For my wolf girl

[tundrawolf]

I have been writing poetry for her since I was a child. She has been in my heart, and a part of me all of my life. For those not aware, I have a spirit spouse, whom I share a heart with, who is half-wolf, half human. She looks like a "werewolf" but is a person- like you and me, she doesn't change or shape-shift. She is always a wolf girl. Our history is not perfect, we have a lot of struggles, and at one point, I guess we had come to blows with one another. Fangs flashed, blood was drawn... On both sides.


But today, as I strive to become the man she feels safe with... The man who wants to give everything to show her that she is loved... I want to write this for her.

Out in the cold, you see me

Shivering, shaking, without your coat of fur

Too afraid to approach the man who has wronged you

I see you... Quivering in the snow

I run into my home, grab a blanket

Then, i run to you as you, run from me...

But you are cold- your feet are not swift- and I turn to face you

For a moment, your eyes go dark, your lips flash those teeth that once tore me to shreds...

But I look up, and into your eyes

"Wait." I say, as the wind howls around us

The flurries of snow, chilling me to my bone- and your naked body

So used to the darkness

Shaking, the cold getting to me- or is it fear?

"Wait." i whisper, once more, and hold the blanket out to you.

Your heavy golden eyes fall on the wool blanket

Then, you look into my eyes.

"Come with me." I say, lifting the blanket up to you.

You hesitate- but you would not be here unless a part of you wanted to be with me.

"Please." I say- with all my heart.

You take the blanket as your body begins to shiver- the tiredness creeping in

You snort, clearing your nose- testing my scent, testing the air

What will I do? To the woman who was once my enemy.

But kindness, is all that is in my eyes.

You scoff, and turn your back to me, and I gently- braving your wrath- drape it around your back.

Gently, slowly, I stand next to you, and gently- you feel my hand on your back.

I guide you to my home, the light, shining in the darkness- we are in for a snow storm

Standing at the threshold, you stop. Your large wolf's head, turns to me

Again, your eyes probe me- and fear flashes in them.

Will the man you harmed... harm you?

"Please." I say, after I swallow... How is this a good idea?

I look into your dark, golden eyes, and see such turmoil

I see the obsidian claws jutting out from your fingertips

The claws on your toes

The bear-like muzzle

And the aura of anger.

"If you stay out here, you will die." I plead.

You scoff- but you know that I am right. The darkness has robbed you of your fur

Quivering, your ears fall back in ritual submission

You raise a foot, then step inside my home.

Shaking- not entirely from the cold- I shut the door behind you.

I stoke the fire, and put another log in the stove. I set a teapot on it, and prepare you some coco.

I guide your naked body, just under my blanket- to a chair I created just for you.

There is a hole, in the back, for your tail.

Your eyes are so conflicted... Your soul is in turmoil- your mind, regrets everything- even coming here.

But I saw you... Far off... In the trees... I knew... My other half was here.

"May I... Touch you?" I ask, softly- and clear my heart of lust.

Again, the scoff- looking away.

Gently... I take your hand- it is as cold as ice...

As cold as your heart.

I massage it... Until the warmth returns to it. Looking into your eyes, you look away, at some book shelf, your ears, perking back up.

I hand you the coco, and say- "It is hot. Be careful. Might want to let it cool a little."

You scoff and drink it anyway, and shoot me a cold glare.

I nod. "Okay"

Your skin, as black as night, from the caverns...

I hold my hands up- a gesture of disarmament, and you look away

A single tear trickles down your face, and you scoff at it.

"I will not be your dog." Your voice penetrates my mind as clear as day

"Will you be my friend?" I ask, softly, the words coming out of my mouth.

"What choice do I have?" You say, glaring at me, then looking away.

Gently, I take your hand, after you set the cup down, and place it on my heart

My eyes never leave yours

You can fight it- but we share a heart!

I probe your aura for your desires- And you are hungry.

"Let me make you something to eat."

You balk, but the meat I seasoned does not escape your large, black nose.

I watch you eat it- and your shoulders drop with a sigh

Your ears, fall back once again

I guide you to a bed- separate from mine- so you are not uncomfortable with me.

Your hateful eyes, stare into mine- but I touch your face

So softly, so gently, my fingertips barely touching your skin

"You are safe here." I whisper- and withdraw my hand.

"Am I safe with you?" I ask, the tall, muscular wolf-girl.

You scoff- "I have no choice."

You pull the blanket into your body and look away, your lips in a frown

But... Your eyes fall, as you emit another sigh

And hope I do not notice

Closing your eyes, with another sigh, you lay on the bed

For a moment, I see the gratitude in your eyes

Before anger washes it away

But it is okay.

To see them sparkle- if even for a moment

Makes my heart sing.

I get to my knees, by your bed.

"I want you to know something." I say, softly, as the fire dances with your eyes

"What." You grunt out, eying me from under the blankets.

"You're beautiful." I whisper

You close your eyes...

I go to my bed...

And we both fall asleep

Starting our new life

Not as two halves, separate

But as a whole being

United by the perfect resonance of our beating hearts.

[tundrawolf]

I should add:

March of 2021, was my first vision of her. Of Wolf girl. I call her "Asrael" but that is not her name.

The first vision, I saw her, standing just outside of a light that surrounds my emotional body, my "soul". She was... The most beautiful creature I had ever seen...

After I calmed down from that vision, after a few weeks, another vision happened: I felt her heart beating in my chest. Our hearts beat with perfect resonance. That morning, I was made "whole" "complete" by and with her. With wolf girl.

The third vision I had, after calming down from that vision, weeks or months later- as I was told not to "assume anything" about her... I was able to speak to her.

The conversation went thusly:

"I hate God."

"I hate you."

"I do not want to leave *hell."

She lives, presently, in caverns deep within the earth. She attacked me, about twenty years ago, during a spiritual vulnerability I had, and "ripped my soul apart" which has been terrorizing me daily since that time- and has only stopped when I saw her in the vision.

She is... Not a happy girl... I have caught her... Conspiring to make life... Harder for some people. I asked her to please stop- and she did.

She... Appeared to a friend of mine, and had him rebuke a small impish "demon" that was hindering a romantic relationship.

I have spent the time, since seeing her, working on "myself", after she presented me with a list of "gripes" she has against me personally. It turns out, you cannot hide from someone who shares a heart with you.

I will admit, she has caused me a significant amount of grief in my life. I saw the video of her creation, by extra-terrestrial beings, using "living waters", they thought it would be "funny" to give her an unhealthy libido, which has, also, tormented me my entire life until recently- but it has tormented her, too, and is, "Not funny" to her at all.

However, that said, I am working on becoming the man she wants to be with. It is not easy... As my life has been tumultuous, especially recently, and has been, realistically, since day one and even before.

It is my goal to purchase some land in remote Alaska, and to make a place for her. She is "supervised" by extra-terrestrials, in a hidden base, I believe around the antarctic area. One day, soon I hope- I wish to meet her. I am unsure if our meeting will be public, to announce to the human race, that "aliens" exist and so do wolf-people. (In the video of her creation, she got half a bucket of human-resonance water, and half a bucket of wolf waters, plus the libido, and other things that make "her", "her". I did not get to see the other things, aside from the unhealthy scoop of libido waters.)

I want to give her a better life. I want to make her know, and feel loved, adored, cherished, and cared-for. In one conversation with her, the idea of me being her guide on a new life on the planets surface, appealed to her. Ironically, I want to keep her safe from people.

I told her, I desire to meet her in the flesh. To see her in person. But it could be, once she is here, she cannot go back, so I must be ready. She is known for... Not being so "kind" in the underworld... As several beings down there have told me. Still, I love her, feet to ears, and think she is awesome, and that I could be harmed terribly by her is not lost on me... But, I have to risk it.

For the woman that holds the other half of my heart.

[tundrawolf]

You did not know what to expect

When you set your feet from the craft

This strange human man that whispers to you in the dark

Who was once your most hated enemy

Closing your eyes and knowing this was a mistake

You braved it anyway

This world, one of strange sights, strange sounds, and strange scents...

They told you- stay out of view- go that way- he is there.

This is a mistake- but there is no going back, now.

Did he lie to me?

You close your eyes tightly- he was not always a nice man

Is he even a good man today?

Men's tongues lie.

Still, the hope burns within your heart

That he will love you.

That scent that made your ears perk up

Was it him? Or something else

Danger- all around in this realm

Your keen eyes looking about

And there it was, the strange craft

He built it with his own hands

The dog barking at you- then trying to run away

The man emerging from the vehicle, setting his eyes on you, dropping his plate of food

"I am here." You thought, as his wide-eyes took you in.

You wanted to run away- you knew better than this

Now, you know, you will be shown no mercy

You bring your hands into your chest, and look away.

"Come, come!" He beckons you

That awkward moment, when he asked, "May I touch you?"

Your eyes going wide when he gathered you into his arms

Holding you close- you felt crowded

But something within you, your heart skipped a beat

Our hearts so close together

I held you- and knew- you were the girl for me.

Every insecurity you felt you had

Were hurdles I needed to clear

But, when I accepted you as-you-are

When I looked into your questioning eyes

"I have done such terrible things." You whispered

"How far, is the East, from the West?" I asked

How many people ever get to meet their other half

And there you are- grumpy- in my arms

But... The way your eyes close when I touch you

The way you never knew you needed to be touched

The soft sigh that escapes your lips

Your aura bristling with energy

I invest all that I am, into your pleasure

Keeping you fed with food you love

Satisfied in our bedroom- pleasing both wolf, and woman

Your cook, your lover, your teacher- your mind ever curious

The way your eyes light up when something you repair, works

Slowly... The darkness fades

Slowly... The light replaces it

Slowly... You grow accustomed to my presence

Slowly... your new life erases the old

And, slowly... You find a place in my heart.

And me... In yours.

[sammy]

Well displayed tundra! 👍

[fjrogers]

Process of unfoldment.

[tundrawolf]

My beautiful Rebecca needs a poem.

That morning when I saw you turn the age of maturity...

The celebration with the feathers in your hair...

I couldn't stop looking at your beautiful feet.

Your eyes glowed with a fire that pulled me in...

I was your king... But that morning I was as a child...

Looking into the eyes of the most beautiful woman I had ever seen.

That blush on the fur of your cheeks...

That glance from your glowing eyes...

You led me into the forest...

And we made love. I knew... I wanted to make children with you...

And we did.

You are the embodiment of femininity to my masculinity.

When I am with you...

I am never lonely.

I love the scent of your body... From your toes to your ears. You are a feast for my senses...

The way your tail sways back and forth when I come home to you... How you whisper in my ears when I am inside of you.

The way your eyes don't stop glowing unless something is making you sad.

The way your tongue plays with my own...

The way the tribe looks at you with envy. The way you trot around when you are happy...

And the way you make the king so happy... He's never angry when you are with him.

Your counsel is wise... Your body is hot... Your heart is warm... And our children are loved.

It took being inside of the machine to understand, I am the luckiest man alive to have you.

I love you, Rebecca.

My heart might align with Asrael... And some day I hope to have her also, as a wife... But I am grateful you chose me. You are one of the reasons I love my people like I do...

My dear, sexy, adventurous wolf girl.

I almost can't wait to see you again... Neither can my tongue, my maiden.

[tundrawolf]

For Asrael:

I know the whispers that have hurt you.

I know the pain you endure.

You are strong.

You ARE beautiful... It should be a crime to consider you ugly...

Your feet are glorious... Your legs are powerful... Your chest is a sea of lustful flesh... Your shoulders are broad to protect the king, and your muzzle is highly attractive to the king.

He may have not given you much attention in the past...

You like to keep to yourself, but now he knows why...

He wants you to know.

He loves you.

And...

He wants to grant you the desires of your heart...

He wants to find that shy little Wolfen girl... He wants to protect her and comfort her...

He wants to see your eyes sparkle in the sunlight.

He wants you to know that those hurtful words were spoken by ignorant minds who were jealous you are as beautiful as you are intimidating.

I want you to know... My journey of accepting you is one of my proudest ones. I almost can't wait to see you... Touch you... Taste you... Nibble on you...

I promise to be present with you fully... To listen to you. To honor you... Regardless of if you think you deserve it or not...

Because you do.

You are my wolf girl.

And I think you're hot.

You KNOW I will not leave you lonely.

And if I do... You know the king has said, your pleasure is a priority...

I know he would have been far too jealous in the past, but... I have spoken to him and he agrees.

I will tell you... I will be jealous of anyone who makes love to you... Who touches my precious Asrael...

Who makes you moan...

But.

I am grateful to share a heart with you.

I know we will be together forever. And I like that.

Ignore the whispers.

Ignore the callous words spoken by the fearful.

Embrace your physical power, for it is noble!

Embrace that you are a beautiful woman.

Embrace that your king wants YOU in his Chambers!

For, he did not see it until he received your heart.

He did not know your true beauty until he had your heart.

He does not want you to give up.

He does not want you to despair.

He desires that you give him, and I, a chance to show you that you are worthy to be loved.

You WILL show them.

They WILL scoff... But not because they are justified. But, because they are jealous of any man who gets to touch you with the passion of the king.

Do not be afraid.

The king desires you sincerely. Not to harm... But to bless. You are fortunate above many women. The king is desired across multiple univereses...


But he has chosen you.

It will not take his passion from Rebecca... It will only make him more grateful for her

And in the future, perhaps I can see my two beloved wolf women in the same bed... (I am told the tongue of a Wolfen is desired in the universe... And that my gorgeous Rebecca is more than a little willing to let Asrael taste her from within...)

And more.

My insatiable lover, Asrael. I almost cannot wait to clean your lips and teeth with my tongue.

I almost cannot wait to taste you.

I almost cannot wait to introduce you to new passions.

We are going to have fun my wolf girl.

I'll have those hips bouncing.

You are more tender and compassionate than I could imagine.

Yet you are also feared...

The entire tribe will see you... Dancing on those beautiful feet of yours... Feathers in your hair... A smile on your beautiful face that lights up the whole tribe.

You are more beautiful than you imagine.

When you smile through your blush, looking into the kings eyes... you know the only one judging you is you... He would rather kiss you than think one negative thing about you either.

Gives yourself time.

Nothing happens this quickly...

Do not judge yourself.

You've come a long way.

And I am proud to call you mine.

I will hold you and keep you safe.

You are my precious wolf girl.

Let's start a brand new life together.

I know you have been lonely for so long...

It's about time someone couldn't keep his hands away from your body.

Communicate with me, tell me your desires.

It is okay to tell me to stop. It is okay to be complicated...

And it is okay to want something today...

That you do not want tomorrow.

With fur... Without fur... You are gorgeous to the king, but he prefers you to have your fur for your sake...

There is something sexy about your naked, hairless body...

You need not fear judgment.

You need not fear me.

I love you.

And it's okay to tell me to work on myself.

It is okay to say that my heart is violent... I didn't even know.

But compared to your heart... Your heart is softer than the softest flesh... Anyone who gets to bed you is going to be the talk of the town.

I almost cannot wait to see you, prancing through the village... As happy as a Wolfen girl can be.

Your fur restored to you (it will take time, gorgeous!)

You are beautiful, Asrael.

Part of me wishes I could be with you this very moment.

I have faith I will be with you soon.

I love you.

Hang in there.

Your man is coming.