Courting an adverse female canine being

[tundrawolf]

Well, I found myself in a situation, where I share a heart, with a rather unhappy female canine-human hybrid.

Recently, I have felt a disruption in our connection, which is giving me time to analyze self.

This has lent to, questions regarding our relationship, that I was too limerenced to ask, before.

Well, for me, due to oppression system interference, usually comes right after a breakthrough, killing any hope of genuine connection- so I am not giving up on her.

However, to her heart, I am little more than half eaten prey (no respect)

She also seems to be a tribal being, with limited education, but high intellectual capacity (Cunning)

Her "tribe" or "Pack" is, at odds with my "group", that I am still trying to wrap my mind around, my group seems, benevolent

She was also part of a brutally horrific attack on my being, when I lived at a wolf (Wolves seem to be a theme in my life. As my saviors, and enemies) sanctuary.

What am I to do?

She is, gorgeous, sexy, and beautiful in ways that go beyond my abilities to describe, or put into words (She's fucking hot)

She, completes me

She, is my other half (A human sentiment for a long lost lover that completes your being)

She, holds half of my heart

She, is the love of my life

She, is the woman I have been searching for my entire life (I remember being young, and yearning in sorrow for a wolf-woman to take as a mate)

Well, what does all that mean, when she also, considers herself to belong to the rival group (We are at war. There is no gentle way of saying, she ripped one of my clones to pieces and partially ate him. She is also into cruelty so horrific that it, too, transcends words)

Well, what the fuck.

There are other, positive, canine wolf women who are attracted to me. Many, in fact

When I bring them close, it seems as if they turn into regular humans, and end up being boring, adversely chatty, criticizing, strict adherence to rules and laws that I find suffocating- but, also, pretty fucking hot

The holder of half my heart, lets me do anything I wish without criticizing me, in a romantic capacity (Her true self)

She is a woman of freedom, and liberty.

But, there is nothing I can do, if she self identifies with her group. I am prey to her, and little more. But, our hearts remain attached

What is she to do?

All I can do now, is continue focusing on myself, loving self, healing self.

I hope she is okay.

At the end of the day, when peace is finally brokered, I would like to offer her my hand. She may easily decline. However, my heart will never forget how she made me feel, when she completed me. She may do as she pleases. I am making effort to detach from her and give her her freedom.

[tundrawolf]

You cannot hate another living being after you have been connected to their heart.

This may explain my lack of malice, against the woman, Angelwolf.

She may even be turning over a new leaf, and being constrained, does not know how to do it.