Wolf girl.

[tundrawolf]

Early morning hours as the sun rose, March of 2021, I had my first of three out of body experiences, where my consciousness/beingness was transported to what might be an inner earth realm (I think I saw caverns in the darkness, and a sort of, military base that had merged with the rock.)

In the darkness, lurked a shy, anthropomorphic, part human looking, part wolf/canine person, with two feet, two hands and two arms, and later she showed me, is female/ a woman.

I understand that I have been subjected to a great deal of interference, lies, implants, intrusions, distortions, and false energies, motivations, and beliefs.

The wolf person, is the most beautiful (attractive) living creature I have witnessed in this incarnation and perhaps many others.

After I was calm enough, I received another out of body experience, where I felt the wolf persons heart, beating in my chest, and she- completed me. (Made me whole.)

And, in a third out of body experience, I learned she was angry with me, angry with her idea of God, and did not want to leave her caverns.

I was, enamored with her, saturated with energy and love/desire/connection for her, and I began to try to, figure out what the fuck was going on

Why am I seeing, wolf people

I was told to try not to assume anything about her, and not to fall in love with her (fat chance)

So, I assumed a bunch of shit about her (the fuck did they want me to do?), and I also fell in love with her (She is a goddess of beauty that completes me, am I not human??)

The most recent hypothesis, is:

Either, an extremely horrid adverse group took possession of my clone body, or emotional body, whatever it is, it is physical, and it has organs and intestines, or some, "higher" group that, is supposedly, "on my side" decided to put me through horror and cosmic torture in order to, "wake me up" or "make me strong" or some bullshit. It would not surprise me. My heart is filled with anger and a desire for brutal revenge. (regardless of group.)

Well, I deified, this wolf girl, as, I remember being a teenager, and I mourned deep in my gut that wolf people did not exist with humans, and I even hoped, maybe, they existed in, "Heaven", because to me, there was nothing more beautiful, pure, or perfect. (I was also being abused severely by humans)

Well, there she was, in all of her, naked, bare-skinned glory.

I am also, beginning to realize, the hatred I felt during an attack on my clone body while I lived at a wolf sanctuary in California- that hatred was not from the wolf person. (Or, if it was from her, it was because the evil-adverse group had captured her, in order to affect me, and she hated me for that- and likely the group as well.)

So, a thought happened this morning, about this, as I want to know the truth.

Who is the wolf girl?

It is possible, she is, a, "Random, curious cryptid" girl, that the adverse/evil group who is operating in the underground base, captured, in order to bond to me, and to give me life- because they tortured my body all the way to death (Which is hard to do) and in those situations, the body refuses life again, so another life source is needed to bring it back to life to suffer some more/go back into a horrible situation.

The wolf girl, seemed to be relatively disconnected, and not fully intellectually present in the situation, (uneducated, wild... But not dangerous or violent) though I detected anger from her- and, also, likely, sorrow in her heart (it is possible the cruel/evil/adverse vicious group was torturing her as well, and forced me to feel her torment, which broke my heart, as I care deeply for her, which is possibly why my torment was so amplified, earlier), but why-

It is possible, the evil group who, cut the throat, and belly of my body, during the event at the wolf sanctuary (I felt it) then crushed my skull, mangled the body, twisted it up, and pierced it through with rods, holding it in horrific agony, to me- for over twenty years- so horrible, I thought of it every day, for those decades. It is possible, the "enemy" group did this, in order to thwart my goal here, so torment me to suicide or to distract me from why I am here, well, where the fuck is my group to help me?

During this time, I also felt, some multiplication of horror anxiety- and I was shown, it was the wolf girl, eating my spilled intestines of my body. (with her back teeth. I felt every inch)

It is possible, my cries/scent of blood, attracted the wolf girl, and she was captured by the evil group, and then her heart was used to return me to life (which she did not enjoy, and explains her negativity.) and, smelling a fresh kill, she began to feast on my bodies organs.

The idea that occurred to me this morning, is that, rather than being some, cryptid woman I created in a past life (??), she is instead- a random victim that was kidnapped from inner earth caverns, and used against her will, to give me a spark of life, because actually killing me, as they DID, is a terrible crime and as evil as they are, they did not want to face retribution for this

The reason why the wolf girl is hard to find, is either because- she has returned to the caverns (is no longer a part of this) or the evil group, took her life or took her consciousness and stored it somewhere.

I connected with her energy this morning, and she actually, returned energy to me, when I treated her, like a feral, inner earth cryptid.

Such as, when my body is healed and put back together, or I have a new body- if that is where I am, I offer her food, and adopt her (basically), and care for her, as a friend. I do not say, "pet", due to the connotations, only, that she does not mind, so long as I feed and care for her lovingly and benevolently

And, it felt, "beautiful" to love her, and show her compassion, tenderness, and empathy.

She responded, by connecting with my heart, as we share a heart, and showed me, she would not mind, being loved.

If she is, a wild, inner earth wolf girl, who was a victim of circumstance, it would go a long way, to explain why, I do not get much from mentally, when she is used to foraging and hunting and surviving in the caverns, and just being, "A regular wolf girl"

And, not some past life person, that I wronged, although if there is a past life, "Sex slave" wolf girl, that also explains a lot! Unless, the adversity I was saturated in when I was born, was strictly from my parents bloodlines, which also makes total sense, as they are both, stupid, wicked, cruel people, it only makes sense I ended up the same way!

My heart was given some relief, in showing the cavern wolf girl, love and genuine affection, and connection (Strangely she is not overly sexual. I think, she just exists, by herself, and if a mate comes, they may mate, or not- and she only cares about mating when she is in estrus, other than that, those thoughts do not enter into her mind except maybe from time to time.) and to care for her, and to love her, as a companion to my life, and- in this setting, my, "Other half".

I have zero judgment of her, and have no issue, keeping her by my side, as someone I care about, and love.

She also does not seem to be able to speak, with her muzzle, but her mind is razor sharp and she can communicate far more effectively than most living things, with her brains thoughts.

Her exact circumstances, are not fully known to me, or if she is part of a group that the evil group, keeps as test subjects, or something (like cattle)

Or, if she is just, as I said, "A regular, inner earth wolf girl, a resident of the caverns within the earth- or whatever planet"

For some reason- this scenario "lands" a lot better (Seems to be rooted in more truth than if she was a creation of mine.) than others.