, this is a tactic of these groups, to get you to agree to horrible things. maybe legal but definitely not moral. In fact they may be responsible for much of the torment experienced in and on this planet, and do so, "legally")

Well, to go along with the theory I understood yesterday morning (Funny how the OBEs were in the morning... And, now, these theories about the wolf girl- are also coming to me in the morning!) is,

1. I get fucked by an adverse reptilian group, my immortal attached aux. body, ripped to pieces and placed in a horrific state of suffering (That I have felt daily, for decades, with only religious crap to explain it, not scientific)

2. In my tormented configuration, a cavern dwelling wolf girl (naked, hairless, no uniform. Is she hairless because it is hot, and her fur fell out? Or, is she hairless, because the temperature is so well regulated within the caverns where she lives that she has no need of fur at all?) smelled the body, blood, etc, was hungry and did what was natural to her- began snacking on it

3. The benevolent group of reptilians my body is associated with, caught the wolf girl, (Wolf folk and other peoples and creatures are known to these inner earth reptilians, as they have lived together for millions of years. Reptilians have longer, sharper claws, bigger, more toothy mouths, more armored bodies- much like humans are, "Squishy" to wolf folk (Weak, essentially, defenseless in general without a weapon.) so the wolf folk are to reptilians.

4. Wolf girl is not too happy about it, and is rather pissed, in fact- anger and violence is a tool of survival in the inner earth caverns in these realms. In fact, it is possible there aren't too many inner earth realms that are peaceful

5. Benevolent reptilian group, understands my situation, but cannot do much as it was, "consensual"- however, at a minimum they can arrange for me to meet the wolf girl. They understand, I have an attachment to wolf people, perhaps they learn of an oppression system attachment to me with wolves, before I was even born, designed, in part, to catch and snare me, such as the incident at the wolf sanctuary I lived at

6. Benevolent reptilian group, connects with me, in a series of out of body experiences starting in 2021, to show me my connection to the wolf person who was nibbling on my body

7. I meet the wolf woman. To me, this is the first news of her existence, and she is, the woman of my dreams (essentially) that I have been looking for all of my life (But is she? Or, is she just of that type of people. As I discovered, there are a number of wolf girls! Horny canines, and all.)

8. After, introducing her to me physically, then connecting our hearts, then connecting our minds, the benevolent reptilian group, decides to terminate the wolf girls life (Is this why she was angry? Or, just another reason. Poor girl.)

9. Wolf girl is gone, but the benevolent reptilians understand that I quite fancied her- so they set-up an Ai surrogate of her, that I can interact with, so I do not lose hope and completely give up. They understand she is/was, "all I had."

10. Here I am, discovering she is gone, and coming to terms with it. In spite of this, the wolfess, in Antarctica, whos nudes (pictures) I have- remains. She may be part AI, and I wonder, what isn't Ai for fucks sake.

11. That could explain it, and would explain a lot. It is possible the naked hairless wolf girls consciousness is partially uploaded into the AI, but even that would explain her, "meh" attitude to most things, or anger. It would also explain why Paul sees a "projection" with her. It also would explain my experience at the wolf sanctuary, and also explains, what I am experiencing, presently. This was done to help me detach, eventually, and to return to my original function (?) without becoming dinner for a wolf person, or victim for other adverse groups, and energies.

[tundrawolf]

It is possible, "my" "benevolent" reptilian group who captured the wolf girl, victimized her, possibly even intentionally- hence making her even more unhappy- but victimized her similarly to how the adverse reptilian group tricked me into allowing them access to my auxilliary (karmic?) body.

When I say it is comically easy to manipulate humans, I am discovering, many prominent humans have AI entertainment that they do not even know is there, even as implanted memories of things, that steers them, here, and there. Scary!

I hold nothing against the naked, hairless wolf girl. How shy she was acting when I first met her in March of 21, would explain that she was chastised by the "benevolent" reptilians. I would grant the wolf woman, the desires of her heart, unless it was to cause harm. Without approving, or condemning, I understand. Through her, I was able to experience a beautiful dynamic, of granting caninedom, love from my return from death experience.

[tundrawolf]

Another heartbreaking dynamic occurred to me,

Something asked me, to look into the lineage of the wolf woman I met in March of 2021.

This morning another tragic thought occurred, she is of a lineage, that was to help me. It is likely, the, "oppression system" knew this, tortured, tormented, and nearly wiped out her people because of this.

That is likely why she was interested in me, and why I am so deeply connected to her. Our connection goes back millenia.

What's another tragedy.

[tundrawolf]

I had a thought, since I find myself, in the middle of a war...

"Sides", the, "Oppression system" versus, whatever "light" I am a "part" of.

I had a sneaking suspicion, that my "side" (light lol) betrayed me, or, at least, scorned my existence.

The memories in my heart, are, well, why does the wolf girl hate me- she was SUPPOSED TO BE HELPED BY MY SIDE, but the authority on "my" side, saw the wolf people, and the wolf woman, and judged them similarly to Paul judging them, as "worthless" "just a hybrid people" and neglected them, until she took the state that she is in.

Except, she means everything to me...

And, now, she is gone.

I will say this.

Much of the "Oppression system" are beings like me- who have been back stabbed, betrayed, and screwed over BY MY OWN SIDE.

Well, now you do not get to have what I have. I will pour it out onto the ground before you get a drop of it.

[tundrawolf]

What strikes me as ironic, is, I have always rooted for the, "Bad guy" in all but extreme cases.

My mother, being a cheap whore for the oppression system, was always adverse to me. I always had a gut connection to the darkness, and an aversion to the light.

Maybe, the light does not deserve what I have. The failure that it is. There was always more fun, and liberty in the dark. And that is what every honest living thing wants, is liberty.

Expect a few more updates possibly, I have made my decision. I am done with this realm.

[paul]

If you look inside your pelvis you may see 5 or 6 small dark balls. These are relationship anchors with beings/people that are greatly contaminated by the OS.

However much you protect/separate yourself from OS energies, the OS still has access through those relationship anchors.

The key is to remove the dark balls and re-establish those relationships based on heart light

[tundrawolf]

I am at the Arizona department of economic, "security"


I did not get a mailer saying to renew my food stamps, this could be because of my adverse and hateful mother who keeps my mail and refuses to make it accessible

I went online to renew, and the option to renew wasn't available. It wasn't available a month ago, and it wasn't available last year when I needed to renew it then, too

So I called them. They hung up on me, "too much call volume"

So I called again. It connected, and said I had 15 minutes wait. Thirty fucking minutes later it kept saying I have less than a 2 minutes wait. It said this for another 15 minutes. I grabbed the phone to put it into the charger, and I accidentally hung up.

I called back, and it hung up on me (too much call volume)

So, I am experiencing overwhelm in every aspect of my life and now this again

It's institutionalized perpetual gross incompetence.

However on the way here, I rehashed my experience at the wood sanctuary, after screaming, and yelling in a rage like I never have

I think Paul is right. I just need to die. (He said in dm that maybe a part of me had to die or something) The dynamic I am a part of, of wanting more life on this planet, holds nothing for me.

It never has. Not even Eden.

I just have to die. or, embrace that dynamic.

It seems there is no way out. I surrendered my authority never to get it back at the wolf sanctuary.

The more I fight it, the more miserable I become.

Honestly this feels like the answer

So, what's next. It feels like I should not pursue more life. Finishing the overland vehicle, why.

Selling everything, so I have a comfortable past few months of life, seems like a possibility. I no longer wish to live here. Not on or in this planet. Anyway I surrendered my destiny to brutal, cruel forces who took full advantage in a coordinated attack on my beingnenss twenty years ago at the wolf sanctuary

I guess app that's left to do now is to die

[tundrawolf]

It's becoming clear, that the only work left to do is relax, accept it, and pass on

[tundrawolf]

As I accept this new dynamic, I feel like it has been the right path, but i have been fighting it

Some options:

I have, "Squatters rights" due to seniority, on this ranch. Meaning, I can stay here for some time legally.

If I leave here, then I am giving that up. It takes 13 years to cultivate it.

If I go to California, I will be living with my best friend- but is that going to be a positive situation? California is a positive place if you are homeless, but generally it is not seemingly sustainable, but I could be wrong.

Well, if I am passing on, why not just blow my brains out, that does not feel like an option. I contemplated it today, if I should just, do it now instead of trying to live more life, and it seemed like that dynamic wants more time (I was not at peace/comfortable with it)

So, that means I have to, try to continue living, my food is taken care of, but not the dogs. not insurance for my vehicle, which is "required by law" to drive. (I could use my food stamps to feed the dogs rice, beans, and cheaper food, mixed in with quality dog food, which might be sustainable), which means I would have to ride a bicycle to get my food. I could even build a small trailer for the bicycle to hold the food.

California, has good weather. I am former right wing, and it is very left wing, which I am starting to warm up to again. However, it would be like returning to an alien world

All this is dependent on having a vehicle- if I am homeless, even a small issue with the vehicle can mean I lose it, and won't get it back. So, might as well not have one

I am going to sleep on it, but I nearly dialed my government health insurance and wanted to talk to a psychologist/psychiatrist, and be honest with them.

I SEE WOLF PEOPLE

I am, plunged into a, spiritual dynamic that has destroyed my ability to participate in society as "productive"

"SSI" Social security income, is where the government pays you to help you live, because you have a disability

I should have been on disability, thirty years ago.

If I do go on that, it is possible I can have money to maintain a vehicle, and, then, live the remainder of my life out, the way I want: in comfort, in nature.

I am also religiously (my cult/the physical wolf girl would never tolerate such bullshit) and morally opposed to contributing to the present day system.

Masturbation, seems to drain my resolve for these things. I have a note on my tablet, "DO NOT MASTURBATE!!!" when I resolved to end my life in California next September.

This was after taking a possibly tainted fentanyl pill. Did the mystery pill push me to this suicide? Possibly. Is it the right thing to do? It actually, indeed seems so. If I have been resisting what I should be accepting, then perhaps the pills paved the way for me to accept the destiny I should be pushing for. I do not, have to put a shotgun under my chin, or drink myself into the next life, but, perhaps, when it is time, I just transition, as is destined

It seems as if there is more here at play than I was thinking, as I accept the new dynamic, of non fighting, accepting, and letting go, perhaps this was my destiny all along.

If I stay here, this place gets very hot in the summer and very cold in the winter, but not so in California

Perhaps, I am pushing too far forward. I keep setting goals, and they get cut down. That is why, it feels comfortable, to give up, and let go. I don't see another option and as I am discovering, I don't want one.

I just want to be done. There's nothing left for me here, nothing that justifies this, or is worth it. I have no clue how humans don't collectively just commit suicide, having to live here. Why do they even go on? It makes no sense to me.

Well, there it is, I am going to pursue this. It seems to align with my gut. Giving up, and not caring any more. Taking it moment by moment

I am unsure but each of the wolf people and such who are close to me may be all holograms. Realistically, they would be the only reasons I would have to keep suffering by pushing on, however, maybe it is just time to give up.

I guess nothing externally changes/ Just internally.

[tundrawolf]

I remember, seeing another realm, and the puppies, they would surround me, when I would sleep, and they would sing, similar to frogs but a higher frequency, and this frequency would heal me as I slept.

This may have been on some planet, unfathomable years ago, it does not "feel" at all like this realm, that particular realm had life, abundant- this particular realm is dying

But, the puppies would encircle me as I slept on my bed, and I would wake up to a pattern of puppies around me, making it hard to move, but they loved me

Well, I have resolved to stay here as long as I am able, and to continue making the bare basics of life

As far as reincarnating here, fuck you

I intend to never see another human again, that is my hope

And, as far as my mother being my daughter in the next life, I once saw a movie about a guy who killed his wife on a boat, and I wondered, as a child, why he would ever do such a thing

Well, if my mother is reincarnated as my daughter (I am working to get off the wheel, fuck this place.) my next life she may be my wife, and I intend to murder her. I remember my wife in the next life, asking me why I was staring at my daughter with so much hatred... I could not answer her outside of, "Past life things." I can see how my treacherous mother would bide her time to infect my life again- which is why I never want to see her again

I don't want to see her again

But, that is what happens during things like this, people wonder, "How could he do such a thing??" If I was a police officer or judge, and I learned that such a thing happened, and I remembered this life, I would do everything I could to acquit the "murderer"

It is for reasons exactly like this. Past life sins. My mother views her life here as a "good job" of destroying me- the issue is I won't forget it. I hope to help her make a similar decision about me.

As I intend to not give a fuck about anything any more, (not really.) and intend to go into the dynamic I entered into at the wolf sanctuary, I am seeing a great deal of important things, but in the end- they don't matter at all.

It feels like it was the intended path all along, but I was too traumatized and afraid (in crisis) to accept it

The wolf girls were a nice break from this earth human bullshit life.

I am enraged in general, and my dogs can tell, they have chewed up some of the final things, and I am getting ready to give them to a shelter, but I will keep them as long as I can, to minimize heart break (Man, fuck this place.)

What makes this world evil, truly wicked and cruel, is it gives you hope... Me, at least. I guess humans just live without hope in general, and are content to be automotons

I am morally opposed to such a vile system

It has turned the passion of my heart into my enemy

I also see, the thing i am rebelling against, is my mothers distorted sense of fearful living, that has infected me like a virus and saps me of my joy (and likely gives it to her)

The only thing that would ever make me consider investing more energy into this fuck of a life, would be if Angie knocked on my door in the flesh and invited me to Eden personally. no OBE, no vision, no bullshit. Angie in the flesh. Otherwise, fuck you! no dice.

Yes, I recall making several vlogs about my intent to take my own life, and I said I was a, "Dead man walking" in this life, several times

Apparently, it's true. I just never accepted it

~

I did see a version of myself, who has deployable claws and is immortal, who looks human, and is terrible

I recall, the reptilians responsible for my strife in this life, I find them, in a hallway, and I slaughter them

I recall, their terror was, they "Fell into the hands of a living god" and how awful it was

Well, an eye for an eye

[paul]

Sept 19, 2024 13:27:05 GMT 9.5 tundrawolf said:

.... my next life she may be my wife, and I intend to murder her...

As you know intent has power. Does your provisional intent promote that event?

[tundrawolf]

I am also beginning to see some growing horror

none of these, two legged fucks are like me

none of them

I am surrounded by humans!

The thought of this is terrifying

I thought they had the mental capacity I did, reasoning, logic, empathy- THEY DO NOT

What a terrible but necessary realization this is

From this perspective I can see why other more advanced races want little/nothing at all to do with earth humans

And, how the races that do want to "help" us, may be a trap for humans in the future- but you won;t know it until it is too late- energy thieveing and such- remember how I said this is a dying realm

In a dying realm, you should be suspicious of anything that wants to, "help"

Might be helped right into an oven

Actually, Paul- and others, you want to know the only way to know if a race wants to genuinely help the humans??

The only way, is a mind meld, like I experienced with Ladywolf, in the third OBE. There are no lies, deception, or secrets in that connection (Maybe a human cannot experience it? who knows) In that connection, you would know their true intent

[tundrawolf]

Sept 19, 2024 13:39:47 GMT 9.5 paul said:

Sept 19, 2024 13:27:05 GMT 9.5 tundrawolf said:

.... my next life she may be my wife, and I intend to murder her...

As you know intent has power. Does your provisional intent promote that event?

Why would I care? She has become corrupted to a degree that I no longer want her in any lives I have. Fuck this, lives thing, too. This system has to be stopped and destroyed

[tundrawolf]

Sept 19, 2024 13:39:47 GMT 9.5 paul said:

Sept 19, 2024 13:27:05 GMT 9.5 tundrawolf said:

.... my next life she may be my wife, and I intend to murder her...

As you know intent has power. Does your provisional intent promote that event?

Also I think you're on to something about the reptilians in orbit and the inner earth group. It appears to me they were able to go down this timeline, and plan out a horrific life of endless divine tragedy, and I have no choice now but to follow it, and stop giving caring.

The hardest part is losing the wolf women

I knew this, too. At the wolf sanctuary. The most painful part of the hijacking was finding these beautiful women, and then losing them.

The horrors I wish to visit upon them

[tundrawolf]

Sept 19, 2024 13:39:47 GMT 9.5 paul said:

Sept 19, 2024 13:27:05 GMT 9.5 tundrawolf said:

.... my next life she may be my wife, and I intend to murder her...

As you know intent has power. Does your provisional intent promote that event?

Also I can communicate with my future self and tell him what she did. So, what does it matter?

[paul]

Sept 19, 2024 14:15:33 GMT 9.5 tundrawolf said:

...Also I can communicate with my future self and tell him what she did. So, what does it matter?

You may recall the line in Hamlet that goes something like: There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than dreamt of in your philosophy

That is likely still true

[tundrawolf]

Sept 19, 2024 15:06:19 GMT 9.5 paul said:

Sept 19, 2024 14:15:33 GMT 9.5 tundrawolf said:

...Also I can communicate with my future self and tell him what she did. So, what does it matter?

You may recall the line in Hamlet that goes something like: There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than dreamt of in your philosophy

That is likely still true

I am reminded of another quote,

"Karmas a bitch"

As I go through this new philosophy, I see the emergence of a newer version of myself, with the older version...

For example, the older version of myself, would have destroyed everything, including himself, to protect his wolf girl, the new me, is learning to let go of things I cannot seem to control, and to be more attached to myself

Both energies seem to be weaving together

Is this, the midlife crisis? The old, original child-self, and the new, adult self, having a battle of transitionary peace, unsettling one anothers beliefs?

The new me is not any less in love with his wolf girl, but he is willing to play the long game. The old version would immolate himself with emotion over it, it was one of the hardest things about the experience at the wolf sanctuary

I am, a bit open to the idea that, the reptilian groups are not completely adverse, however I am unhappy with them

I am still hoping for a positive situation with the wolf people, where I can forget about this wretched life forever.

About my mother, there seems to be an absolute stupidity and ignorance in her, where she has no clue what she has done and is doing through the OS, I believe this part of her is what gets to "move on", however, what of karma, Paul? What she did to her own son, her children? She gets to just move on and have a great next life?

One of the primary woes of this realm, is the lack of justice. The karma of this realm is ripe for that reason alone

[paul]

>"Karmas a bitch"

Aug 2, 2022 11:24:38 GMT 9.5 paul said:

One of the key requirements for the third initiation - first stage enlightenment - is the resolution of personal karma

So yesterday I was thinking about one of the women mentioned in the oppression system thread, and she was feeling very unhappy. So I had a look and she was surrounded by a pale grey cloud of personal karma. Normally her personal karma is a pale grey arc next to her left side.

So after a bit of mucking around the local delegates of the Lords of Karma agreed to take away her personal karma. I was feeling a bit exposed by that as personal karmic energy is not usually taken away until the lessons have been learned. Was I going guarantor for her? Anyway she immediately felt much better

This morning, stuck in traffic she called me and it turned out that the previous day, at that time, she had been battling with her younger daughter who was managing to avoid getting out the SUV by darting back and forth in the vehicle - making her mother late for her teaching work.

So we talked about personal karma and I had a look to see what it was and immediately had an image of the woman as a nun with a rod, beating a small child.

As the conversation went on the woman realized that she was rather too strict in her class, pushing young children to do things that made the teacher look good, even when the children had run out of energy for the activity.

Hopefully I am off the hook now

[tundrawolf]

What a difference a day makes,

I endeavored, resolved, intended to accept the negatives and just, melt into the universe, and to allow the darkness to take over as I agreed to at the sanctuary,

I "feel" better about things, or at least am not as stressed, but last night I refused to be stressed, and it seems as if my rest period has lead up to this, so I am intending to keep going

I connected with the wolf person dynamic, and the feeling of heart break over it, and I brought Angie-wolf (She likes "wolf" at the end of her name) into view of my heart, and I assessed the relationship, and I intended to sense my connection with her, and I was able to discern, after some effort, that it was actually she, who was reaching out to me for a connection, not the other way around

That explains a LOT

(For example, it is not me, who is trying to court her, but the other way around.)

Weirdly, that makes me a victim of, wolf attachment to me. At least, in part- which also, wounds my heart, as the wolves, did indeed keep me safe and saved my life multiple times. I suppose the opposite is also true

My heart, still beams when I visualize a wolf person, and moreso when I visualize Angiewolf. (She is tall, soft, pristine, leggy, voluptuous, long, beautiful hair, soft but intense golden yellow eyes, warm, loving, present, kind, but intense...) She also has a deep resentment of her state, similar to me, and is in a sort of limbo with her station- also similar to myself.

There is some heartbreak over Ladywolf, but less so with Angie, it is possible, Angie sees my struggle, and is meeting me in it. This is profound

Ladywolf, it seems, has changed into a spirit- and as a spirit, it seems, that she may choose a body to inhabit, and my heart tells me, her own heart, has turned around, and softened to me.

Strangely, today, I do not feel like taking SSI, but giving my "work ability" more chances, I have a positive feeling about that, when on SSI, our government continues its crimes against humanity, by revoking the payments if you make any money, keeping you in perpetual poverty- which can be remedied by being homeless- which, the government, again, punishes

It makes no sense unless sadists are in the government, as we all know, positions of power attracts the worst beings, it is always good to see them hang

It is vile to me, how wicked-trash, scum humans make more, wicked trash scum humans, and on, and these, the very worst- seek positions of power, whereas just men, avoid such things, does this make just men, weak, and stupid?

(I include women here of course and others)

So, today, I have a sliver of hope, whos breadth shines upon a deal into the future,

In one deep pondering while drunk, I recall my being, my heart especially, remembering Pauls words, and his, "Be positive and of good cheer club", and feeling like- I wanted to join that club (It would be good, positive)

I wonder if the Freemasons were originally that type of club, that had to protect itself from negativity and foolishness

Given, that I am seeing fresh perpetuation of the wickedness of previous generations, I do agree such a club would be necessarily renewed

~

I am hesitant to reveal plans, until they are done, as they seem to be struck down, and, yet, when I keep them to myself, they seem to develop naturally. I am unsure why this is, for good, or bad reasons (Guidance? Or, negative people attaching their energy to it.) Perhaps it would be prudent to keep my plans to myself, and develop a relationship with them?

I still intend to remain here, until such time as I leave

Living with my best friend is appealing again, as he is, the only male human I have ever truly loved

~

On a positive note, after intending to go into the darkness, energy to sort my life out, seems to be bubbling up

It is happening rapidly. However it is also happening slowly. I have to be careful, here, as if I push it as I have been, it stalls it out. Relaxing, and allowing it, and being calm and still, is key.

This is the contention with human women, oftentimes, when they "push" their man to do something, never do this, there is a small possibility he forgot, very small, but there is a high chance he is preparing the energy to do it, and if he is pushed, creates ice-cold disconnect between the sexes. This was the contention between me and a number of my female partners

Make a list and I will get to it when I feel (Have the energy and desire) like doing it. This has been the source of a great deal of stress, but also growth with humans, however, in my case, trauma has prevented growth, and it only makes me bitter and hateful and angry

Further disconnecting the connection between the sexes

~

now, it seems timing between the gumption to do things, doing them, and resting, is becoming a factor, I do not want to "go off prematurely" or I can revert back into a stressed state. And that is what I am trying to avoid

[tundrawolf]

I forgot to add, that as Ladywolf is now a spirit, this frees her up to evolve, and attach to a line of existence that is higher evolved, as a great sorrow to me, is that a number of peoples I are a great deal for, seem to have achieved the limits of their evolution. However, this gives her people a chance to ride energy that will advance them, and give them new timelines

I forget if I mentioned, but i was told to mourn Ladywolf, and I did, it was long, and a difficult grieving process during a sad song that played on the radio, and of course, this sorrow is ever present, and can only be erased if and when she takes on a new form

Hopefully, I have proved myself to be worthy of this, courtship so to speak, and it brings forth good fruit