Pause for Reflection

[stewartedwards]

Paul, All, Spooks,

I have been posting and deleting today, and I want to say something but have been troubled on how to put it. So I decided this was the way to go.

1. I have pretty much left the Internet (posting) due to bullying and abuse (liberal definition) (not here), and prior to that through boredom (eg Facebook).
2. So this is my last place that I post.
3. But I need a pause as I have been troubled recently, which I will explain below.
4. I know you, and others here could help me with this Paul. But I need to reflect using my own skillsets, where I am today.
5. You will understand just how you have enabled me to progress in a short span of time, and I need to be the tortoise just now.
6. As we bumble and stumble our way to global war, which I hope is prevented by our spooks, diplomats and politicians, and as my family life is both in turmoil will also being better than it has been for decades, I just need to reflect and think, on my own. I hope you understand. I expect I will return but don’t know when, maybe a day, a week, a month, a year.

7. What lies behind all this is that I decided to open the skill cube given to me by a globally important person, previously discussed.
8. The first time was more of a quality test and things seemed ok.
9. The second time, the sheer enormity of its contents has me doubting that I am (1) the right person, or (2) ready to hold it. The previous holder, chose never to open it and I regard them very highly. (For skeptics, I know that this is all in my head and beyond the confirmation from the likes of Paul and others here is difficult to rationalise. Believe me I wish this was some sort of mental illness).
10. I have been getting a lot of dream ethical testing recently, which I hope I have passed, but it has reminded me how difficult it must be for people in positions of power, even with good intent and good people.
11. I just need to absorb it all.
12. For even as I have made my decision not to intervene in human affairs any more during my lifetime (mind you I have been pretty unsuccessful so far so it’s academic), it seems that higher powers might well, as Paul has often noted, have a different plan for me. One which in my mind, to be effective (without the stupid money etc) should have happened at its optimal time of two decades ago, or at worst a decade ago. Just now I really just don’t see the necessary amount of self evolved human evolution to avoid catastrophe, in the various kingdoms, within my lifetime. But I would love to be proven wrong.
13. Mr Coutts if you have anything to say to me now really is the time. If not then no problem, I am happy to plod along, observe and report back. Who knows I might be able to express a sigh of relief if I am diagnosed with a mental illness that explains it all.

14. Note to spooks, how thick are my files? Are we talking inches, feet, metres, miles?


Finally, until I return thank you all. It might not be long or might be a while.

[paul]

Stewart, you are prized and welcome here at any time

Cheers

[sammy]

I would always hate to see you leave, but also always want you to do what's best for you!

Much love brother stay well stay safe! 💖🙏💖

[stewartedwards]

While I am not quite ready to fully return, I thought that I would let your know Paul, that I have sought advice from the Jewish community, and they have:

1. Essentially confirmed your perspective.
2. Directed me towards papers written by Jewish scholars relating to the work that I have been doing. Quite enlightening.
3. While perhaps not their intention (they explained the views of eg Pirke Avot: "You are not required to complete your work, yet neither are you permitted to desist from it". I think this gentleman's thoughts on it are spot on: www.linkedin.com/pulse/201302261...ears%20ago. concentrate of the effort, not the outcome.)

They have helped me realise that doing good daily and reporting back is a process, and focusing on the bigger picture outcome is less important. So the bigger picture stuff, eg helping to avoid global war catastrophe as power balances shift and missteps are made through ego etc, are something that either someone else better qualified than me can help sort or will happen anyway through human nature.

I still need to reflect further, just to double check that I will be happy being completely non interventionist, and simply focusing on doing daily good and reporting back, but unless something changes imminently that looks like it is what it is going to be. Sirius over Orion. Which really suprises me, given my lifelong connection to Orion, but as you know I have been pulling that way for some time.

[paul]

>concentrate on the effort, not the outcome

Quite so. There are many moving parts in this cosmos. Each of us, as the human anchor of a thread of cosmic light, is part of a coordinated dance that originates outside space and time

[stewartedwards]

Feb 23, 2023 7:33:43 GMT 9.5 foxfires said:

Ecclesiastes 12:6 Or ever the silver cord be loosed, or the golden bowl be broken, or the pitcher be broken at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern.

it could refer to Essentially, it means the cord of life. Strong's Heb. 2256, "chebel" or band

Foxfires

You may have no idea how relevant that is, right now.

I have been doing a lot of personal metaphysical exploration recently, as well as looking at how my time is best spent from here on in. (From the perspective (as best I can obviously) of on high optimal global human evolution).

Anyhow, since I managed to use the advice given to me from the Jewish community to as Paul might write, ‘grasp my spiritual authority’, [that is quite a story that likely would upset some so I won’t explain] things have got interesting. Suffice to say that I have much greater clarity on a number of things. Part of that has involved crown connections and head connections. Today it involved a neck connection that was rather interesting, a bit like being lifted by a meat hook I guess!

Thank you Foxfires.

Added: for those who might not ‘feel’ esoterics, who might read this:

Essentially I suspect that I will stop keeping up in so much detail with global affairs etc and just observe what happens in our world as we blunder towards global war on two fronts, hegemony likely changes, and if I am still around the likely changes after that. My effort isn’t one of interfering, simply ensuring that my judgements on human evolution are as well rounded and accurate as possible. While hopefully holding a lamp for others to help find their way. Alternatively I might just be suffering from an undiagnosed mental illness or the effects of Dexamethasone. But our world doesn’t need the phropet(s) all religions are expecting. That’s part of the difficulty, for evolution requires individuals to think, reflect, and work from the heart. And that is all inner work. Investigating the hidden mysteries of nature and science.

Besides to look at our problems from a purely human perspective misses so much. Mr Coutts keep your money.

[foxfires]

neglected i did to xplain being seriously messed up is just part of the hyper connection im figuring ur doing here

the drinking down of insanity is a key part
some turn out as hecklers because maybe they gotta feel better about self

ridiculers .,. ones that complain about your methods

and the emotionally disconnected
psychic vampires and wharewolfs

that can and will bleed all life force from an mortal and enjoy it

[stewartedwards]

Feb 24, 2023 9:47:38 GMT 9.5 foxfires said:

Also note do u want free masons from here dragging u into emotional insults and becoming their "Bitch in the next life"

Foxfires I really don’t think that is an issue, especially from here. Why do you think that some of the masons here are so dark?

Please forgive the bullet points:

1. In this life I know (from wife’s of masons) that some have done me harm through Lodge. That was sad, but it it is what it is.
2. Re my next lives, they are on a hiding to nowhere. Let me explain.
3. I know from my NDE that I don’t ‘have’ to be here. I am here by freewill choice.
4. I suspect that my role here is to do what I think best for this planet. I tried direct nudging for two decades, I failed (though two Jewish people tell me that I haven’t failed, but I just don’t see the successes). Now I am making effort to ensure that my final report back is as objective and accurate as possible. Albeit it will only be one perspective. What God does with that is above my pay grade.
5. Fortunately I can resonate with objects/energies of multiple religions which helps.
6. Whatever, I strongly suspect that I will not be asked to return here for a long time, a millennia or two, again to see how things are progressing.
7. While I have zero idea of where my next life will be, I might buzz you all from a ufo over London!
8. While I suspect, and Paul has confirmed re Forres, that I was involved in Freemasonry on this planet in its early days, and while I good reason to believe that some have harmed me in this life as noted above, any who try to make me ‘their bitch in my next life’ as you suggest, are frankly on a hiding to nothing. In fact they may find that they have harmed themselves. Which is a bit poetic. Given that I am one of the strongest supporters of Freemasonry out there (as evidenced by my efforts in the first first decade of this Millennium).