Epiphany: Velocity/direction

[tundrawolf]

In speaking with Annah, the white wolfess in Antarctica, I was shown, suddenly mid-conversation with her, that my intent and will, were hijacked/given over (By my choice, at the wolf sanctuary) that my trajectory, is hijacked (My direction and velocity...) by another, a group, or etc, within the OS, in order to cause me as much pain as possible.

Such as, "losing" the wolf girls.

Angelwolf, as I separate from her to work on myself, I discovered, is actually fairly depressed. I could have given her "commands" to stay positive, but I felt like, I needed to release her to make her own decisions.

Annah, when truly connecting via the heart, asked me if I would leave Angelwolf, to be with her- I said no, I could not. (not morally, plus she is my first, and I do love her. It would not be right, and I do have a deep relationship with her/ a sincere desire to be "with" her) A part of her said then I csanot be with her, and another part, reconsidered after she considered it might not be that big of a deal.

This entire incarnation was set up, to destroy me.

So, I endeavored (intended) to re-take control of my direction- the epiphany was,

"Dude, it is your choice, why are you worried about losing these wolf girls? Or ending up somewhere you do not want to be? It is YOUR DECISION!"

This is where the anger comes in, to take-back control of my faculties from the OS that is trying to destroy me.

How often is this true? For others? How much of our will has been hijacked, manipulated, and changed direction, and we are not aware of it, or blindly follow it?