When I get that I fix it easily with more sleep. In me it is just stress.
> I quit and it has been over a week and I can not seem to calm my mind
So in your undrugged state your mind and brain work overtime. The next question is whether the over-activity is natural to the current state of your etheric body or whether there is an entity punishing you for daring to go off your drug.
Such punishment is very common and very effective.
>only one god
St Paul writes of many lords and many gods - both in Heaven and in Earth - and that is certainly true but not of great consequence except for those that follow particular gods.
It is better perhaps to consider the Universe as the body of incarnation of a great Entity in which each human aspires to be a conscious cell. Thus the task of the human is to align with the Life Force and propagate that intelligent energy in ways that bring this planet into greater transparency to that flow.
The spiritual development of the human in most cases is a secondary outcome.
>meditations I have gradually gained a taste and a smell
On each plane-subplane it is possible to develop active senses. Many are already known to you including: sense of direction, sense of justice, sense of humor, smell of corruption, far sightedness, ring of truth, gives me the creeps etc
The more time you spend actively on the inner planes the faster these senses develop.
>Slicing the frenulum
As you may know the physical body is an effect not a cause. Mangle the body at your own risk.
>Visualization difficulties.
Depending your ray type (mix of spiritual energies) different inner senses develop before others. Many humans develop subtle touch before subtle sight/hearing/smell
>green heart chakra.
New leaf green is a natural colour for the balanced heart chakra in the typical Earth human, but stellar inflows can generate other colours
There is a line of thought that humans have been posted to this difficult planet to see how good they are at improving such places. If they are good at that they will be sent to really difficult solar systems to sort them out.
The immediate source of the difficulty in this case is solar systemic karma.
>Do i long for the return of a teacher? Absolutely.
You may recall a statement attributed to Jesus: the kingdom of heaven is within.
The Flame in the Heart exercise is the most direct access for most humans - but they are easily distracted.
>At 42 years old
42 is an important time. In "The Hitchhikers' Guide to the Galaxy" 42 is the meaning of Life. More correctly by the age of 42 a human has had opportunity to develop all the human skills necessary for a mission in life - according to Carl Jung
>I now spend most of my time wondering if I'm even worthy
Was that doubt inserted into your mind, or did you invent it yourself? Perhaps you can find more constructive thoughts to play with.
>tell my solar self as perfectly clear as I can that he needs a new job after this one.
Your solar self practices parallel processing, using simultaneous human incarnations to transfer learnings between them and thus accelerate development of humans transparent to solar light.
Many years ago I used to awake listening to symphonic music, but not by any composer I knew. During the day, whenever I stopped to listen there would be distant music. I was developing clairaudience on a particular subplane.
After a few weeks I moved on, learning to control the next higher subplane and no longer spontaneously experiencing clairaudience, having not yet developed it on the new one.
"Carrying the spear of life, breathe smilingly the life-giving ether of the sun. Take up your spear at sunrise and guide your steeds of morning towards the searing high noon of life."
The vertical stream of white light with the flame in the heart looks just like a spear.
Then look for two hooks coming into your heart from behind. Two entities are interfering with your life force. The thread gives one method of removing the hooks.
>it is too late for me to turn back now.
Quite so. The entities that wish to sabotage you are playing for keeps.
Rest your spiritual intent upon becoming free from all improper interference and agreements. This is a peaceful activity. Do that each time at the end of your Flame exercise.
>remarks toward the fraternity
Freemasonry is intended for introductory training for humans to take their proper roles in the unfoldment of the planet. Arguably Freemasonry has not been particularly good at this since 1700.
Good morning gentlemen. So to start off Paul, I wish to thank you for the book recommendation. Early on it was quite "spot on" then the whole alien abduction theme has me feel as if I am reading a really good X-files episode or something. Your "your not alone" reply feels as if you thought that I thought I have been abducted. Fortunately this is not the case and I do not have to explain a crazy abduction story. Then again I feel as if there is a lot more to the story so I will continue to read on.
I forget what book that was but good that it was useful.
>Your "your not alone" reply feels as if you thought that I thought I have been abducted.
I was probably thinking more of being posted to this planet to assist. Those that are posted here often take quite a few lives to recover a sense of self and work out what they are here for.
>a lot more to the story so I will continue to read on
Eventually it may be that much of your inner dialogue is with our brethren from beyond the stars.