Update, further down the nihilism path

[tundrawolf]

I am seeing there is a way, far left of the left hand path

I am beginning to see, three dynamics unfolding simultaneously,

1. The "old" (original) "me" is dying (part ego, in part)

2. The old me is also healing (?)

3. a "new" "me" is emerging (Being given birth to)

The issue with my life up until the event at the wolf sanctuary, and, the event at the wolf sanctuary was I was completely overwhelmed by it in ways I wasn't even aware of, like being born pure, then being thrown into hell, and not just hell but a hell that loathes your very existence, that wields ultimate power over the entirety of existence

Presently, I am having to confront ideals so vile, accept them, love them, forgive them, that I see why I chose a path that leads to, the wordless

[tundrawolf]

Which begs the question, who was I before I was me, and who, or what am I becoming in relation