Post by tundrawolf on Jul 25, 2024 14:33:56 GMT 9.5
People can have different modes in life depending on their circumstances and programming.
Someone in an adverse situation may have a victim mode, and approach life as a victim.
My victim mode,
Affects every aspect of my life
*obsessed with defending self with lethal force
*everything has to be made for war
*money relationship is poor/scarcity and trauma/fear based
*sexuality is based off of scarcity and immaturity
*even my relationship with Angelwolf is left in lack and maladjustment
After the recent maturity and knowledge and right relationship downloads, I am now seeing my very approach to life on this planet (and in it) are based off of a crisis mode, lack, trauma, and the springboard of victim-survival (no prosperity or right relationship) modes.
This is interesting and likely a good explanation on why I struggle so much in this life that feels like it is needless.
I also see, how I am failing Angelwolf, in more real ways by not relating to her properly, and basing my connection and relationship with her, as a horny, traumatized little boy (Lacking depth, empathy, etc.)
I view this as positive, however, as I am able to go backwards and heal myself, in order to push forwards in more positive foundations and relationship with self and environment/relationships