Detachment from wolf girl, progress, change of state

[tundrawolf]

A day or two ago, I worked through, the process, of detaching from the wolf woman I met in March of 2021.

It has been exceptionally difficult. In fact, this detachment process, begun, maybe, even before I was born, and maybe- is even older than that!

The attachment to the wolf girl, could even be described as, ancient.

Well, I began to realize, that as I detach from her, little by little, that, I actually begin to heal- also, little by little (in equal proportion)

Well, I made major detachment from the girl, yesterday or the day before (Time is skewed for me, often.)

I began to find, massive amounts of centering, healing, re-ordering, reattachment of better foundations.

The reason it has been so hard, is,

I got ASSFUCKED by this incarnation, assfucked by religion, born into accursed dynamics, into weakness, into helplessness, into corroded and decaying dynamics-

And, then, over twenty years ago, I experienced a horrific attack on one of my physical bodies in the inner earth, that may have been, "on ice" for, millions of years- and has been hijacked/coerced/strongarmed

I would caution people

DO NOT ALLOW ANY GROUP TO COERCE YOU INTO DOING ANYTHING YOU KNOW IS NOT RIGHT

YOU WILL PAY A HORRIBLE PRICE, MUCH WORSE, THAN IF YOU SUFFERED THE CONSEQUENCES OF SAYING FUCK NO, YOU PRICKS.

i can see how, a cascading series of, "allowing" evil, "adverse" groups to work their, "magic", to trap me in horrible dynamics

Well, UNTIL I MET THE WOLF GIRL...

I HAD NO HOPE.

I had no basis with which to, have anything resembling a more positive future, i felt I was, "damned" and etc

You might say to yourself, "Wow, she sounds stinky, and bitey, and awful-"

Yeah to you

But to me, she is my only light in the darkness. Read that, twelve times

I spent nearly thirty years, in agony, and horror, inhuman cursed and bound, with zero recourse, hope

The wolf girl represents to me... Everything.

She is, possibly, the darkness, but- if she is 33 percent darkness, she is simultaneously, 66 percent light.

So, detaching from her...

Is losing my light.

However, as I progress, and try, and especially on this forum, and push positivity into myself, and, "good cheer" as good as I can (If good cheer is 0-100 percent, sometimes it is a miracle to push it to even 5 percent.)

The wolf girl, seems to have a romantic attachment, and resists me connecting that way with her heart.

Okay, well, then I must continue then on my own.

I cannot overstate the profundity of the processes that have been happening the last few days.

However, it is also heart breaking

I understand, many of my experiences, are not, and cannot, be understood, or shared by others, even esoteric people.

This makes me feel extremely alone, and isolated.

I saw, too, that there are parts of me that are here from much higher realms, positive realms, here to assist this realm with an increase in light and positivity.

However, due to the problems that happened in previous past times (I see time as a prism, relating to these, other realms.) this was, diverted, damaged, hijacked, wounded, etc.

I DID see, in the future, when I am in my right position of authority, a certain WOLF GIRL, daughter of- holder of half my heart- padded her way into my life, due to my connection with her mother (The wolf girl I met in March of 2021.)

In viewing myself, I was not as attached to wolf-folk in those times, as I am today, but I also admit, today, my attachment is not healthy- and that there is wisdom as Paul is showing me, in belonging to myself first, and then allowing other relationships, but outside of myself.

Well, I welcome i- and it does seem as if this female wolf person, is highly attached to me, and, "Shows me her paws" and ankles/metatarsals- and, if I have forgotten/laid to rest this life I am living, then there is something primal and attached about showing me those parts of her.

Her eyes, sparkle for me- likely because of how I feel about her mother.

Well, that is a positive thing for me.

I think, she volunteered to be in the military attachment I am administrator of, and either specifically to come into my view, or she saw me, and her heart perked up- likely from the attachment to her mother.

It is something positive to hope for, and my heart, confirms it is true, as there is a positive force at work that I am not aware of, and my connection with the wolf woman of 2021, is bringing forth other relationships.

Alright

Things are beginning to change and to shift, and I am taking it easy, and not forcing things (anymore).