Now that I'm about twisted as all hell with no true direction/bearing, I finally bring myself to the best questions that I could have, should and will now ask.
What is the outcome? (The point?) Will I "awaken"? When (if) I awaken(fill with light), what do I awaken?
What is my reason for wanting to seek? Will this outcome damn my soul? Am I supposed to do this(according to my God?
I have severe trust issues and without any reason ( other than the fact that I was nosy about the freemason....why should I venture any further?
Promises of "light"? Nah....not good enough. I find the constant surrounding of "men of light" and the almost comfort level that I feel around them but....I'm not trying to damn my should for one second longer than my already existing sins have already cost me.
I truly wish to not seem so ignorant but....your just some guy(s) I met online....how in the hell could I be trusting someone that I have no clue who he is? Lmao shit is crazy as far as I know I could be getting brainwashed and well.....that shit just ain't gonna happen. So being ad you are God knows where , I still trust that you will understand my reasons and venture no further blind.
Also, because this animal in which I dwell has what I believe to be everything that God intended him to have ( other than "I". Why should I add light to an already energized being?
There are many beings posted into this planet to assist, some in human form. Adverse forces leap upon such beings to disable/misdirect/subvert them in each incarnation.
>Will I "awaken"?
You are mid-process now, attempting to exert your intent and control your consciousness.
>what do I awaken?
The flow of Intent from the Being that uses this solar system as Its body of incarnation
>What is my reason for wanting to seek?
The Life Force that emerges within you seeks to express its full nature.
>Will this outcome damn my soul?
No. In any case the soul is a transitional entity in the cosmic processes while the Spirit that produces your Flame is part of the Source of All.
The soul, being much superior to the personality, is not damaged by the personality, but some religions like to instill fear.
The role of the soul is to step down the higher frequencies of Spirit to the range the personality can use. As the personality becomes transparent to Spirit, the soul is no longer required, and pure Spirit shines through. Then the human may say: When you have seen me, you have seen the Father, for I live in Him and He lives in me.
The personality, through right living and higher aspiration, can accumulate the higher mental substance that the soul needs to communicate with the personality.
>Am I supposed to do this(according to my God?
It rather depends which god your personality follows. For example, the god of the OT says: I am a jealous god. My personality would choose a non-jealous god if it had to choose one.
The energy-intelligence locally known as the Christ light, has cosmic levels that extend through the solar system and beyond.
>I have severe trust issues and without any reason
Obviously you have reasons, but your mind does not know/remember them. Trust issues are common in those that have been oppressed by dark forces.
Lack of trust is a defense while developing inner strength but of course, when subverted, the lack of trust is directed against helpful entities.
> my already existing sins
As you must know, the Spirit within a human is never compromised by the actions of the human personality. There is nothing for Spirit to forgive. All these things are Spirit gaining experience. Having learned, It moves on.
Adverse forces use guilt to undermine the intent of useful humans. Perhaps you can choose not to carry guilt.
>how in the hell could I be trusting someone that I have no clue who he is?
Just do the Flame exercise.
>Why should I add light to an already energized being?
As you do the Flame, you will develop the ability to see the Light as it flows in your body. The Light is already there, but its flow is being limited - including by adverse beings.
The Flame can produce unlimited Light. It is up to you.
I was taught by Roman Catholic priests that the human is body and soul.
Teaching that the human is body and soul allows much more space for sin and punishment - since the human without spirit is separate from the Source of All and needs salvation - hard to achieve without a priest.
On the other hand, the Eastern Christian churches split from Rome partly because they believed the human to be body, soul and spirit.
These are of course theological arguments and based on quoting authorities rather than direct observation of the flows of Light in the human.
Still, there have been religious observations of the flame in the heart, with the earliest Christian account probably being in the 1600s. It was taken up by the Roman church as part of the counter-reformation depictions of mystical experiences
So if the human is body, soul and spirit, then the human can have a blazing heart just like Jesus.
Every live human that I have inspected has a flame in the heart. Sometimes it is very small but it is always there in the live human, since it provides the life force.
My family has/had the wall rugs/paintings with the Jesus depiction pointing to the heart flame in the picture. I find text in the my Bible(KJV) regarding light and so on. But...I so long to hear my God tell me to proceed.
There have to be saints or someone local in a church that can tell me that I'm OK to proceed right?
The only guy ( that is a freemason) that I trust almost 99.99.9% told me "God would give me the answers when I am ready for them". I wish to call him and ask him if I should be trying to "light up" or not, but I fear that in my current mental state that I would only darken his doorstep. This I wish not to do.
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My family has/had the wall rugs/paintings with the Jesus depiction pointing to the heart flame in the picture. I find text in the my Bible(KJV) regarding light and so on. But...I so long to hear my God tell me to proceed.
There have to be saints or someone local in a church that can tell me that I'm OK to proceed right?
The only guy ( that is a freemason) that I trust almost 99.99.9% told me "God would give me the answers when I am ready for them". I wish to call him and ask him if I should be trying to "light up" or not, but I fear that in my current mental state that I would only darken his doorstep. This I wish not to do.
Sometimes it is not what or how much you know.. but the way in which you are perceiving it. Enlightenment, is making visible what was previously invisible (unknown VS. knowledge). Just shedding some light on the subject *wink*.
So it might be more reliable to think in terms of "The Source of All" - a functional naming that bypasses any shortcomings in the various human concepts of God.
In many spiritual/religious traditions, humans are the sons/daughters of gods/God.
In traditional societies, the son tends to inherit or carry on the business/trade of the father. That certainly seems to have been the case with Jesus: Did you not know that I must be about My Father’s business?
