False self assessment

[tundrawolf]

I got decent sleep, my watch says 75/100 rest, which for me is good (It has been as little as 17)

I had some vivid, contiguous dreams

However I woke up with the epiphany, that when I gave myself over to the OS when I lived at the the wolf sanctuary, that it re-arranged the way I see myself, it took my self assessment, and aligned it with their purposes, that was based on self-hatred, and self destruction

I see how, this self assessment, is the basis for all ongoing life, and ways of life, self thoughts, internal beliefs. This self assessment, is also self repairing and self perpetuating, and begins at birth/is confirmed by parents and society

I see that, as I am struggling within myself, that this false assessment is the cause of nearly all of my discomfort, struggles, pain, frustration in this life

I am, "Fighting myself"

I believe, when I am bale to repair this self assessment, that this will be a foundational springboard in order to live a life in right relationship with self