OUT OF BODY NDE EXPERIENCES AND BEINGS

[tundrawolf]

Alright, apparently I have been saying the wrong thing, I did not have a "VISION" of the female wolf-person I saw beginning in March of 2021, using the same, or perhaps similar, channel I experienced WHEN I DROPPED DEAD IN A HOSPITAL AS A CHILD AND WENT AND EXPERIENCED SEVERAL PLACES, THINGS, AND BEINGS.

The "visions" were better phrased, as, "OUT OF BODY CONSCIOUSNESS TRANSFER INTO A VASTLY SUPERIOR BODY OR EXPERIENCING VESSEL TO A PRESENT DAY SURFACE HUMAN."

I have thousands, if not tens of thousands of visions that occur within my heat, sometimes head, heart, and gut. They may either, be a fake hologram not based in reality connected to me, something that is only partially true on some other timeline, or something that is inter-phasic and "true" and real on the edge of the tangible, and connected to a realm that is not completely accessible to me/humans/beings firmly manifested as physical in, and on this realm.

Recently, I began to comprehend the fact that, by virtue of my near death experience, or NDE, that I opened a gateway between my consciousness, my human body, and the gateway of physical death (including the trappings associated with that.) I grow irritated with the phrase, "Near" death experience because THERE IS NOTHING NEAR ABOUT IT. YOU HAVE TO ACTUAL ****DIE**** TO EXPERIENCE IT, what is NEAR about that? DO people have "near sex experiences" while fucking??

It should NOT be called an Near death experience, but, instead, a, "RETURN FROM DEATH EXPERIENCE." (RFDE) THAT is MUCH more accurate!

I had believed I, "Brought things back with me" to this present reality, life, and time and space, existence, as well as other things, and now I have confirmed it.

The wolf woman I saw in the OUT OF BODY CONSCIOUSNESS TRANSFER EXPERIENCES and not VISIONS, is more and more likely only available for ME to see and interact with, as the avenue to experience her is only available to myself, personally, via the gateway of death.

It's like, seeing picture, videos, even meeting someone from the Philippines- but until you have lived there- you really do not know what it is like. You can have an idea.

Well, Paul had told me he could not locate her, and I had always believed, or rather, HOPED, the wolf-girls I "saw" in my head and heart were HER, and that Paul, and perhaps another saw her, too- except now I know this is not true.

Only I can see, feel, taste, touch, scent her.

Only I can feel her presence within my heart, mind, body, gut, soul, spirit, and existence-

I am writing this to say, I felt her

I FELT HER just a moment ago, while making a VLOG, it turns out- we are ALWAYS connected

IT TURNS out, one of the reasons she was so angry with me earlier, is because we are CONSTANTLY CONNECTED and she HAS TO FEEL EVERYTHING i AM FEELING, including, if I am abusive to animals, to myself, to others, hateful, in genera, to others, to myself- it is actually possibly, I may have created her physically- but also emotionally, and sculpted her, with my own miserable existence- that twisted, and made her, angry and miserable as well!

From what I can test about Paul: He is not capable of the darkness, negativity, brokenness, cruelty, and horror that I have lived in, bathed in, existed in, daily, to be able to discern her. (It would not benefit him to.)

This is good news, as I hoped she was okay, and it turns out, she is!

She is not 100% happy with me, and she is still a bit sore, and angry, but she confirmed some things, within me, positive, nasty, dirty sex things that I like, but could not put into the VLOG as she would not feel comfortable with me saying it to the phone.

I still registered on the NDE

I invited, the dark, angry, violent, horny wolf girl to me, recently, when I began to realize- I am not interacting with her, BUT RATHER, living projections, holograms, or, "constructs" of her that I inadvertently created without knowing it!

I want to talk to HER, to Wolf Girl Actual!

And, it turns out, she answered. hell yeah

[tundrawolf]

ABOUT THE WOLF WOMAN I SAW DURING MY OUT OF BODY CONSCIOUSNESS TRANSFER EXPERIENCE STARTING MARCH 13 OF 2021

My journey has led me to re connect with her, and to open myself up to her to be vulnerable, and request she connect with me

I was making a vlog, when I believe she did connect with me about some sex talk, and began feeding all of me with yer thoughts and feelings, I saw it in my heart, and mind, and felt it in my stomach and gut, my entire being could feel her, except if I even tried feeling my own emotions, it nearly shut her entirely down, and I had to work to re establish witnessing her

Well, on the drive over to take the dogs to the dog park, and at the park, she began to allow me to see more circumstances around my past with her (she's at least a part of the reason I'm alive today here, if not the entire reason.)

Well, it certainly does connect perfectly with the ego I used to have.

The poor guy loved her, but she fell in with some bigger inner earth bosses and gre to despise him/me, and then I ended up here.

Lots of oppression.

The guy was a victim.

I saw more of what she did, mainly stripped him of his remaining power and authority and dignity (he allowed it because he loved her so much.) so, I began to grab it back.

I want to please her, and get her back and take my power back and etc, so I am mindful of that, but also, working on myself and realizing it could go south

I asked her if she would want a divorce in the future, and she showed/told me the attack/event at the wolf sanctuary was indeed my divorce from her.

The hatred I felt, was at least partly hers if not all.

So, there's that

[tundrawolf]

It explains why I haven't been able to connect to her

She is also a big archetype for my mother. I fact, my mother may be controlled by a form of her (at first) and then another similar being after/now.

She exists in a realm without time, or very slow time

I don't know if I can get her "back", or if it's possible, but I am going to try.

This, is momentous as it explains (I am still searching for details) my past, the event at the wolf place, my struggles, and much else.

[tundrawolf]

Strange things are happening. I am regressing back into time, and being set free from the entanglements that took hold of me at the wolf sanctuary.

I am seeing reality. I could not before

Alright time to get drunk

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