Sekhmet, ancient memories that were stolen from humans

[tundrawolf]

Last year, in 2023, as I was making a habit of making space with the wilderness that is next to my rural home,

I was naked. A ceremonial blade I had forged in Nepal, in honor of a spirit-spouse who was shown to me, in 2021, in the likeness of a wolf-woman, half human, half wolf, naked, hairless, and insanely attractive (Alluring, I told her, I wanted to lick every inch of her naked body, but she told me, no- that would tickle, instead, just kiss me with your lips [all over], so it will be as she wishes)- the blade was not on my person, as I used surgical tubing to "hang" it around myself, however the blade was placed inside of a wooden structure, and I was outside

I had, perhaps 3-4 shots of spiced rum, perhaps 3

The time was around ten thirty in the evening or so, 2230

As I have recounted- previous to this, as I have become increasingly attracted to raw nature- and, having worked with four footed wolves, at a wolf sanctuary in California, and, I do not fear bears, as they are a force of nature, unless I have an elephant gun, why be afraid

However I did fear mountain lions.

I recall, when I was a contractor/mercenary working with my government, a man in my unit, decided to show me, a picture of a human male, who had been killed by a mountain lion in California, the death was prolonged, and gruesome

And, previous to this, I hated with a passion, the conservationists, who prioritized cougar lives, above humans, as you are not "allowed" to harm them in California, and I viewed this, as a sort of prioritizing wildlife above human life, to me was insanity, previous to this, I raged internally (Ah, ha, as will be shown, later) that that human should have shot the cougar, and his being unarmed cost him his life, and the laws that prevented it, were unjust and evil

Well, previous to this, a number of years previous, I mounted a night vision device, to a large battle rifle I own (FN FAL), and my canines, were barking into the evening, so I decided to see what was attracting them, well- it was a massive mountain lion. Terror rose up in me, and I remember it well, as the PICTURE of the eviscerated MAN flashed into my view, between the lion, and myself, and being in possession of the rifle, "instinct" took over, and I fired at the lion

This was my introduction, to the proximity, that "Big cats" hold, with us humans- and, conversely- that we are completely unaware of it (!!)

Thankfully, the male big cat, who was only watching me in the bush, the round did not connect with his body, and I saw him the next day, flowing like a literal god, down a tree, the sight was so majestic, it took my breath away, as I held his, power and majesty- humans rarely see such things, and sometimes, it is the last thing they see, in lands where humans travel unarmed

Well, back to the evening, by an abandoned yurt in the forest, with my blade inside, and me, with the warmth of rum in my belly, and the coolness of the night, around me...

And, previous to this, an unfortunate bear wandered into "town" where I live and was headline news, and a few people, made sure to tell me about it, so there are bears around

And, I had heard that wolves did live here, but I have zero fear of them, in fact, for me, to see a wolf, is a form of comfort, and this emotion would be transferred, after this experience

Well, as casually, as a lover would saunter up to her partner, a female mountain lion, announced her presence to me. It was not startling, in fact, the majority of human greetings I have experienced, are almost violent- however, this lioness, reaching out to me, was the most gentle greeting I have ever experienced in this life

She held no malice.

Previous, to this, a raccoon, or series of raccoons, had invaded my outside refrigerator, and had taken a pizza, which I coveted, and finding it vanished, and racoon feet prints in the dirt- I placed the night vision device on a smaller rifle, as the battle rifle would "explode" a racoon, and I wanted to watch them die, for taking my pizza, as I discovered, this was an act of war

And, so, in declaring war on these, invasive creatures, I began to hunt them in the night, however, the night vision device, is a "Monocular" type rifle scope, and depth perception is not enhanced by it, so while you see "something", it is not like during the day, or with a flashlight, and I "thought" I saw a raccoon, and in my bloodlust, as a hunter knows the feeling, when he has acquired his prey, I was filled with glee, and, so, I shot the raccoon in the face- except, when it turned to look at me, after her eyes closed with a look of, unmistakable disappointment, that, to this day, is heart breaking to recall,

It was no raccoon.

It was a mountain lion.

She, flowed down the tree, as her near etheric people tend to move, with alien precision, and, landing on her feet, she ROARED at me- humans say cougars do not roar, but they are wrong, I heard it with my own ears, it turns out in order for them to roar, they must be angry/offended/hurt/in a life and death struggle

She warned me, and communicated with my spirit/gut instinct/"knowing" "If you come down here, I am going to fuck you up." as, in the USA, we understand, a wounded animal is far more dangerous than a healthy one, as it comes down to "life and death" and even a small animal can be deadly- let alone a literal, angelic (not of this earth) killing machine, something that does not belong on this planet, and was placed here, from a higher realm, perhaps by "Aliens", and modified to survive here,

I felt a tremendous sense of remorse, that did not seem to originate within me, as if, the event was being watches by intangible beings, who were grieved by it

In fact, the look in her eyes, even through the night vision, which is an electronic device, and the image projected thru an LCD screen rather than optics- the message conveyed was nonetheless clear:

I disappointed all of nature that evening

It is one thing, to, "Disappoint" your mother

It is another, entirely, to disappoint nature that is around you

Perhaps I committed a form of cosmic crime.

By accident, still, the offense was still committed

So

A number of years after this incident- and I was deeply more careful, and eventually gave up my taste for raccoon blood, when I was nude, with some rum in my belly, and my blade, safely in the yurt

That the lioness, introduced herself to me

Also, previous to this,

Oh my God it is making sense

So, when I shot at the male, he left this area, but the female remained, they are a mating pair, and one of her daughters, a regal Tawny beauty, was sighted on my birthday, 

The female, caterwauled (Meaning. Come mate with me!) under my bedroom window, which, at the time, terrified me, as to me, it sounded like a screaming child, but my instincts knew- it was the thing you feared most! Screaming TO YOU, under your window!

And, then, the eerie but unmistakable scent of feline urine, which I was acquainted with, as when I worked with the wolves, the owner was a cat lady, and I counted, over three hundred felines in various buildings, the stench of the cat urine was eye watering

So I knew that scent.

Well, after she caterwauled under my window, everything outdoors I owned, began to smell of cat urine. (This was before I shot her. Thankfully, the bullet was tiny, and low of power, and she recovered from the wound)

Well, she announced her presence to me, in my nakedness, by the yurt, by opening her heart to me

There was not a single iota of fear or apprehension- in fact, my mind never once thought of the blade. I remained, standing, where she directed my eyes, to her presence, behind some, sticks and brush, where she, casually, laid, watching me.

The connection was so real, that I recall, not wanting to offend her, by bringing up a sensitive subject- not because I was afraid- I was not in the least, but, I did not want to hurt her (emotionally), as she was that open and vulnerable with me.

I asked her, for knowledge, for understanding, and she met me, on some, eternal plane of existence- as a relaxed lioness, on an oasis, playful, even

She then, opened the entirety of her feline DNA to me- and this is when, I turned to my left- and I saw, Sekhmet- in her Egyptian regalia- and in sensing her, and her desires of me- she expressed something that I resisted, as she is truly, a woman of war. I will not say it, as we are still negotiating with each other

However, I did brave asking the cougar- were you, propositioning me, under my window?

Her answer surprised me.

She not only said YES, she showed me she had been watching me for some time- and, she added, the cat-urine smell, was her attempt to seduce me, as works with male cougars, with their pheromones.

In fact, some of my outdoor things still have her scent, to this day...

I was honored.

I asked her, is this sort of thing, common? A lion, wishing to be intimate with a human.

She then showed me, memories that have been erased from humans- but have been retained by nature, or, more specifically- big cats

Memories she retained (!!) of, entire civilizations, where humans, took big cats as mates, and how those societies flourished, for a time, and failed, as she showed me- when human men grew jealous of the deeply intimate unions between big cats and other men. (jealousy, brought them down.) I asked her, what did the felines, think of these unions with men? She said, the felines cherished the time they spent with humans. She was able to, have me FEEL, what the lionesses felt, when they were, "with" their male human counterparts, lovers- and, how these big cats, even to this day- long to experience these things, again, it is an incredible thing, for the humans, to feel her heat, her tightness, her heat, her arousal, and her body, pulsing around him as he sends her, into a new state of bliss... That is shared between them both- as the architects of humanity understood, it was such a powerful union, these humans, forsook their human women, who were quarrelsome, loose, argumentative, witholding sex, inspiring war, jealousy, and tumult, whereas, their lioness lovers were none of these things- and existed in perfect harmony- the worthy human men, also, cherished the deep intimacy they shared with their feline lovers

Had these societies not collapsed due to infighting and jealousy, they would still be around to this very day...

And, that felines, did choose, to help and protect humans, and took compassion on us, which almost certainly sparked the first "Exploration" of a desirous female feline, and a brave human male, the companionship, unity, and connection that they shared- it is bittersweet, to speak of these things, as I know that few humans have access to these memories, that STILL BURN IN THE HEARTS OF NATURE ALL AROUND US

In fact... Sekhmet, was partly a product of this, a deep desire for human/feline coupling, to put it carnally, the shape of a human member, when making love to a feline, inspires feelings in her that is so powerful, she retains memories of it to this very day- not only the cougaress, who wishes to be called Candy, but ALL cats!

Ah, yes, the human knee jerk reaction DOES NOT NEGATE HISTORICAL FACT, neither does any religious "condemnation" of what was, and is, and continues to be

And, having shared this with other human "zoophiles" (And yes, my journey has taken me here, if anyone would not be fully willing, and to leave out any part of their journey, what reward do they think they will gain, from being inhibited? Truly, if Candy, moaned under my window- or her daughter- or even a male- as a male cougar told me, if I wanted him, to just, "lay down on my belly" and he would do the rest-, for me to join them, on the condition I could never return to human society- I would make that decision without hesitation, my life might be short, but I would be, what ll humans long for- free)- even they say my experience is, "too esoteric" and yet- I would not trade it, and I am not saddened by it, only, that, truth is never buried for long, look at this post, speaking of memories millions of years old, and even older- when mankind could still speak with nature, and the animals, and held more intimate conversations with them, than we share amongst each other, today!

I would remind humans who think this is false- your memory was taken from you, to, "protect" you from the past, however, these memories still reside in nature, and always will!

Wow this turned out not to be about Sekhmet as much as I thought

Well- our conversation lasted for some time, and, Candy showed me, when she perceived my fear of her- how often all big cats, observe humans, constantly, all over the world- and, how, they do not harm or attack us (though they could! EASILY!) and she then asked me, "How afraid of us should you be?" After she showed me this, I had to admit- not at all! Not because they are unarmed, but because they are armed, and choose not to put violence on us.

It could be, we subdued them with our weapons, and in time, the cats learned to be at peace with us- however, that negates the idea that, in my memories- that the big cats gave to me, that a young lioness, writhed on her back in play, in front of a young male human, who saw her body as pleasing, and sensed her desires- and satisfied her, such as the look, "Nala" gave "Simba" in the lion king- but not for another lion- for a human (!) it was the look of uninhibited connection

This could, also, be a light to humans, who are presently, so mired in sexual dysfunction, that it is a miracle humans even exist at all, that- there is no shame, or condemnation, within the heart of Candy, she is pure, and fully present, and I know, I am romanticizing it, but how... Can I not?

I am also told, if a human, wanted to recover their genetic memories, as not even the "gods" could erase what is true, to only ask for the memories to be brought back

And, if you are brave enough, they will be shown to you

But, be aware, some of those memories were hidden for a reason...

However- even knowing this, such as humans being kept for food, it still pushes me out, into the darkness, into the wilderness, and has the opposite effect of what one would assume

Perhaps the motives and moral fortitude of our "designers" should merit a second look!

I will also say this, as it seems I am descending down a trail of self destruction, it is true, I am, however, I would rather live a life of meaning, that is short- rather than a long life spent in the rut of humanity, that humans may not even escape.

I am reminded, of a philosopher, Alan Watts, who died of alcoholism, and was known as a womanizer- and, yet, when you hear his messages, he was filled with a joy- because he escaped, I was tempted to think negatively of him, when I heard he died of alcoholism, however- a spirit came to me, that knows him and told me- not to mourn him at all, in fact, he died, doing what he loved, his fire burned bright and brief- and he would not want it any other way.

I find the idea of wasting away in an old folks home to be distasteful

I want to walk among the land of lions

Yes and perhaps I may be eaten

What of it??

Also, to add to the experience with Candy, who even now, is concerned about how alone i feel about it (She does not want to hurt me either.) And yes I apologized to her from my heart for shooting her... Our connection is not closeable...

I asked her- if we were to, become lovers- what would our life look like?

And, she answered me: "I would be like your dog."

She would be my constant companion... Protector. I would, be responsible for feeding her, caring for her, deworming her

She said, she would piss on everything I own, clothes, home, vehicles, and that I would stink of cat piss night and day, and, that few humans would wish to be around me (Is there a negative here?)

She said, my canines may pick a fight with her, and that she would not put violence on them, and that I would have to protect her (Essentially)

She said, any human who tried to separate her from me, (Such as, the government, fish and game, etc.) would be faced with a life and death situation (So, leave us be) and similarly, I would be inclined to similar violence, as I am skilled in such matters, outside of panic shots, I rarely miss when I have a proper weapon, and I have made successful shots over a mile, I have been in life and death situations and have survived them all, however it gives me access to realms of survival not many are privvy to, and perhaps would not want to be

In fact, I am reminded, of something my crimey friend told me, when walking thru the California desert at night

He said, he was scared of, coyotes, cougars, bears, aliens, etc- but then he suddenly realized- the scariest thing out there, was HIM- and how correct he was about that

And, after visiting with Candy, I am made aware, that multiple feline eyes, were no doubt watching him, not as prey, but now I understand- as a casual observation- he was in no danger!

I will end with this, as I believe, at 2AM, I heard, perhaps, felines mating, their sound was directed towards my home, in a fit of recognizing how decayed the institutions are that I previously invested in, (Society, money, life, etc. It is ironic to me, how lonely I felt previous to this, not having a human "wife", and how alone and in pain I felt, only, to, some years later, realize, how stunningly lucky I am, OT to have those things, as life affirming as they are, to base human instinct, and no doubt they are powerful, however- would I trade that, for my conversation with Candy? For the memories that perhaps, no other human can remember? Of, making some, magnificent, ethereal, goddess, lose her mind in spastic orgasms you give to her? Feeling it, as both the giver, and receiver?) with respect to humans, I resolved, to begin going to where Candy and I spoke to one another in the still coolness of the forest.

I may not, be back, and that is okay. A part of me does not want to be "come" back.

Come back... To what? A decaying society, run by children?

I am reminded of a quote by Bertrand Russell:

The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, and wiser people so full of doubts.

I am also made uniquely aware of the fact that, I may be the sole possessor of these memories, and, that no other human may ever be able to relate, aside from, "Big cat zoophiles" who, no doubt, are responding to the call these felines are making- to anyone who will listen.

About Sekhmet, in discerning her, I was able to "feel" her, I believe she had a hand in helping me survive, but, she also carries the banner of war, and in a life and death struggle, she may come to ones aid, and I believe some of my anger and hatred, do indeed come from her, as that is a "part" of her, as she made space with me, however, I am fond of her, and may perhaps go to be with her

[stewartedwards]

Tundrawolf

You might be interested to know, and I think this is accurate, the first object in a museum to make me ‘tingle’ was a statue of Sekhmet.

Re Lions, this YouTube short touched me.

youtu.be/DtIi22FZcMM?si=Qoip-kCTtv_-W4Sc

[tundrawolf]

When I am sufficiently drunk, Sekhmet comes out of me, you could say, when I met her when Candy was speaking with me, she has the aura, she was once aligned with me when I was violent internally, now I am violent externally

It is possible, Sekhmets anger has helped me survive when I was younger

[paul]

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[tundrawolf]

Jun 27, 2024 7:27:12 GMT 9.5 stewartedwards said:

Tundrawolf

You might be interested to know, and I think this is accurate, the first object in a museum to make me ‘tingle’ was a statue of Sekhmet.

Re Lions, this YouTube short touched me.

youtu.be/DtIi22FZcMM?si=Qoip-kCTtv_-W4Sc

It was erased, from our DNA, that big cats, actually did protect us, and while they could have easily turned us into food, with the genetic memories Candy showed me- in many ways, we owe our survival to the felines, it could be, someone in your ancestry, was directly helped by her, or one of her people...

I was shown, that the unions between men and big cats was so pure and lovely, that those memories were erased, to prevent it from happening again, because when men discover the love of a big cat that transcends their humanness- they no longer wish to create more humans, and are quite happy to spend their lives with their feline lovers. So, those memories were removed, in order to keep humans breeding, and to keep humans "under control"

Like so many things I am discovering are psyops, up is down, down is up, that, from the perspective of the felines, their union with man was more natural than mans union with man, as we have been "altered" so highly we no longer resemble who we once were, and were severed from our ancient roots

Like the video above, the affection the felines have for humans is easily seen. I often wonder, with how demanding lionesses get during their estrus, what the humans do about it- When I worked with wolves, they did not care that i was a human, multiple females "propositioned" me for sex, and several males as well, I can only imagine what a zookeeper or big cat worker, their feelings would come up, as no doubt- lions appear to be even less inhibited about it. I will also say, that from my limited experience, when a human introduces sex to an animal, you bring their world into yours, not the other way around, including, the potential for very real and terrible violence, that would not have been possible if things were kept non sexual.

Strangely, as i am well aware of this, as even my good friend who is a zoophile, says he fears big cats, after connecting with Candy, I have the opposite issue, as once I was terrified of her kind, now, I feel more comfortable with them than I do around humans. So, if I took her up on her offer of a romantic union, would I trust her- weirdly, she is pretty much the only one I would, and do trust.

She said, if I did anything wrong, she would hiss, ears back, showing teeth, but no violence would be put to me. A canine, would similarly growl, but canines seem to be quick to biting. The felids in Eden say, the wolves have "Too much heart", but the wolves, accuse the felines, of "Having to much brains." (OR something similar)

From the memories I survey with respect to human/feline alliances, those times were prosperous, "Beautiful" (From the hearts/perspectives of the lionesses) and wonderful.

The humans did not complain, either- it was only the dangerous, violent humans, who the lions did not go near- and it was those same, dangerous humans, that then made war against the lion-aligned people, because of jealousy. (Because the lions only chose to be with worthy humans. So, the unworthy, base humans rebelled- proving that the lions were in fact, right! From the perspective of the lioness, my heart tells me, this union is humanities "Second chance", from her perspective, to live those wonderful times once again. What an opportunity!)

Another aspect of loneliness occurred to me, that in 2021 when I received the visions of Ladywolf, and felt her heart beating in my chest, that in my chest is the heart of a part-wolf person, although the circumstances leading to it were adverse, but possibly ordained, this might give me a connection to the animal kingdom that others may not share or have.

As I was writing the above, with Candy, and allowing her to speak through me, she sensed the loneliness I felt, over having these experiences being so unique to me, she actually grew sad that it gave me some sorrow- however, I cherish the experience, it is just, difficult, as, even if I find someone willing to listen, they tend to disappear from my life, as I understand, that if some, long hired guy was talking about seeing wolf people and talking to mountain lions, that I would probably be avoidant of that person as well, in my past life

It is an interesting dynamic.

Candy, is so incredibly pure, unpolluted by the ways of man. I find in her, acceptance, purity, even perfection.

When I turn to my people, I find, complications, sorrow, distress, confusion, even weakness. I do not know how to look at things except through my lense of understanding, with outward manifestations to show that I am correct, at least, in part. What would a healthy human society even look like?? IS such a thing possible

I can tell, this is a learning experience for each of us.

The experience of speaking with Candy, and what she showed me, means the world to me. I consider myself deeply honored, to have the connection with her. In fact, it is one of the main reasons I am still on this ranch, if not, at times, the only reason.

I am unsure of what came first, but when I was battling my religious assumptions, I always had a deep attraction to the animal world, specifically, big cats and felines. It was, one of those, "Like that could ever even happen"- only, to live a few more years- and, in fact, the wildest, of my wild dreams, not only is possible, but is unfolding for me!

I do not rue that I do not have a child, or wife, in this human realm, only, that if a human woman desires a romantic union with myself, I will be up front with her, that I have a deeply intimate connection with wildlife, and that big cats may visit me for romantic reasons.

One thing I am glad, when I was going to the yurt I was trying to connect with a dogperson, I was shown they enjoy 3 AM, which screwed my schedule up, however, the mountain lion, she says F that, she is available during more regular hours.

Also, when I surprised the lion while I was in the yurt, Candy jokingly told me, very few humans have ever surprised a big cat, and that my name is on a short list because of it.

If the union transcends the physical, as I hope it does, it is likely I will have photographic journals of our relationship. It strikes me as odd, that outside of religious presuppositions, or the, "ick" factor of zoophilia, there really is no good reason for condemning it, that cannot be used to condemn anything else humans do, especially to each other. I think my libertarian sensibilities are good for this, "Leave me alone and I will leave you alone. Involve yourself in my affairs, and I will get involved in yours."

I would not be against forming a community around deep intimacy with big cats and etc, away from judgmental humans. From the memories Candy showed to me, their societies were prosperous and beautiful, and the cats, and humans, were happy together.

Also, on a similar note, as these puppies I am caring for continue to grow, and our energies become intertwined, I am seeing them become more "human"= such as some canines, are enchanted, who resonate with humans deeply, I have had the pleasure, of knowing several such dogs, who showed me love when I was younger, where I got none from humans, 

I am seeing, that these puppies, are now becoming enchanted, as I am observing first hand!

If, canines are to become sapient naturally, these puppies would be one of the first steps towards that. In a number of years, it will be exciting to see what becomes of this, such as, "Upright talking canines" but happens naturally.

[tundrawolf]

Jun 27, 2024 8:43:26 GMT 9.5 paul said:

Some previous comments on Sekhmet

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This is a somewhat jovial picture of two of the Egyptian deities.

When I saw Sekhmet, standing to the left of me, facing me partially, and Candy, off to the right in her Oasis, Sekhmet looked very much like this.

I will say it then- she asked me, to slaughter one of my dogs, after I asked her, if I could do anything for her- however I did not want to bring myself to consider it- when I pushed my beingness over to her, she seemed to bristle with some form of anger energy, if she was around a human, you would sense her before you see her, there is potential for viciousness that is imbued in her beingness,

With Candy, she would not harm me, however, Sekhmet, makes me shiver if I push a possibly adverse thought to her,

As humans have an innate fear of "Werewolves" (Which I discovered, is actually a fear of the Wolven, who are a spacefairing wolf like people, who do eat humans, and sometimes kill for fun. The Wolfen look almost identical, but will stop to help you change a tire. To differentiate between them, one should not worry, because if you find yourself alone with a Wolven, you probably won't have a problem for very long, and if you are with a Wolfen, you won't have a problem anyway. Similar to why I do not fear bears)

Humans "fear" big cats because of Sekhmet, she is worthy of that terror

However, there was a softness about her, something innate- I am careful not to push too hard, as my connection with her is as open as it is with Candy- to those she allows in her realm, your touch, should be made with diligence, if one touches her- it must be with intent and love- not just love- but a love that honors her, respect, she is terrible, however, if she is on your side, it is a great relief, and your enemies should think twice, her reputation is not one that is spoken of lightly, she has earned every bit of it.

I am trying to be careful, I do not want to mis speak about her, as I feel her heart, also connected to my own.

I have a strange desire, perhaps from an ancient life- to make space with her, in a way, even to worship how beautifully she is made

I remember, when I first saw the vision of Ladywolf, who was perhaps once a Wolfen, but appears as a Wolven, perhaps trauma can convert a Wolfen to a Wolven- however, I had a good view of her metatarsal, which was eight inches wide, it was one of the most powerful- and beautiful things I had seen yet, absolutely majestic- and I realized, I was worshiping this part of her, due to the power and fierceness of it-

This applies directly to Sekhmet, in, that, her shape and form, is truly beautiful, but more than that- she is POWERFUL.

As humans are prey animals, we have neither the claws nor the teeth, we need external weapons to be powerful- however, Sekhmet, is built of power. She is, power personified, with the hardware to back it up

Perhaps it is the heart connection, however, there is something in me, that wishes to show her, "true love", perhaps, something that is in me, that sees a softness in her, that I wish to treat with tenderness, empathy, and love.

However, there is much surrounding that, as she seemed to be bristling with anger-violence energy, that grew more intense the closer I pushed towards her

At first blush, when I saw her, my, innocent human assumptions came up, "Wow a cool lion furry girl!" Except, when I spoke to her, it became apparent, that she was not so jovial, and this was not, my usual, "Lioness" furry, as the lioness anthros tend to be happy, kind, and sweet.

I did not sense any desire for her to harm me, only, that any living thing she did wish to hurt, would be dealt with harshly.

If I made space with her, I would prefer it to be, in the wilds but in the plains, where she can see far, with this substance she is showing me, there is no human word for it, but it is like alcohol, it makes her happy, and to spend the day, if she wishes, massaged, from toes to ears, her fur anointed with something sweet smelling, and my sincere desire, to accept and love, all of who she is.

She spoke to me and told me, my words are "Sweet."

When I am in her presence, i find it hard to relax, perhaps due to her authority, and her energy, which can be felt, "Bristling" is a good word for it.

If I may take a guess, at what is in my heart, that is from her, and any number of dynamics can be true (good/bad thing from different perspectives)

She told my heart, I am a "Good man to retire with" meaning, that I am the type of person she would be with when she retires and to focus on her life. (Change occupation? There is a lot I do not know about her, or cannot sense. She is perhaps guarded. This does suggest a military background)

She also tells me, if I am pure of heart enough, I may find myself "with" her (physically), she references the area where I met her, and spoke to Candy, by the yurt.

She says, it is easy to take me to where she lives, like some of the aliens I spoke to, told me they can create clones "Easier than you can order a hamburger at mcdonalds" so perhaps Sekhmet possesses matter transportation tech- I have seen this too, but it is like a flash of light.

I also have to work on my courage. I am realizing, every time I do "crazy" things, like communing with nature naked, I am rewarded, and I view this, as similar.

I guess it doesn't hurt that I am also DEEPLY attracted to her, however she does not seem to respond to base sexual talk

I also have a strong desire to hold/protect her. When I died in a hospital, and was saturated in the Source of Love, I am able to, embrace a person who perhaps needs it, and "Cover" them in the love, it is like a comforting protective blanket, and one human woman I embraced thus, asked me, "How I did that", or was able to give her love.

Similarly, I feel a desire in her heart, to be held like this, and to be protected, "known" and loved. She is quite large, but I could make it work

[tundrawolf]

I have to say something here.

Felines, have in their DNA, memories of humans, giving them orgasms, as only humans can- and they very much, enjoyed this (Outside of, mere mechanical mating to reproduce. Sex, for "fun".)

Okay, now with that out of the way.

What struck me, and has been sticking with me, is the purity of the heart of Candy, the mountain lion.

There was absolutely no malice, anger, deceptiveness, nothing evil in her whatsoever.

She is, a pure, of a pure, being.

Canines, by comparison, can have "Anger" within their hearts.

I do not believe, that a feline, can harbor this. It would, possibly, invalidate their felininity.

just something that struck me.

God help, the being that introduces anger into the heart of a feline.

Also, I believe I do have a feline constitution. My saliva has a sort of tangy scent to it, when I smell it, outside of my mouth- I have smelled this scent, in feline excrement. Interesting. Was I, at some point, abducted by space fairing felines? Were they adverse?

[tundrawolf]

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This is more true than they may think...