Post by tundrawolf on Jul 13, 2024 7:22:33 GMT 9.5
So many things are beginning to take hold, so rapidly. Things I have wanted to happen, for decades, possibly multiple lifetimes.
I wanted to share something:
So I was an asleep, traumatized being, raised by people immersed in the OS
Something came to me that was a sort of cognitive dissonance experience
While it is true I have been through/volunteered/survived many extreme things in my life, my ego and pride tell me, I am "More than I actually am"
So, an hour or two ago, I was confronted with this:
Allow my ego's structure- as it pertains to reality- to be dissolved (A painful/near humiliating experience.) and then reset into reality/right relationship, or, keep my false ego, and keep being "False" (In some of my aspects of beingness.)
My traumatized ego, is desperately holding onto these false, "prideful" and "Delusional" (Delusional, but reality based. Hard to let go!) constructs of my self-assessment.
Interesting and uncomfortable, and difficult
However rewarding as I endeavor to accomplish the task
It seems that there are two common uses for the term Ego:
- the intelligence operating the personality - the intelligence operating the soul.
These of course are the two most common answers to the question: Who am I?
The intelligence operating the personality is self-centered until transformed. Being self-centered it drives survival and to survive the personality needs to integrate itself and therefore learn to control physical, emotional and mental instincts - for its own benefit.
The drive to control of the lower self by the ego is usually qualified by a socialisation process - helping others as well. If the socialisation process is not effective the persona can be quite destructive.
After the socialisation process, by which the interests of the self and non-self are balanced, there may be a spiritualisation process in which the locus of consciousness moves above the point of the ego (subplane 5.4) into levels of the soul or higher ego.
At this stage the personality ego is progressively transformed from a controlling entity to a creative entity.
It is common that humans recognise their individuality as the set of most obvious distortions in their persona. In those cases the process of transmutation of the persona and ego results in the progressive disappearance of the personality quirks and it may seem to the human that they are losing their personality.
In due time the new inclusive qualities become more evident to the possessor and there is a progressive sense of inclusion and commitment to a Greater Whole
It seems that there are two common uses for the term Ego:
- the intelligence operating the personality - the intelligence operating the soul.
These of course are the two most common answers to the question: Who am I?
The intelligence operating the personality is self-centered until transformed. Being self-centered it drives survival and to survive the personality needs to integrate itself and therefore learn to control physical, emotional and mental instincts - for its own benefit.
The drive to control of the lower self by the ego is usually qualified by a socialisation process - helping others as well. If the socialisation process is not effective the persona can be quite destructive.
After the socialisation process, by which the interests of the self and non-self are balanced, there may be a spiritualisation process in which the locus of consciousness moves above the point of the ego (subplane 5.4) into levels of the soul or higher ego.
At this stage the personality ego is progressively transformed from a controlling entity to a creative entity.
It is common that humans recognise their individuality as the set of most obvious distortions in their persona. In those cases the process of transmutation of the persona and ego results in the progressive disappearance of the personality quirks and it may seem to the human that they are losing their personality.
In due time the new inclusive qualities become more evident to the possessor and there is a progressive sense of inclusion and commitment to a Greater Whole
Such people may be called ego-less
Yes it does
I believe this is the socialisation process, or the beginning of it, or a step in it
There is difficulty as so much is based on ego survival, especially as traumatized as I was, but I must endeavor to persevere
