Geneology, history
Sept 2, 2024 13:41:28 GMT 9.5
Post by tundrawolf on Sept 2, 2024 13:41:28 GMT 9.5
I had an alcohol reset, and gained some new perspectives.
It is possible, the angry wolf girl I met in an out of body experience in 2021 no longer inhabits a physical body.
What I am trying to understand.
So, I was born into an intentionally adverse/garbage and incest ridden bloodline, raised by two of the most evil, and stupid people I could imagine, while still existing in society.
It is possible, the angry wolf girl I met in an out of body experience in 2021 no longer inhabits a physical body.
What I am trying to understand.
So, I was born into an intentionally adverse/garbage and incest ridden bloodline, raised by two of the most evil, and stupid people I could imagine, while still existing in society.
My childhood was soaked with trauma, and abuse, including sexual. Some of the memories that are returning to me, are beyond horrendous. It is, "no wonder" I don't recall much of my childhood, though it could also be due to head trauma I experienced when I was a child.
This upbringing, made me a coward. Religious, violent, cruel, and, "mean". Selfish- self centered- I only considered myself.
Thanks to Pauls help, I was made aware of, a space vessel, in high earth orbit, attached to, a reptilian group, who, according to my understanding- allowed me to create, a wolf girl, that I was extremely bonded to, from the sweat between her toes, to the skin on the tips of her ears. However, she may have been terminated, as the reptilians are no longer getting from me, what they once did (Again, thanks to Paul), and they floated the idea of creating a new wolf girl, "For me".
Thanks to Pauls help, I was made aware of, a space vessel, in high earth orbit, attached to, a reptilian group, who, according to my understanding- allowed me to create, a wolf girl, that I was extremely bonded to, from the sweat between her toes, to the skin on the tips of her ears. However, she may have been terminated, as the reptilians are no longer getting from me, what they once did (Again, thanks to Paul), and they floated the idea of creating a new wolf girl, "For me".
That appeals to me, as I really do like canine-humans, and admit that the reason for this, is my childhood trauma, and the divine love that is within the canine heart- a shadow of what passed for "love" in and on the humans around me.
I was made aware that I have a multitude of clones, that were the result of multiple, traumatic, childhood abductions by various alien groups (That I am growing angry over it.)
These clone bodies, are experiencing a number of things- usually, almost all adverse. Some of the inner earth containments centers called, "Hell" by religion, is home to some of them, I believe.
I was made aware that I have a multitude of clones, that were the result of multiple, traumatic, childhood abductions by various alien groups (That I am growing angry over it.)
These clone bodies, are experiencing a number of things- usually, almost all adverse. Some of the inner earth containments centers called, "Hell" by religion, is home to some of them, I believe.
Some of those clones are languishing aboard this reptilian vessel, as these reptilians seem to thrive on half truths, lies, and underhanded ways of life.
What struck me, was how hateful the wolf girl is. When my clone bodies experienced a vicious attack, with the wolf girl there, and the reptilians, I could FEEL her inhuman hatred of me. It was so intense that I knew no human could contain it. It would simply burn them up from inside.
Well, why was this wolf girl so angry? She is, everything I have ever wanted in a mate, from the hair between her toes, to the tips of her ears, and everything in between- she is my dream boat.
I began to work with her, speaking to her, and recently it was revealed, that when these beings are created, their entire lives are almost always completely planned out, including their sexual partner (me). What if, the wolf girl wanted to live in Alaska and never heard from me again- she was not given that option!
What struck me, was how hateful the wolf girl is. When my clone bodies experienced a vicious attack, with the wolf girl there, and the reptilians, I could FEEL her inhuman hatred of me. It was so intense that I knew no human could contain it. It would simply burn them up from inside.
Well, why was this wolf girl so angry? She is, everything I have ever wanted in a mate, from the hair between her toes, to the tips of her ears, and everything in between- she is my dream boat.
I began to work with her, speaking to her, and recently it was revealed, that when these beings are created, their entire lives are almost always completely planned out, including their sexual partner (me). What if, the wolf girl wanted to live in Alaska and never heard from me again- she was not given that option!
She is, essentially a slave!
That, is unfair! To her, to others. And, yet, it is common with some of these groups. And, people wonder why we do not yet know about these things! Humans would be in an uproar about it. Which is hypocritical as slavery is more popular today than ever.
So, as I recover from the effects of the event at the wolf sanctuary, which, includes my own personal development and growth- away from the outdated dynamics of my upbringing, which are adverse, and limited.
That, is unfair! To her, to others. And, yet, it is common with some of these groups. And, people wonder why we do not yet know about these things! Humans would be in an uproar about it. Which is hypocritical as slavery is more popular today than ever.
So, as I recover from the effects of the event at the wolf sanctuary, which, includes my own personal development and growth- away from the outdated dynamics of my upbringing, which are adverse, and limited.
Well, it seems as if this life was created to be intentionally adverse to me.
As I progress, and live with, seven canines, learning their ways, and to communicate with them, and to step outside of my own assumptions, I am seeing, that I am, "Graduating".
When, one of my clones/consciousness containers was being ejected from one of the nine kingdoms, I asked them why (This was last year, I think.) and they told me, "Because you do not belong here."
Meaning, that once I achieve a level of, perhaps, morality- that I no longer qualify for membership in the rehabilitation realm. (Hell)
I ask myself, as I lay in bed, learning not to be motivated by fear, while living in adverse conditions- I wonder, if I will get more energy to start a new life.
Or, if it is my destiny to fade away, a, "victim".
There is a wolfess, white-furred, pink skinned, as beautiful as you could imagine her to be, in Antarctica. Obviously, I do not wish to be associated with the reptilians any longer, at all. However, could it be, that the wolfess is waiting for me? I can smell her body, parts of her, and she is immensely attractive to me. I could, get lost in the warmth of her fur. It is an entirely new way of life, there, when you are there, you do not think about humans at all.
I am unwilling to be a victim any longer.
Well, I wonder where this is all leading to.
I wonder, if I should push my intent to Antarctica, go there, and live with her, and take her, to be my mate. She is uncompromised, and I admire her determination to leave the security of her tribe to do what she believes is right. I would like to honor that in her. It would be neat, to visit the tribe of Wolfen people, and to see, and experience the hybrid folk.
As I progress, and live with, seven canines, learning their ways, and to communicate with them, and to step outside of my own assumptions, I am seeing, that I am, "Graduating".
When, one of my clones/consciousness containers was being ejected from one of the nine kingdoms, I asked them why (This was last year, I think.) and they told me, "Because you do not belong here."
Meaning, that once I achieve a level of, perhaps, morality- that I no longer qualify for membership in the rehabilitation realm. (Hell)
I ask myself, as I lay in bed, learning not to be motivated by fear, while living in adverse conditions- I wonder, if I will get more energy to start a new life.
Or, if it is my destiny to fade away, a, "victim".
There is a wolfess, white-furred, pink skinned, as beautiful as you could imagine her to be, in Antarctica. Obviously, I do not wish to be associated with the reptilians any longer, at all. However, could it be, that the wolfess is waiting for me? I can smell her body, parts of her, and she is immensely attractive to me. I could, get lost in the warmth of her fur. It is an entirely new way of life, there, when you are there, you do not think about humans at all.
I am unwilling to be a victim any longer.
Well, I wonder where this is all leading to.
I wonder, if I should push my intent to Antarctica, go there, and live with her, and take her, to be my mate. She is uncompromised, and I admire her determination to leave the security of her tribe to do what she believes is right. I would like to honor that in her. It would be neat, to visit the tribe of Wolfen people, and to see, and experience the hybrid folk.
