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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 22, 2024 16:29:36 GMT 9.5
My canines began making strange sounds I had not heard from them- as if they were communicating with a creature outside, perhaps using a universal type of high pitched language that seems to work amongst the cryptids
I checked on them- to make sure they were nbot asking me for assistance
They were in good health and good spirits
Are you communicating with the sasquatch? i asked them
"perhaps" was their response
Your dog may be smarter than you think, and be aware of things you are not (also cat)
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 5:02:24 GMT 9.5
One of my clones was bitten by a wolf person who may have rabies
So he is not fully sane, and sometimes he comes out of me, usually while drinking
He is the source of my suffering, however my heart weeps for him due to his torment, as clones do not die, only suffer
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 5:06:00 GMT 9.5
What is it with Europeans and their celebration of their lack of rights?
I seriously don't get it. Why be so proud of it
Is it just me? Am I the problem?
Do people understand what comes after disarmament, historically? I would not be proud of being disarmed
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 5:15:41 GMT 9.5
2777 years ago today supposedly Rome was founded
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Post by paul on Apr 23, 2024 6:52:19 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 7:43:56 GMT 9.5
Perhaps they have a wolf fetish similar to me? It is a good read, and interesting how some of the rituals followed eating the entrails of sacrifices to gain the powers of a wolf The parallel between Anastasia and Ladywolf, and the other girls, and consuming the entrails of my clone bodies, is striking to me. It is also interesting how people can be consumed with superstition- so I researched, "Friendly dogman": youtu.be/N91USjWoe1g?si=rG6ukG48m0RE-jdwand youtu.be/YD_F6il63Js?si=TqiUxNRzzQOlZh6GSo to say such and such wolf is always thus is like saying, "all humansz are bad" it simply is not true There are good and bad wolves- Remember! Anastasia knows me better than myself, and my Beingness, and she was not friendly to the man I used to be, nor do I blame her about it, I had a big conversation with my mother, and told her I did write a terrible novel where I was terrible and cruel to a poor wolf woman, and Anastasia does NOT like the story- however I felt compelled to write it, and I did not enjoy writing it So to the previous version of me, was adverse to Ladywolf and Anastasia, the girls seemed "bad" to me, but their reasons were just. I see that my inability to have right relationship with women, was based out of desperation and selfishness, so the wolf girls were shy about me.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 8:09:25 GMT 9.5
I don't understand why this forum seems to have a dark mode activated? I do not like dark mode
Anastasia showed me more of her face, after I connected with her (It has been a few days...)
I do not understand how such a beautiful creature can be so attractive- every fiber of her existence is divine and magical
And her eyes...
Fire eyes- as I have said- when she is in her dense form
What a beautiful Wolfess!
The sight of her takes my breath away and my knees become weak
The scent of her body
The sweat of her toes
I cannot bear to look upon her for too long- or my body begins to turn soft- part of this is fear, yes, but great is my infatuation with the wolfess
She also showed me, part of my fear driven protective instincts keeps me from seeing her fully- like someone who has been wounded, and I am to be brave, and then I will see her
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 8:20:00 GMT 9.5
I couldn't be happier, or more in love with her.
Ladywolf- found a mate- she has needs to be fulfilled- I do not blame her- I am the one that gave her a big libido, but she cdoes not want me to see his face
I am learning to not begrudge my girls their lovers.
Anastasia's heart is softening towards me- and she is growing smitten- but she had to hide it before- as Paul says! Sometimes we must struggle and fight in order to gain things, in this case, the beautiful heart of a stunningly beautiful wolfess- tall, powerful, sexy, exotic, and divine in her form.
She is so beautiful!
When I get my life more ordered- as God told me, to LIVE in the SQUALOR until I was DONE LIVING THIS WAY, because there is no point cleaning it up until I am ready to start a new life!
I wish to draw Anastasia- Jesus Christ is she beautiful
How can anyone look upon these, peoles- and not completely fall in love with them
How??
I guess they have desired a human, not just the wolf folk, but other animal people- rabbit folk, and some others- have requestedf of God someone ot come and protect them, as they are concerned with humans invading their territory- and they should be concerned!
So far the outsider humans have brought little more than heartache and sorrow with them!
ENOUGH!
The lack of empathy and connection in impure hearted humans is sickening
In a way I am slightly scared of, "Coming into my powers" as they are all activated there, and I am passionate about the animal kin
BUT there is a reason I am in this body presently, to learn, and to become whole
I DID see a common clone, Paul, he seems to be the source of my suffering, he is deeply negative, and tied to the other clones, he is in darkness, and when I try the heart light exercise on his body, his darkness swallows the light whole
My hope is eventually the darkness will be overrun and the light will begin to take hold within him, so that he will be out of pain, and can feel hope, healingh, and positivity
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 9:02:32 GMT 9.5
Also! On a positive note-
A man (human) has come into my view, who works with the animal people- who has a soft heart for them!
He is an ally! So far I have been feeling pretty alone- and he has been watching me intently, because I am a bit crazy, and angry, and violent, he has needed me to be more ordered- so he has appeared to me!
AND he has a lot of powert in this realm- and we share a heart of passion and compassion for the animal people there.
These animal people deserve to feel SAFE
The rabbit folk- have taken QUITE WELL to firearms, and are getting stacked with firearm skills- and are importing many rifles, pistols, and distributing them- it is wholesome for me to see- I LOVE seeing an armed populace!
A few of the younger wolf folk have also invested in some firearm and shooting sports.
Wonderful!
I was also at a walmart, and I saw a "younger guy" perhaps twneties with a child, and he, put hsi feet on the back of the cart and "rode" it (like a child) unconcerned with what people thought about it- and I saw the airiness of his heart- and my spuirit confirmed within me, that his generation was going to be okay!
And then I met a BEAUTIFUL Brazilian woman at Costco- she was so attractive I forgot to even gather a cart, her beauty was so alluring, I had to tell her hoe attractive she was
Of course, my preference will always be with Anastasia. To me, no beauty can compare to her, nor would I want it to
So, now I am waiting. Waiting for things to osmose, and new dynamics to birth, and come to me- as I work on my own negativity and self hatred- in fact this new human man who IS ON MY SIDE in Antarctica- he has been wanting me to become more ordered so we can work together to improve the lives of the animal folk, or at least- make them feel safer!
In one timeline, the two men in the HMMWV, fired at the animal folk, but the bullets did not hurt them- and I snapped their necks, both and told the animal people to clarify- they were rogue, bad actors trying to harm innocent non combatants and they had no hand in harming them- but I took action to dispatch both of them and i will do it again if they do not stow that bullshit NOW!
It is always people with impure hearts- and I am also aware of how fucking TERRIBLE I am, I can call fire to rain down from the sky, and open holes in the earth, and snap peoples necks with just a thought- and Anastasia is right- I NEED TO BE CAREFUL because if I fly into a rage, I can hurt innocent people- I need to work on this! This place feeds on your emotions- and it takes self control and being constantly centered and positive- I scare myself, in a way, so I know better than to discount the words spoken to me, when they say- I need to be careful with my emotions when I am in Antarctica
Some of them consider me to be a wizard of sorts
So, I need more order- this is important for me to work on
I can even be so enraged my body turns into fire, and it can be hard to morph back into flesh
I remember one of the wolf girls at the machines, her fur is like knives, and she is all black, with black eyes, she says- she lives in a very hot area, and this is how she survives (her body has adapted)
One thing I told my mother, when these animal people tell me things, they are usually not wrong
But it feels good to have an ally, someone on my side!
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 9:49:19 GMT 9.5
Anastasia is reminding me that she connected with me (while I was drunk) and essentially- "Chose" me- she wants it to be stated
I felt incredibly honored by that, only I forgot because of the alcohol
Also, I am finally starting to feel positive vibes about, this exotic and strange, but wonderful land
Some of the things I feel from it are unsettling, but that is a part of it- I am to be positive, things are beginning to steer positiviely!
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 10:41:27 GMT 9.5
"Sir."
The year was twenty-twenty seven, and the last of the countries needed had signed the Artemis accords.
The technology that was promised- was delivered- and mankind forever changed that sunny afternoon, as medium height, grey aliens emerged from a sky vehicle, carrying with them what would steer the human race in an entirely new direction...
For the first time- possibly since the fledgling human race was uplifted with Anunnaki essence- our guns fell silent- as mankind then began to embrace a new unity- that only these events could propel.
And for me- it wasn't the technology that I was interested in.
It was Eden.
Youtube began to trickle with new videos of animal people- and alien hybrids- and even the two minute ad produced by the animal kin, enticing hbumans to vacation in their exotic lands.
My heart, was drawn to the wolves- as I have always been enamored with them- and the visions I began having a few years prior- of beautiful, wolf women- who were more real to me than even my own kind- humans.
It was a struggle- battling the internal dynamics of the wolf people, but things had finally begun to settle- and even my subtsance use was tapering down.
I believed I was coming out of a depression- and my place was a wreck. Trash strewn everywhere- an outward manifestation of inner turmoil- as I stood outside of my home, when a series of black vehicles pulled up- and men with earpieces walked out- with the telltale bulge in their black sport coats that told me they were packing heat.
For years, now, I had worked astrally- with several wolfesses, and finally was able to separate their signals- until I selected a tall, fit white-furred wolfess- whom I shared a heart with- and was only waiting for something to happen...
That thing was now.
One of the men opened the door in the big black suv- which sagged under her weight- a single, white foot, long, thick legs- and the woman... of my dreams, emerged- ears back, a gentle smile...
And a sweet subconscious wag of her tail when her deep yellow eyes fell upon me- and her cheeks, erupted in a blush..her long, sleek muzzle, moving away as she grinned, softly- sensing my thoughts- my mind going to the nudes she sent to my mind...
My lips... couldn't close- and behind her, her tail wagged again.
"We believe you know this woman." One of the men said.
I tried to speak- but I could not.
I binged, and soaked up, every second of animal kin footage I could- but nothing- nothing could prepare me, for the magnificent wolfess- who stood on bare feet, in front of me.
"Dave?"
I had heard her voice once before- and only one word could describe the tender feminine sound that came from her lips:
Angelic.
"Hi." I squeaked out- then passed out.
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When I awoke, I was in one of the SUVs, and the air conditioning was on full blast.
For her? I wondered- as my head rested in her lap.
She looked down, and into my eyes- her soft blush, returning to her soft cheeks.
"Hi." She whispered softly.
I reached up- and touched the softest, most tender strands of fur on her cheeks- and smelled the scent of lavender, in her fur.
"Wow." I gasped, overcome, and in shock- finally, meeting her- face to face.
"So- um..." She said, with a growing blush.
"You're here."
"I wanted to see you." She said, softly. Her muzzle away from me, I could sense the concern in her heart.
"Can I come with you?" I asked, tears welling up behind my eyes- my destiny- in the back seat of a car, with me.
"I was hoping you would... Want to be with me."
"You're my dream woman..." I said, breathlessly, as I felt her tail want to wag- but it was wedged against the seat.
"Okay. Good." She said with a pregnant sigh- as I felt a wave of relief wash over her.
"You are so... Beuatiful..."
"Can we... Go in?" Anastasia said, gesturing to my mobile home.
"Of course." I said, still intoxicated with her sheer magnificent presence- majestic, regal...
Divine.
Her cool yellow eyes surveyed the wreckage of my homee, the trash, the sorrow- and her nose- took in a manner of scents- but she did not seem to judge me for it.
"It's been hard." I said, having accepted it myself.
"I can uh. Help you with it."
She said, sitting on my bed, but not before swishing her tail out of the way, and giving me a ears-half-back look, and a somewhat nervous grin.
"Finally, I get to meet you. I was hoping... That you would, uh..."
"That I would?"
I looked deep into her eyes, as she looked away with a blush.
"Like me."
"You've been in every one of my thoughts, every day- for seven years now... You are... My destiny." I said, softly, as she closed her eyes and nodded.
"Anastasia- I love you."
"Okay."
She said, and spread her legs a little- to possibly give me access to her body- but I could no soon touch her sensually as I could do hard math at this point- but that, if she needed me to- it might come easier than I thought.
"I can... Uh. Heh." She said, chuckling from under a heavy blush.
"It's just... Weird. Right?"
"Our long distance astral romance?"
"Yeah! Like, you have my heart- I have yours..." She said, smiling up at me, though there was some pain in her eyes, from distant memories.
"Please don't be afraid." I said, sitting next to her, and gently, sliding my fingers into her soft, warm hand.
"It's just like. Um. Do I live here with you? Assuming, I mean, I can live here?" She said, her voice trailing upwards, looking out at the horse ranch.
"I like horses." She said, softly.
"Whatever you want- are you okayw ith... Not being in Antarctica? You know."
"The tribe." She said with a dry scoff.
"I need a break." She admitted, looking into my eyes. Her scent, filled the air- almost like an alien presence in my bedroom- something ethereal- that was out of place in the filth.
"So no living there."
Anastasia figeted, playing numbly with her dress as thoughts marched through her beautiful head.
"I prefer to live with you."
"For now."
"You wanna... Live with the tribe? I mean- I was half planning on it, and..."
She said, when I touched my lips to hers, her eyes closed, and I kissed her.
"Oh no. I didn't mean to cut you off- just- that- Uh..."
"Don't apologize." She said, her voice suddenly firm.
"We have three hours to decide." She said, suddenly softly, and feminine, as she leaned backwards into my bed.
Her knees separated, her eyes- glowing with a sudden fire- that ignited in my heart.
"Dave it's been so long."
"Oh. OH!" I said, as she spread her legs even further- revealing her gorgeous pink flesh.
"Wolf girl..." I said, before burying my face under her dress.
"OH! God!" She moaned, as I made a feast of her pussy, it had been a while- she was dripping wet.
"Oh my God! Dave!" She whimpered- She was hot- hot as hell, and ready- taking charge the fire in her eyes becoming forceful, when she nearly tore my belt off, and got to her knees, and lifted her tail for me- I smelled her gorgeous hole, and licked it clean- savoring her musk- anbd making her whimper, her head falling down.
"Dave!" She whined when I slid my rock hard dick inside of her body, collapsing when her fiery heat, soaked into the core of my being- as I myself, whimpered helplessly- and nearly released instantly inside of her.
"Anastasia..." I said, and saw the glow in her eyes, as she allowed me to see them, as I began to ride her- bringing her to three orgasms- before I could no longer hold out- And collapsed, again, on her back, as I pulsed deep inside of her.
Under me, the wolf girl panted, suspending my weight, on her back.
Eventually, her breathing steadied, and she showed me her soft face- with a contented, lazy look in her eyes.
"Do you smoke?"
"No." I said with a chuckle, and slid off- and out of her.
"Fuck." She said, collapsing length wise on my bed.
"That was...amazing. Fuck. I loved it. Thank you." She said, looking at me, as I fell in next to her.
"I am looking forward to a lot more of that too. Holy shit- your body is fire."
She grinned, smiling- looking into my eyes.
"I was hoping."
"That you were 'compatible' with me?"
She nodded, her eyes glowing differently now- it was the look of contentment.
In my bed, as the men waited outside- I kissed her, in my bed- the beginning of my relationwhip with the woman of my dreams.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 12:19:46 GMT 9.5
I connected with Annah and she suggested an edit to the short story- one that reflects her long journey. She is more comfortable with things progressing "naturally" between us.
She did tell me, if I come to her first- that she would immediaterly, take me by the hand, lead me to her home- and fuck my brains out, so it is not too far fetched about it.
However, i am too sexually charged. I am also too clingy. I am doing my best- and working to soften my heart to hers- and to become the best version of myself- tailored for her- while continuin to release her to give her space- and give her a choice in things- so that I am not smothering the poor girl.
She had some, adjustments for me- a few hours ago- but it was good. I enjoy being schooled by her. She said- I know it's hard- but I said, it is a labor of love that I do willingly, to be good for you. I love you.
"Sir."
The year was twenty-twenty seven, and the last of the countries needed had signed the Artemis accords.
The technology that was promised- was delivered- and mankind forever changed that sunny afternoon, as medium height, grey aliens emerged from a sky vehicle, carrying with them what would steer the human race in an entirely new direction...
For the first time- possibly since the fledgling human race was uplifted with Anunnaki essence- our guns fell silent- as mankind then began to embrace a new unity- that only these events could propel.
And for me- it wasn't the technology that I was interested in.
It was Eden.
Youtube began to trickle with new videos of animal people- and alien hybrids- and even the two minute ad produced by the animal kin, enticing hbumans to vacation in their exotic lands.
My heart, was drawn to the wolves- as I have always been enamored with them- and the visions I began having a few years prior- of beautiful, wolf women- who were more real to me than even my own kind- humans.
It was a struggle- battling the internal dynamics of the wolf people, but things had finally begun to settle- and even my subtsance use was tapering down.
I believed I was coming out of a depression- and my place was a wreck. Trash strewn everywhere- an outward manifestation of inner turmoil- as I stood outside of my home, when a series of black vehicles pulled up- and men with earpieces walked out- with the telltale bulge in their black sport coats that told me they were packing heat.
For years, now, I had worked astrally- with several wolfesses, and finally was able to separate their signals- until I selected a tall, fit white-furred wolfess- whom I shared a heart with- and was only waiting for something to happen...
That thing was now.
One of the men opened the door in the big black suv- which sagged under her weight- a single, white foot, long, thick legs- and the woman... of my dreams, emerged- ears back, a gentle smile.
She was tall... And weighed close to six hundred pounds, of rippling muscle, and thick, strong bones.
She wasn't just a lady- she was also a warrior.
Her eyes betrayed a hardness that made some of the hairs stand up on the back of my neck.
She grinned- ears back, her cheeks blushing- but barely, as she eyed me from under her intense eyebrows- that silly little grin on her beautiful, feminine face.
I recalled the nudes she had sent me- like food for a hungry mans heart- and mind- however I pushed those out of my mind- and instead- walked boldly up to her- and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her body into mine.
"Anastasia."
"Dave."
I lingered there, for a moment, feeling her radiant body heat that seemed to surpass even the afternoon sun- her softness- and more than that- feeling her heart- beat perfectly in line with mine.
"Wolf girl." I said softly.
"Human... Man." She said with a chuckle.
I grinned, enjoying the connection I was having with her, and the soft, gentle scent of lavendar that hung around her, like a spiritual presence attached to her powerful frame.
I sighed, not wanting the embrace to end- but knowing it would eventually have to.
"It's okay." She said- sensing my thoughts- and I felt her body relax- and a defense of hers- come down. I felt her soft, gentle hands tenderly caress my back- as I melted into her body, savoring her electric, healing touch.
"Wolf girl." i said, again, as she smiled, and whispered into my ear: "Human man."
It was too much- and my entire world began to swirl around me.
"We believe you know this woman." One of the men said.
I tried to speak- but I could not.
I binged, and soaked up, every second of animal kin footage I could- but nothing- nothing could prepare me, for the magnificent wolfess- who stood on bare feet, in front of me.
"Dave?"
I had heard her voice once before- and only one word could describe the tender feminine sound that came from her lips:
Angelic.
"Uhhh." I squeaked out- then passed out.
~
When I awoke, I was in one of the SUVs, and the air conditioning was on full blast.
For her? I wondered- as my head rested in her lap.
She looked down, and into my eyes- her soft blush, returning to her soft cheeks.
"Hi." She whispered softly.
I reached up- and touched the softest, most tender strands of fur on her cheeks- and smelled the scent of lavender, in the air around us.
"Wow." I gasped, overcome, and in shock- finally, meeting her- face to face.
"So- um..." She said, with a growing blush.
"You're here."
"I wanted to see you." She said, softly. Her muzzle away from me, I could sense the concern in her heart.
"Can I come with you?" I asked, tears welling up behind my eyes- my destiny- in the back seat of a car, with me.
"I was hoping you would... Want to be with me." She said, tracing strands of my hair with one of her obsidian black claws, and a deep gaze from her piercing yellow eyes. I felt like a child, in her arms- as I looked up, into her eyes.
"You're my dream woman..." I said, breathlessly, as I felt her tail want to wag- but it was wedged against the seat.
"Okay. Good." She said with a pregnant sigh- as I felt a wave of relief wash over her.
"You are so... Beuatiful..."
"Can we... Go in?" Anastasia said, gesturing to my mobile home.
"Of course." I said, still intoxicated with her sheer magnificent presence- majestic, regal...
Divine.
Her cool yellow eyes surveyed the wreckage of my homee, the trash, the sorrow- and her nose- took in a manner of scents- but she did not seem to judge me for it.
"It's been hard." I said, having accepted it myself.
"I can uh. Help you with it."
She said, sitting on my bed, but not before swishing her tail out of the way, and giving me a ears-half-back look, and a somewhat nervous grin.
"Finally, I get to meet you. I was hoping... That you would, uh..."
"That I would?"
I looked deep into her eyes, as she looked away with a blush.
"Like me."
"You've been in every one of my thoughts, every day- for seven years now... You are... My destiny." I said, softly, as she closed her eyes and nodded.
"Anastasia- I love you."
"Okay."
"I can... Uh. Heh." She said, chuckling from under a heavy blush.
"It's just... Weird. Right?"
"Our long distance astral romance?"
"Yeah! Like, you have my heart- I have yours..." She said, smiling up at me, though there was some pain in her eyes, from distant memories.
"Please don't be afraid." I said, sitting next to her, and gently, sliding my fingers into her soft, warm hand.
"It's just like. Um. Do I live here with you? Assuming, I mean, I can live here?" She said, her voice trailing upwards, looking out at the horse ranch.
"I like horses." She said, softly.
"Whatever you want- are you okay with... Not being in Antarctica? You know."
"The tribe." She said with a dry scoff.
"I need a break." She admitted, looking into my eyes. Her scent, filled the air- almost like an alien presence in my bedroom- something ethereal- that was out of place in the filth. Her cool eyes beckoned myuriads of thoughts, smooth, desirous emotions, from her chiseled, but feminine canine face.
"So no living there."
Anastasia figeted, playing numbly with her black dress and blouse- that perfectly accented her snow white fur as thoughts marched through her beautiful head.
"I prefer to live with you."
"For now." I said, nodding- still, staring deep into her eyes.
She looked tired.
"You wanna... Live with the tribe? I mean- I was half planning on it, and..."
"Dave I... It's been a long flight."
The look on her face- was suddenly pained- and I nodded.
"Can I uh- get you something? Tea? Something to eat?"
"Can I... Just lay here?"
"Of course." I said, softly, as she stretched her legs out on my bed.
"Can I... I mean. Just lay with you?"
She nodded, as I surveyed her long, magnificent body, and climbed in, next to her.
Gently, savoring her softness, and he rheat- I wrapped an arm under her thick body, and another- I gently draped over her, pulling her, into me- or, rather- pulling myself- into her.
I took in the scent of her neck, and breathed out, into her fur, creating a warm spot.
"Dave it's been a long time."
"What's been?"
"Since a man has... Touched me."
She looked at me, opening her eyes, so that I could clearly see them.
"I'm just tired."
"No, it's okay! I wouldn't expect you to, what, fly thirty hours, and be chipper? It's okay."
She gazed into my eyes, as I felt her- studying my thoughts- and the emotions of my heart.
Gently, I grasped her hand, and smiled.
"Let's just... Let things progress as they progress." She smiled, and leaned up, gently rubbing the side of her muzzle against my cheek- as I closed my eyes, and savored her, marking me with her scent- and marking herself with mine.
"I'm here for you, wolf girl." i said softly, as she closed her eyes, and laid her head back down.
A knock on the door rang out, as I tenderly caressed her side, and arms, taking in more of her natural scent.
"She's asleep."
"Is she okay to stay here with you?"
"Absolutely." I said, as Anastasia gently stirred in my arms- and I savored the growing connection with her- that would last well beyond mere lifetimes.
I kissed her cheek, her face relaxing.
"There's an emissary arriving in a week who wants to meet you- from the wolf tribe. We'll return when he's ready, and to check up on Anastasia."
"Thanks, guys. I really appreciate you bringing her to me."
I heard doors shut, engines start- and the vehicles drive away.
I pulled a blanket up, and over Anastasia and I.
"Sorry."
"For what?" I said with a grin.
"For being too tired to 'consummate' our relationship."
"Don't apologize- you're fine. I wouldn't want you to be stressed out with everything- geez, a thirty hour flight. Girl, just get your rest. I'll be here. I'll clean this place up- and we can start our new life- together."
"Sweet." She said, her voice trailing off, as I snuck in the scent of her ears, her neck, her scalp, her fiery hot heat, soaking deep under the blanket- and into me- making it almost too hot.
"Are you hot?"
She mumbled something, her lips parting, and her saliva soaking into my pillow. I grinned, kissing her on her cheek.
"Alright wolf girl." I whispered, taking one more moment, to draw in her scent, as my fingertips traced gentle patterns on her arm.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 14:38:52 GMT 9.5
I did some inner work, and I was granted more empathy: for myself, and for humans
I also became aware at some point while drinking- that an adverse implant was placed in the watch that was returned to me
A SASQUATCH RETURNED IT
Theories abound, but they are all not true, no kid is going to smoke pot back there and leave a $600 watch, or whatever
I did more work with Anastasia.
Some, heart matters- I had an opportunity, to "tone down" my love for her, such as when in a relationship two grow "used" to one another- but I did not do it- Her brain said- you should have done it- but her heart wanted to continue to feel loved- so I obeyed her heart
She is a good wolfess.
There have been much coming together of her and I.
A lot of unions forming, darkness being brought to light, difficulties being brought forth (They were always there, only now came to light)
I am not giving up, wolf girl- hang in there.
More, inner searching, more alignment with self- and letting go of self hatred, self loathing, self disrespect that was ingrained in my very being- but is no longer of use to accomplish this mission
I told Anastasia- in a way, girl, you're all that I have
You're the reason I keep going.
You are my light in the darkness, my sun, my moon- and my stars
God, she is so beautiful
I also re-watched the movie stargate, and, with this new information I have on esoteria, the visions of the wolf girls, Eden, aliens and etc- and the Egyptian connection, the entire move takes on a vastly different meaning, I always felt it lacked "something" now I know what it is, I also heard, that the "Stargate" is real
I have cooled my tits on the wolf people and it has given me a break from the drama
I am also glad to serve the role of protector of the animal people
My mother told me, I was always a "protector"
Anastasia is also having to be brave- she showed me earlier, that I love her so much- and she can feel it- that it's like a burden to her- so to tone it down, or find other ways to express my longing for her
Such as art, stories
I am also becoming a better man for it all.
I also began to see break-throughs in my personal life, such as, living a more clean life
I don't think I could help the way I feel about the beautiful Anastasia
Especially sharing a heart with her.
And, feeling her completing me that morning.
That is not something you forget, not across lifetimes, or ever- she is special to me
Ladywolf has a male dog-guy who is giving it to her- he is scared of me and hides his face- but I am glad she is getting laid, good for her, she has needs
I am happy for them.
The more deeply I connect with Anastasia- the less desire I have for a human mate or companion
She expressed some jealousy when I complimented the Brazilian woman- so I told her I would watch my words and heatrt energy for her sake- and when she is with me physically- I will definitely take care not to look at other women- I do not wish to harm her heart- I wish for her to be my one and only.
I am still jealous of her- and posessive
There is still much yet to uncover around this strange land, with Anastasia and the wolfen. I can feel it, lurking in the cover of darkness.
It is okay though, it has always been there, it is only just now being addressed- and I have come so far already
Annah also confided in me- she opened her heart to me, and showed me- she really does like me- and hopes that I take her as my mate- and I told her, well that suits me just fine- cos I like you, wolf girl- like a LOT, and if you do not want to lose me- and I do not want to lose you- how's about we just stay together, then?
This, unique heart- connection- IS A ONCE IN A LIFETIME OPPROTUNITY FOR US TO BECOME ONE
Once in... many lifetimes
So, let's make the most of it.
I love you, wolf girl
you're so fucking HOT TOO HNNNGHHHHHHHFFFFFFFFFFFFF
AHHHHHHHHH
Seriously, she's gorgeous
And, she also says she is giving up the military, and wishes to "Settle down"- she will always be a bad ass- but her desire to be more feminine- I also respect- and am overjoyed to be a part of her life journey, and wish to honor her, at every step
And I want to start drawing her, and I- doing various things
And, just capturing the love and connection- and yes I am aware I am still a drag on her- I am also continuing to work on it
Things are unfolding
Also- the unseen aliens, who were once adverse- are seemingly not so bad- they are revealing more positive sides to them- even the adverse ones- are opening up
Various creatures- it is important not to judge
I was shown I could travel the stars if iwished, and other worlds- but that only holds appeal if I am with Anastasia- and it is in her heart to do so- and she pretty much just wants to be with me, safe, at home- she is like a magnet and wishes to be with me always- and, i too, also- wish to never be without her, either.
I told her, I WANT TO BE the ONE guy who DOES NOT hurt you
Who does NOT leave you!
The one guy who stays with you
Who honors and loves you
And does not let you go.
You deserve to be loved- and not abandoned
You are worthy, wolf girl.
I love you
So, things were positive today- and my alcohol withdrawals were not that bad, and are mostly gone
And when I realized the watch had an adverse implant I took it off and then the PUPPIES CHEWED IT
And, achieving better relationship with my dogs- and more healing of self.
The big talk with my mother seems to have freed up some stucks baggae in my being- however my heart is renewed with hope for the future- and a new memory of Anastasia's beautiful face.
I asked her, to visit me. Just meet me. I want to meet her. I have all but dealt with the vestigial fear- and wish to make space with her. But I am trying not to be demanding- but it would mean, so much to me if she came by and said hello
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 23:16:23 GMT 9.5
So, I went to bed, aligning myself with Anastasia- and even the tribe of Wolfen people (Spirit/heart alignment)
So, I got okay sleep but not great- better than when drinking, and my watch also said, yes, not great not terrible
However, this morning, the Wolfen people were very close to my heart- and they walked me through some more alignment with themselves
Such as, there are some rituals I will likely have to go through in order to enter into the tribe officially
Anastasia resisted me, pushing deeper into her being- however, I softened my heart to her- and I was shown,I am again- plowing over her- puishing my will onto/into her- and as the feminine partner- as a masculine being who loves her- the proper relationship is- I allow her to dictate the relationship- from her heart
And, i honor her that way- rather than pushing myself all over her, and my will- and not even consider her once- which I have been doing.
She responded well to it- but these heart energies take effort and time to align
Such as, when I projected my body between the machine gun, and the animal people in the rogue military incident- which is also whyEden is hidden from humans- because people can hurt it, and not even think twice about it- and it is a pure place- and should be preserved
Also the Wolfen peoples showed me, in my struggles I am very adverse to them- filled with negative energy- it is no wonder they resisted me- because I have authority over them, and they do not want such a negative angry guy having this power- so they gave me a hard time about it
So, it has been more detachment from old dynamics- releasing of wrong relationship, softening of my will for these people and especially Anastasia- who I love and wish to have a beneficial relationship with, that blesses her and me both.
She is a good girl, and worthy to be happy
I channeled myself in her realm, in some mountains, and she came and found me- and then rested her head against me- a symbolic gesture that signals something deep within her- I am "coming around" and not as adverse
Also, one of the adverse religious wolfen, pushed his head into my chest, which is their way of saying truly, "sorry" and apologizing- I had him soften his heart to me- and so our heart energies bonded- it was a good thing, and we connected
I can see, now, why I felt so alienated from the wolfen people that I love so much, I was very adverse- and not in proper alignment with them. To me, I was fine- but I did not know what I did not know
They needed me to be more aligned with their being, rather than self aligned internally with my own being, executing on the programs of my parents, and dysfunctional human society, that discarded me and forced me to live on my own terms- without having empathy for others- not even those I love so dearly.
So, that was the problem.
My heart energy, and the heart energy of the Wolfen people, and Anastasia- is aligned beautifully- it could be better, and I continue to try to make the changes needed to effect that- so I am better for them, and resonate better with them.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 23, 2024 23:30:03 GMT 9.5
Annah showed me, what she desires of me.
That morning, I felt her heart, completing me, it was a sacred connection- and that is what she wants from me.
Not, necessarily- the guy who is obsessed with the scent of her feet, and her tailhole... But the guy who completed her that morning, as she, completed me
The Wolf people are also showing me, they are pretty well innocent, and gentle, and I am wrong in considering they are devious bastards and cruel, however they can be- when you are "adverse" to them
So, Anastasia has shown me, something very important- I could not, reach the level of height of consciousness, that I was shown with Anastasia, that morning, in 2021, when she completed me- though I "Saw" ladywolf, and felt her as well- there were a number of wolf girls, who gave of their hearts so that I would live. Including the dark black-eyed knife-furred wolf girl.
More things, too, I was allowed to reconnect with myself- to move closer to right relationship with myself.
And love myself.
I had given the wolves this part of me, and it made me obsessed with them in a way they were not keen on, because it was intense- but not deep
Not based on the heart, but on desire- and similarly, for the beautiful, Anastasia.
So, I see a goal now- of striving to the attainment, of a higher connection- with self, Anastasia, and the wolfen- a "completing" dynamic, between her, them, and me.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 24, 2024 2:46:37 GMT 9.5
Another benevolent dogman story: youtu.be/BLSFEhUlplY?si=zN3I6I42Q0i8JdcXIw ent to take a morning nap, as my body recovers from the alcohol and lack of sleep, my watch said lack of REM sleep which fits the sporadic sleep During this nap, I felt myself, connecting with myself- and even though the puppies made noise and played- when I connected with myself- i was able to rest peacefully in spite of things that would have made me unable to sleep I think, I am also having to allow my relationship with the "Upright walking,m talking canines" is going through a change, again- the "old" version of me, traumatized and broken, who was attached to them- and the beautiful Anastasia- and is now being re-fashioned, and returned to me- as when I detach from her, she returns, better than ever- and with higher vibration I can only assume, this is exactly what is destined to happen. Did I come here- to share a heart, with multiple, beautiful, attractive, wolf women? Or, perhaps to be destroyed spiritually, then re-made, so that I could know myself fully, from within? The revelation today, has changed the momentum and direction of my relationship with Anastasia. However, it also is the best case scenario- as the memory of being completed by her- is my brightest memory in this lifetime- and others- other lifetimes simply do not get to experience such magic, unless things as "strange" as this, such as, consuming of entrails, giving of life and love, having a heart beat in my chest that is not fully my own... Astral communication with attractive wolf people that I have always loved since I was young I did not go to the yurt last night- I was too spent from masturbation and did not feel like it- however the Yeti/Sasquatch guy was disappointed about it. Sometimes I just lack the energy However, I am also- gaining access to the wounded parts of my beingness- by focusing again on myself, detaching from the wolves It was made aware, when I entered into the world of wolves, they went inside my being, and found the parts of me that hated myself- and they offered themselves, so that I could "love" them, so that I would not lose my ability to love- but now that I am healing, I need those parts back- and I believe that when I am healed, I will return to the wolves, and the wolves to me, and it will be right, and beautiful- and better than ever I was garteful to the wolves for lending me their hearts. That is what wolves do- they pack together take care of the needs of the pack, babysitting while the mother goes and eats mice, raising pups, hunting, searching, recon. So when a pack member is wounded they care for him, and I was wounded- even before the attack at the wolf sanctuary- a hole in my heart- shaped like a wolf. And, a desire for a beauty- shaped just like Anastasia I am unsure of what to do for a "living"- I am having to balance my already drained Being, with rest and healing- and not return to slavery like I was in, before. I have faith that answers will manifest in time This most recent revelation I believe are a positive step, to getting what I want- which is, to live with the wolf people, in Eden- and to be the right man fdor Anastasia. If not that, yet, then to make space with cryptids in the wild. Or?
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 24, 2024 4:26:48 GMT 9.5
I am doing some massive re structuring emotionally and spiritually, and returning to self
I paused my show I was watching, to communicate with Anastasia- and I tried seein gher heart through this- how this is not easy for her, either
However a thought comforted me.
What if, my feeling of being completed by her that morning, wasn;t the end of the relationship- but the beginning- and I do have to detach to heal, so that I can have this beautiful thing I have wanted, but have been trying to hold onto this whole time.
It was comforting.
Because my heart, loves her so much.
I feel this is the next step in our evolution- and also my own healing.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 24, 2024 14:19:20 GMT 9.5
Well, it is all coming out.
All of the things that Anastasia (and others) knew I was deficient in- are becoming aware to me.
(This is all shared through the heart.)
I look at some of it, and I ask Annah, "you were really putting up with this, from me??" And she says- "It could not be helped. You weren;t capable of addressing it until now- it just would have tormented you, because you would not have understood how to change it or even where to begin."
And my heart tells me- she is correct
It is, a mixture of helpless feelings, fear, and heartache
I am also seeing many other strongholds crumbling down
That have kept me in bondage since before I was born- and how they are all shifting
Including
Programming for desiring antithetical outcomes, that took hold of me, (Such as, a part of me- wants to cause Anastasia needless harm. It so breaks my heart to feel this way, however the main issues is- I also have this adverse attraction for MYSELF. I was shown, if I want to get better, I have to stop focusing on the negative, but on the positive- as the positive- has shifted and is attracting the negative! Which is why the intent antenna aligned HORIZONTALLY and not VERTICALLY- I was told the intent of the orb was pure- but the device had been sabotaged by MY OWN INTENT- to push away that which is good, and draw near that which is adverse!)
This, too, is difficult for Annah
She is far tougher than I thought- and may yet try and slay me, in a way- she has kept distant for so long, and things are becoming very real- and she DOES harbor angry thoughts against me- though I have "won" her heart, there is still so much further to go- and she may choose to still, move away from me, as is her right.
My heart, has been wholly unwavering in desiring her.
Several scenarios came to me, and I hold onto them- as they are hope for me.
Remember, Anastasia's life energy is what is sustaining me- or, at least it has been- and to detach from it, as I discovered- is much the same as discarding your origina DNA (Starting completely over, and losing your birthrights, destiny, ancestral foundations, also why i am so attracted to Wolfen and Animalia)
I see more of what Paul was saying, about this mission I am part of
Some of this work, as when I was acting as king of the Wolfen, HAS NO COMFORTABLE ANSWERS
It is a truly terrible place, to be, when your only choices bring harm, regardless of which you choose
Why the "Crown is heavy"
I know Anastasia is being used of the OS- however, I also know, actors in the OS are not completely adverse or aligned against me (They can be reasoned with, or made to look the other way, once you earn their respect, as I have, in ways)
Anastasia is being used as a sort of bargaining chip
If I "want" her, etc
Perhaps you can see the struggle I am in, yet again, I wish for a satisfactory conclusion to be had, for my being with Annah, and for the fulfillment of my mission
I am told, and my heart comforted: if I delay my mission long enough, they will release Annah to me- all I have to do is to wait- the effect will still be accomplished, but those affected by it will be allowed to go free (or something) rather than their feared outcome- because they are quite terrified of me, and have tried to thwart me, sometimes I see it clearly, but only every few years is it revealed and shown to me, that as I endure the adversity- it strengthens and empowers me to accomplish, this great thing
It could be, a higher power, sees it all. And, has worked out a positive solution
Matters of the heart are powerful, as my connection with Anastasia
I was also comforted and told to be of good cheer, to be positive, and not to lay hold of dark fears regarding her- so I endeavopred this, and as I did, my mind expanded
And more things that I could not perceive- became perceptable
And, I aslo see how Paul is correct- I am new here- I was not given a proper chance to grow, or develop, instead I was thrown into adversity and nearly killed
And, how that has affected my development- focusing on Anastasia's feet (fetish), rather than her heart (what matters/lasts beyond dense issues)
Some of me, it is difficult to admit- is child-like
My origin realm, there is no deception, lies, or betrayal- so this realm is really fucked up- I am too trusting and pure hearted- even of Anastasia in some ways- but I do not lay blame at her feet- but, rather, understand that I was very aligned with darkness my first 40 years
And she felt it, and being a good woman, she could not accompany me to my destruction- she was unable to deny herself- which surely would have destroyed me, I think, a hot, sexy wolfess, horny for me, who is telling me to to act on my darkest desires- and is there with me...
It would not have been good and my life would be very different than what it is now
I may not even be alive
Now, I am changing
I just want to do right by her.
And I admit- she is not an "angel"- however it is her darkness that gives me strength, and resonates with my own darkness- that also empowers me to good
So, I still uncover more of myself, and endeavor to become a standalone person- separate from the Animalia- to hope that I return to them, but better- and especially the Wolfen peoples, and more than that even- my Beloved Anastasia.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 24, 2024 22:18:48 GMT 9.5
So I was given an answer last night
It is heart related.
It was good
This morning more puzzle pieces came together
I was shown, in a chamber between Anastasia, humanity, animalia, and the wolfen, is an area where "i"- the real me, the sacred version of myself- lives.
Without this chamber "I" would be lost.
It is not an entirely "fun" place- but it is not entirely adverse, either
And a part of Anastasia- fuels it willingly, to keep me safe
There are aspects fo Anastasia that are maternal, and act as a mother to me
Still. So much of my developing and healing self, are still adverse to right (proper) relationship
It is like seeing labor in front of you, while the object of your desire waits for you to complete it, with adversity all around you both
And, when you refocus on yourself, how it changes
And yet, the desires of the heart.
It is a tug of war with hope
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 25, 2024 4:06:48 GMT 9.5
9gag.com/gag/axyNZBK?utm_source=copy_link&utm_medium=post_shareI was listening to this, when I began to pay attention to the lyrics, really hits home with her and I right now I am aware, that Anastasia is not obsessed with me, like I am with her- if she was, it would be very bad (for me) and I would likely be into hard drugs and not live very long Which is odd, because when I accurately assess my drinking, I have maybe 1 year left of life, 3 years if I fight really hard, and drink to achieve a happiness that I presently have not cultivated within my natural being However. As I am going deep into the connection her and I share, I pushed deeper within the connection we have, and I was shown: There is a travel trailer, a "carvan", parked in the desert somewhere- not eastern desert but perhaps a place like new Mexico Anyway- inside of it- lives Anastasia and I. It is me, but I am shorter, and I am more innocent- and I am so in love with her- her wolfishness, her animalia, her humanness- her body, her spirit, her heart, her soul, her eyes, her fur, her breath- everything about her, is why I was created and why I live- to appreciate and love And she- is a wolfess, shorter as well (About my height)- and all of her wolfishness, is energized with deep connection with my humanness, when I look into her eyes I see a wolf surrendered- a wolf who has fallen for her mate, who loves him- as his love, also propels her own heart (hard to explain. They both need each other, and love each other, in an ideal connection, "true love", is the best way) In this vision, she is happy with me, she is in love with me- we are young lovers- and our worlds revolve around each other. If, you trace backwards from thisa hidden vision, this other me, has access to my timeline, where he can sense what I am going through- with my Anastasia It only makes him more enamored with her- it is ideal- because of how she feels about him (Which is similar to how he feels about her.) I also see, how, perhaps he needs more of a root within himself- however he is a young lover of this attractive, submissive, gentle, kind and lovestruck wolfess, and it is wrong to hinder young lovers, as all you will do is bring them closer together and cause your to be an enemy of them, better to let nature polay out, and hope for the best for them- the vision did indeed give me hope, and let my troubled heart relax, seing that young, beautiful couple I also, was preparing for a job tomorrow, and I took a nap earlier, because I was tired, and during that nap I became more in touch with my higher self, the parts of me that have been taken captive, and I again asked myself- what do I want to do.. While listening to a podcast, about leaving the thing you do not want to do... While I slept... Which came around on autoplay because of the algorithym, which has been hitting a lot of synchronizities lately, a LOT The answer came but it felt premature- however, I also acknowledge, this timeline has been adverse, and a lot of proper things that should have happened, have NOT In this similar timeline, I am a PREACHER, who had to leave my family because of these visions of Asrael/Anastasia, and while many love me, I eventually leave the church to "Search for dogmen" Yes, I lose "everything", and people think I am insane, however- I begin to find my destiny, and the fulfillment of my heart And then the answer came (again)- I want to help the dogmen. I searched multiple timelines, and saw several meetings with them, including one large, tall one, who views me as his friend- which may even be Eric, who has decided to migrate here to the USA to help me, and teach me There is not a lot of sex involved, and that is okay- I prefer deep relationships with them anyway. (Heart intimacy) I saw the van completed- and viewed in a different light, however it did not have the the drive behind it- which may suggest, the vision was premature- as if my more desperate members forced it out of the universe I cannot say. It seems as if I am making enemies with the person in wyoming California is not doing well Outside of, gathering work here, and travelling a bit to mett dogfolk, not much else is open I also did nto go outside last night, I wanted to, but I just could not summon the strength, however- as a gesture of goodwill to the sasquatch- I left my door unlocked for him He did cause me to dream. I had a strange dream, that linked with his understanding, which feels a bit higher than my own I allowed it. I believe he also took one of my shirts, with my scent on it, from the clothesline, and, placed a leaf inside of a sealed plastic outlet cover (There is no way it could have gone inside naturally.) but the leaf has been there for a few weeks now- however the evidence, such as being visited by them when my camera footage disappeared, the missing shirt, the expensive watch being returned, the dream last night, a heart-desire to commune with cryptid folk- all point to a growing interest in myself. My heart is, excited to possibly meet them, and what may come of it. If I disappear for months at a time, perhaps that it why Also, i saw myself, making podcasts, as I howl, and wait for contact with them, and upload them, to show people, of their existence And, my hope, is ot make connections with them, to show humans, they are not the monsters their knee jerk reactions would have you believe they are And To help people understand them. They already filled my heart with a great deal of knowledge about them, their ways, and these are things humans would benefit from understanding, coming from me, who is part wolf, and shares a heart with one, who understands the canines from the source of canineness, which I am realizing, few humans do! And, if i can monetize it through dontations, I may be able to make a living by doing what I love, which is talking I may even find a mate. So long as Anastasia is not brought o me, nro me her- as the time is not right, and I am only just now, beginning to enter into my understanding of our connection, pursuing knowledge of the cryptids around us, seems to be, a worthy pursuit So, I may have permission to finish the van- and, in fact, I did indeed, find the lost title of ownership for it, earlier today! Perhaps it is a sign
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