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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 17, 2024 14:49:05 GMT 9.5
... Why does it feel like, I will be happy, when I am with them, in deep spiritual resonance? ... Have you learned to distinguish happiness from joy? Who controls your mind? Try stopping all thoughts for 30 seconds? I will try. There seems to be a lot of interference! Let me try to explain, When these puppies are on my bed, and the parents, all huddled together, leaning against me, I may have been deprived of a wife, and family, but the resonance I feel with these beautiful canines, completes my heart, spirit, and soul- in much the same way, my being "with" a dogman would. It has always been this way for me. It feels like the reward of a lifetime, a divine appointment, something good, and beautiful, the hope of my heart.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 17, 2024 14:57:26 GMT 9.5
It is impossible for me, as I realize- not everyone shares this connection to the canine that I have, in fact it is possible I am the only one- what these canines mean to my spirit (gut area.)
They "Complete" me, in ways possibly a human would another human, but diluted because I am still a human.
I was always happiest, when I lived with the wolves, and spent time with them.
Humans are okay, but what the wolves mean to me, to my heart, mind, and spirit, cannot be overstated.
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Post by stewartedwards on Apr 17, 2024 20:59:20 GMT 9.5
It is impossible for me, as I realize- not everyone shares this connection to the canine that I have, in fact it is possible I am the only one- what these canines mean to my spirit (gut area.) . You are not the only one Tundrawolf, I know a chap who lives in my area who told me that he is happiest amongst wolves.🐺 iirc he helps a charity with them. He also, coincidentally has a deep ufo interest. So tundrawolf you are not alone. Even if it might feel that way.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 18, 2024 3:46:31 GMT 9.5
I woke up, to puppies having raided my bet, burrowed deeper into the mattress, disemboweling my pillow while I slept on it, and ate several keys on my bluetooth keyboard.
They also romped on me, played with me while I was asleep, and chewed other things.
However, as my brain is rewiring itself, I am seeing some things in stark contrast:
I was, raised by children in adult bodies, with childish understanding of life, the world, God, heaven/hell, eternal life, reincarnation, etc.
Here, on this forum,I am receiving an "Adult" education of what reality ACTAULLY is.
I was done a disservice- I made no plans long term, as I was lied to, or deceived, or placed in with very ignorant people who did not know any better, who taught me what they could: which was nearly nothing of substance
No long-term plans, hopes, or future
Because
After I died it's heaven or hell forever- why make plans passed this life?
Now I am being told, there are MANY options passed this life, however- all I had foundationally was, "I only need to survive briefly in this life then all my decisions will be made for me whether in heaven or hell, so fuck it."
What a fucking thing to suddenly wake up, and realize.
I guess the good news is, I am waking up?
About the dogmen, yeah I am horny for them, but I am also seeing there are quality of dogperson, and I want the good ones, namely- the noble, benevolent Eric- who was introduced to me while I was praying- HIM I could be with, and the girls in his tribe.
Although he is in Switzerland mountains- I think, or Switzerland, I am American, from the USA, and if a country has an "S" and a "W" right after each other, I am exempted from knowing the difference, as I am in the USA.
He is in one of the SW countries- which is not near me.
The dogman 300 miles from me, is dangerous, and can be made to be friendly, but he is a bit wild.
The other dogman who lives about 15 miles from me, is religious, the settlers taught him Abrahamic religion, and there's not much there between us, unless he wants to initiate- but it does not seem like he wants to.
So after this conversation, i am seeing that, I need to seek out high quality dogpeople.
I have the ability to communicate with them, so I have the tools.
I am being deconstructed, my old, corroded foundation based on instability and weakness, forged by abrahamic understanding, is crumbling- and rightfully so, the new things is, I hope, being formed and will take hold- which may be rooted in me, again- building a business and saving up the money I would need to retire in semi comfort- even if ti is only living in a van, which I do not mind, at all- to keep costs down.
I would take land in Alaska, maybe.
And seek out dogfolk.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 18, 2024 4:49:56 GMT 9.5
Apparently, I did some more searching, and I was allowed to see into some of these, cryptid realms, and truly, these realms are in a constant state of battle, with adverse forces, with legions of dogfolk, going to battle.
This is why, they appear as so storng, violent, etc, because their home realm is one of constant adversity.
Of note for me is, my connection with the wolfen, was set up to give them diviniity- this also gives these dogfolk in this hell-realm, constant fighting dark, adverse forces- divinity as well- though how it benefits them, I do not know yet?
It is another tentacle, or thread to a large puzzle.
Weirdly I was watching a video on some show, some kid trying to comfort his mother who stopped believing in God, and hwo he remarked she was "the perfect mother" for him, I asked myself, is my adverse mother perfect for me- not as a "human", but as a divine being, connected to canines, on a deeply esoteric journey?
Fucking me up enough that I woudl never get married, or have children- because my role in this life, is working with the unseen?
I postulated that, had I of had the visions of Ladywolf- when I was married- my marriage would instantly take a far distant back-seat to Ladywolf and the wolfgirl dynamic.
I could see it falling apart, and even me, ending up in some sort of psychiatric hospital.
I don't know if being immersed in it, if I am just saying this for the sake of surviving in the sitautaion i found myself in, but I actually prefer Ladywolf, to being married to a human woman, in western society- by a large margin.
Weird?
It's an exciting journey- and I am NOT lonely nor am I alone.
As I typed this, I saw benevolent canine people, shifting their attention to me (suddenly) and realizing I am in danger, and need help- as I begin to connect with these cryptid realms.
Interesting.
I just got tags (registration) for my older van I am daily driving, I just got tires for it, we will see what happens. Thankfully in Arizona you can rgeister your vehicle for up to 5 years at a time for a very low price, so you do not need to worry about that. And, your license is good for like, forty years.
I am still trying to make heads and tails of it all no pun intended.
I am being admonished, to "dial up" specific dogfolk- who are benevolent and resonate with me- maybe not bring sex into it, and instead focus on getting to know them as individuals.
Letting things unfold organically.
Also of note is, and I am unsure of if this even happens with other humans, but these puppies and I are bonding, I am learnign their individual personalities, I wonder how their lives are going to be when they are separated from me, there will be some adversity with it, and difficulties, and I want to remain in their lives if I can, so they do not feel abandoned like I just disappeared out of their lives. I will offer, lifetime counseling services and training for them.
My canines wounds continue to heal, and the skin-areas are beginning to fill back in with fure. They are healing better than I could have imagined, I saw pictures of the female dogs wounds, and they were terrible- her scars now are so minute that they will almost certainly be unnoticeable in the future. What a miraculous thing the canine body is!
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 18, 2024 6:04:55 GMT 9.5
In relation to the divine intervention in the canines, I am being led to relax about it, and in toher ways, to stop trying to force outcome.
In manyt ways I am also being asked to relax, and let go.
With regards to the van, I am joyfully being led to not view it as the end all vehicle, in fact it's just a vehicle.
And, to plan and hope beyond that- becauise in my haste to get it done and escape this ranch, I made no further pkans than that, to be a vehicle-bound hobo (a hobo is a homless worker, who travels from town to town, in search of work.)
Now, apparently, that is beginning to shift as well
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 18, 2024 22:54:31 GMT 9.5
It is impossible for me, as I realize- not everyone shares this connection to the canine that I have, in fact it is possible I am the only one- what these canines mean to my spirit (gut area.) . You are not the only one Tundrawolf, I know a chap who lives in my area who told me that he is happiest amongst wolves.🐺 iirc he helps a charity with them. He also, coincidentally has a deep ufo interest. So tundrawolf you are not alone. Even if it might feel that way. I wonder if he is involved, or one of his clones, with my trials? Sometimes, we can be adverse to each other, as the only time a wolf will kill another wolf, is if they are in another packs territory- this can seem adverse, but it is for a good reason, as wolves tend to coexist with nature around them perfectly, and another pack taking their prey can mean dead (starved) pups and lack of access to healthy mating female(s) But thank you for saying that, it does feel good to know I am not the only one My best friend is also similar, attached to wolves- with a deep interest in UFO dynamics (We are on the same pack, or perhaps allied packs (friendly)) I had a dream, i am unsure of it, but it was related to, repairing a washing machine, it was long, and contiguous I have four ashing machines in the front of my home, only one works (kind of) and it has been a journey to get one to work in order to wash my clothes, ordinaily I am not so concerned, but I have work coming up However, when I awoke, I believe I was granted deeper access to the root, the core of my issues- which is lack of connection, to love ones self I believe this is it. The beginning of the ending of my trials- as i have endured enough. I was, however, unable to connect wtih myself I am perhaps, too wounded, too damaged, to hurt And I refuse to connect with myself, because I do not trust myself, after my life, and the wolf sanctuary So this is perhaps, a lesson in connecting wiht myself- and it takes time, and not forcing things To allow
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 4:47:20 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 4:50:39 GMT 9.5
There are no teeth or claw marks
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 5:02:54 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 5:05:35 GMT 9.5
For some reason I can't type and post pictures I'm too weary to try to figure it out.
For those who haven't read the previous thread, i paid 600 for this watch, it monitors many things including heart rate and sleep patterns as well as gps and is solar powered and meets us military standards.
I got drunk and threw it from me last year, something I regretted
I have been searching for it
Well there it was in the doorway of the yurt
A sacred place where a beautiful mountain lion opened her amazing heart to me.
The watch is not dead
A being placed it there for me.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 5:09:59 GMT 9.5
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 5:12:14 GMT 9.5
I do not believe I left the reclining chair this way but I could be wrong
The feeling I get, is that a Sasquatch put the watch there.
The puppies are greatly interested in the watch
The dogman I have been talking to, is overjoyed and wags when I bring it up to him. (He is happy I have the watch and a cryptid or some other being gave it to me. This is after a great period of sadness for me. This is a sign, I wish to be in the wilderness.)
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 7:18:57 GMT 9.5
Paul, check out the timeline, a Being returned my watch to me!
Also: I again went to my mother, to show her my joy, and she was glad, and I brought with me, my spirit of reconciliation and acceptance, and it went well.
Upon attemp[ting to gather the puppies, which are now sizeable, and can run, VERY fast, faster than me, which made the attempt unsuccessful, I went to gather more items, and mroe joy was had:
I saw myself: due to the reconciliation with ym mother, and by proxy, the father and brothers- detaching from a maternal womb, in order to grow on my own.
It was, what I have been looking for
Stupdenous!
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Post by paul on Apr 20, 2024 8:44:31 GMT 9.5
>a Being returned my watch to me! Or perhaps you moved to a similar timeline I suspect that there are many physical-world time lines ... I was once living alone and went to the fridge for a bottle and could not find it there. I ducked down to look across the largely empty shelf to see if it was there. Its absence was so strange that I put my arm in across the middle of the shelf and moved my arm around in case it was there but invisible. An hour later I was back at the fridge and there the bottle was - in the middle of the front of the shelf where I had looked - exactly where I had put my arm in. I thought of a poltergeist but the usual pre-conditions were not present, there were no poltergeist symptoms, and no sense of another entity. The only other theory I can find is the idea of multiple time paths that humans hop across mostly unconsciously. That sort of hop could give a sense of deja vu. ... I keep the long bench between the kitchen and the lounge very clear - nothing on it except at one end. So I put the car keys in the middle of the bench - nothing else within a yard. And I came back half an hour later and they were gone - no one else in the not very large unit. So I looked everywhere without success and gave up. An hour or so later I came back into the room and there were the keys exactly where I had left them. So either poltergeists (I am not the right age or gender) or I jumped between parallel universes/timelines or ....
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Post by paul on Apr 20, 2024 9:03:39 GMT 9.5
...joy was had: ...- detaching from a maternal womb, in order to grow on my own. It was, what I have been looking for Can you visualize a ball of white-gold light above your head? Visualize your nose inside the ball and non-physically smell the light. Imagine a two-armed antenna able to detect intent. Place it in the ball. The smell should be floral or citrus. The antenna arms should be close to vertical. If so, draw the ball of light into you. Then push it out for a few seconds and draw it back in. Do that 3 times. If feeling comfortable and/or uplifted, you may decide to take that light into you more permanently
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 12:37:57 GMT 9.5
>a Being returned my watch to me! Or perhaps you moved to a similar timeline I suspect that there are many physical-world time lines ... I was once living alone and went to the fridge for a bottle and could not find it there. I ducked down to look across the largely empty shelf to see if it was there. Its absence was so strange that I put my arm in across the middle of the shelf and moved my arm around in case it was there but invisible. An hour later I was back at the fridge and there the bottle was - in the middle of the front of the shelf where I had looked - exactly where I had put my arm in. I thought of a poltergeist but the usual pre-conditions were not present, there were no poltergeist symptoms, and no sense of another entity. The only other theory I can find is the idea of multiple time paths that humans hop across mostly unconsciously. That sort of hop could give a sense of deja vu. ... I keep the long bench between the kitchen and the lounge very clear - nothing on it except at one end. So I put the car keys in the middle of the bench - nothing else within a yard. And I came back half an hour later and they were gone - no one else in the not very large unit. So I looked everywhere without success and gave up. An hour or so later I came back into the room and there were the keys exactly where I had left them. So either poltergeists (I am not the right age or gender) or I jumped between parallel universes/timelines or .... Here is why I do not believe this is what happened. 1. Even though these sort of things HAVE been happening (A thing is not there when I search for it, then is there when I look again. Especially recently.) there are extenuating circumstances: 2. I DID ask, if a being was listening: to assist me in finding and returning my watch to me. 3. This is a space where a mountain lion opened her heart to me- it is a place of human+spirit+animal+cryptid communication (The scent is in the air, and will remain such for some time. THis is why people can walk into a place and they "feel" "something" about it, fear, or attention- this sort of magic lingers.) 4. I believe a sasquatch visited me when I requested him do it, I felt the footsteps outside. 5. I was made aware that the benevolent cryptids, ebcame aware of me, and my desire to commune with the dogfolk, and they have decided to "protect" me (This was a few days ago.) 6. I have requested a meeting with a cryptid- though I am enamored with the dogpeople, my heart is being pushed in the direction of the sasquatch (I will proabbly meet a sasquatch first.) 7. They told me my nakedness is somewhat strange to them, and requested I perhaps consider wearing a loincloth- so I purchased one- they said a romantic meeting might come later, but to focus on making space (communing) with them first. If it was me from a different timeline, it would perhaps be placed back in my home, and not in the yurt, with the watch face, facing my home. Further, the cryptids who I am in communication with, are offended at the idea that I do not give them credit for this honorable and kind act. It is perhaps possible, a me from another timeline, has already met with the benevolent cryptids- and deemed me ready to finally make space with them
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 12:50:25 GMT 9.5
I was asked to do a few things recently, the first being:
To stop thinking about the van I am building. Even my thoughts of it are/were steeped in desperation and negativity- I am to remove all thoughts about it- something better is on its way.
I( have been asked to believe for "better", to invest energy into positive cryptids, benevolence- rather than ones that will nibble on me
I still love the wolf girls- I always will- and one day I hope to be with them.
The nibble incident became sometrhing truly beautiful- and could not have been accomplished any other way- with the more feral cryptids, they view it as something romantic- a prey, being eaten- falling in love with the predator- and willingly giving her life, and love from his essence, his flesh.
Like a love story for violent werewolves.
Cool!
After the vibrational raisening recently, my mental and astral focus were pushed to another land, similar to, when I met the wolf-girl who did not want her scen erased, and I had a sort of battleship.
In this realm, were people I loved- connected to the wolfen, however a large dragon was terrorizing and eating them, and they cried out ot me for help, so I went to the dragon:
Even though I did not want ot hurt him, he told me: there was no other food for him.
He told me to kill him, I had to- if I wanted to make the realm safe for my people.
However I did not kill him
Instead, I gave it time- and an idea came to me- I re-arranged his digestive tract, to no longer need flesh blood and bone- but rather- to pull nutrients from the air he breathed.
He was, quite literally- ecstatic about it- he wore a permanent smile, andf frolicked.
He was overjoyed!
And, so, it became aware to me, as humanity evolves- and along with us, other realms and people and societies- perhaps it is time to do-away with some of the old systems, and re-arrange them for more positive dynamics.
I was also told, this serves as a positive light for the reptilians- a hope for some of them, who want things to change in their societies- as we evolve, so do they.
I am tremendously honored to have my watch back, I reset it, and may have to update it, but it is back in business!
My attitude about money is also raising, and I am becoming abundant-mindset-focused, rather than fear- and lack focuised.
This is why I have had so many money issues in the past!
I also gave my mother a hug today, and she responded well, but her voice changed, and the witch came out- and she began to try to push negativity into me- however I resisted- nothing is worth my peace!
I am learning to let go and forgive my father, who only did his best he could, as I was a father briefly, and it was hard.
So, everything is shaping up.
I have an old, run-down van I daily drive, it is old, however, it runs well, and drives good, and I recently registered it until 2029- as a positive affirmation of, perhaps I will not abandon my vehicles, and this new van will become something that does not resemble a negative fleeing vehicle. It has yet to manifest, but I believe it will! I am attracting many positive spirits
The wolf girls also told me, how afraid they are of me, which is heart breaking, as I once afraid of them, now they open up, and say, I am quite furious and intimidating to them, and my heart melts when they speak this to me, because I love them so- so all I can do, then, is work to prove msyelf as good to them.They are my Beloved, from the naked Ladywolf, to the tall Anastasia, and the alluring, magical, Cleopatra.There are more wolf girls available- however maybe in time I will seek them out- as I do not wish to dilute the connection I have with my other girls.
Male wolf folk do not come to me, as I appear to attract the feminine.
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 12:51:41 GMT 9.5
...joy was had: ...- detaching from a maternal womb, in order to grow on my own. It was, what I have been looking for Can you visualize a ball of white-gold light above your head? Visualize your nose inside the ball and non-physically smell the light. Imagine a two-armed antenna able to detect intent. Place it in the ball. The smell should be floral or citrus. The antenna arms should be close to vertical. If so, draw the ball of light into you. Then push it out for a few seconds and draw it back in. Do that 3 times. If feeling comfortable and/or uplifted, you may decide to take that light into you more permanently The scent is floral, with a richness to it, similar to lavendar- and I see this realm you see- it is bright, like "heaven" - very nice! WHat does it mean if the intent antenna is horizontal and resists being made vertical? Keep in mind there are still some quite adverse energies still associated with me that I am working with,m that may skew results
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Post by tundrawolf on Apr 20, 2024 12:52:42 GMT 9.5
Also! I was able to change-intent, and heal some MAJOR issues today with respect to the event at the wolf sanctuary- I "took back control" of some negative things, and I have been pushing positivity into realms where it was not previous!
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