Vow of nonviolence?

[tundrawolf]

As a USA person, I put my firearms on par with food, and life itself...

Well, recently (See puppy update thread) I was manipulated into believing a puppy I am close to, had been killed by a mountain lion- a mountain lion, I recently had a very deeply intimate conversation with.

Well, I was slightly drunk, but my heart grew angry, and I began to have violent thoughts against the mountain lion. For revenge.

Well, then I discovered the puppy had not exited my van, and was not eaten, but was in fact alive.

I then realized, what acts of violence, may I commit, only to learn, that I inflicted suffering on living things, but wrongly?

I am already dealing with many burdens, the burden of heart remorse for taking innocent life, would be nearly too much, and I am even sad typing this.

I realize I can be manipulated, too, and put into vulnerable positions due to this, also.

To give up the option of violence. Or self defense?

[paul]

It can be useful to test propositions before acting/deciding.

[tundrawolf]

Jul 20, 2024 9:42:45 GMT 9.5 paul said:

It can be useful to test propositions before acting/deciding.

Yes... I remember your words about testing it.

Some entities would prefer me unarmed as a means to victimize me.

I see this now.

If I am to world the sword, however, I must learn to do it properly

Being raised in an adverse environment tends to push one to survive by any means possible, and whatever weaponry is available to you at the time.

Another aspect of my personal development that is manifesting, presently