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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 16, 2023 6:47:38 GMT 9.5
I am not going into details, but family darkness resurged with a vengeance tonight, over the simplest of things. The last six months have been great (my blood pressure has gone from high to well within normal) but next to nothing resulted in decades old extensive vile coming my way from a close family member that my gp (first contact family doctor) once made a call to have me safeguarded from. Fortunately only verbal. I did make contact with the adult protection team, but this isn’t that serious, fortunately.
I am not sure if I believe in it, but I could use some mental goodwill, and more importantly any thoughts about how to deal with a close family member who literally has spent a decade and a half exploding at you. Fortunately they are calm now. Their Mental health or darkness working through them for 15 years, or me genuinely being a very bad person.
Thanks.
And sorry, from an apparent psychopathic narcissist who is the root cause of all problems (yes I have spoken to doctors and councillors and fortunately I am not. They on the other hand wont engage with medical professionals on it).
Life eh!
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Post by paul on Jul 16, 2023 7:52:28 GMT 9.5
Can you visualise/imagine a dark cloud/entity attached to the front of your abdomen?
Push heart light into the cloud
Push heart light into the family member.
Forgive them and forgive yourself for past life mistakes
Do the heart light again
What happens?
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 16, 2023 8:09:05 GMT 9.5
Can you visualise/imagine a dark cloud/entity attached to the front of your abdomen? Push heart light into the cloud Push heart light into the family member. Forgive them and forgive yourself for past life mistakes Do the heart light again What happens? 1. No, but I can’t really ever visualise entities, but I will imagine one. 2. Done. Seems quite big. Hold on the nooks and crannies/attachment points are taking a while. 3. Ok. Pushing heart light is being firmly resisted outside family member. It’s not reaching them. That could explain a lot. 4. Forgiving them isn’t an issue. Forgiving myself also isn’t, whether past or current life mistakes. I have always tried to make the best decision I can at the time. Hindsight can prove that to have been the wrong decision, but that is life. 5. Resistance from the imagined entity in front of my abdomen. Seems annoyed and struggling to maintain control of itself. 6. Beyond the resistance noted in 5 nothing. Let’s look at the family member. Sadly whatever is preventing me reaching them seems rather happy, satisfied even. I am not going to rise and use my current energies to fight it. Equally though it knows that I know so to speak. Thank you Paul. Oh, it seems unhappy with that. Saturnian. Oh it’s annoyed now. Not wishing to escalate I smiled back in full regalia. It seems rather nervous, did it not know of recent developments? I think that I sense a bit of panic. I do wonder if it realises that if it succeeded in breaking me, ultimately his bosses boss would be the biggest loser (as my work is designed to help everyone). Could this be a reaction from darkness to my recent promotion? Or forgot, thank you Paul. |
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Post by paul on Jul 16, 2023 9:31:46 GMT 9.5
>it seems unhappy
Caught between a rock (his supervisor) and a hard place (you)
If you feel protected you can go up to the supervisor behind your relative and use the heart light.
That supervisor may be more afraid of its supervisor than it is of you.
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Post by sammy on Jul 16, 2023 22:05:22 GMT 9.5
Seeing this progress as color might not resolve any issues. Regardless of who/what someone was, their progress with you will always be what you make it.
If you progress with you as light and he as dark then that is what will be brought out, creating further distance between the two in contrast.
How you proceed at its basic form is colorless.. a blank. You and he can fill in that blank however you both choose. If you sprinkle that path with love and acceptance you will have ripe conditions for progress.
That does not mean he will choose to proceed with you down a neutral path, but you would have tried and the offer will be on the table if he does.
This interaction shows a good example of the dangers of over exposure. Seeing oneself as light will think they are "in the light" (rightous) with their choices, being justified with their actions. Seeing oneself as dark will think they are "in the dark" (fair) with their choices, being justified in their actions.
The correct pathway for balance and unity was gray. Highlighting both as a pathway of unity and not one more then the other.
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 0:31:55 GMT 9.5
Regardless of who/what someone was, their progress with you will always be what you make it. …. The correct pathway for balance and unity was gray. Highlighting both as a pathway of unity and not one more then the other. Thank you Sammy. 1. Re your first point, sadly I know this not to be true. You can try, year after year, and still get constant daily abuse. Professional advice to me is to leave and remove myself from the situation. Financially and practically that is impossible in any realistic sense. Though in my final years one doctor has told me that, given the circumstances, I should have relative easy access to hospices or if need be care homes. 2. You are however correct on your second point, balance is the key. The humorous side of me finds it a bit poetic. It seemed dealt with (in terms of no problems occurring) six months ago when I made the conscious decision that enough was enough. And now with what has happened esoterically through Paul’s kind prodding me along, it has perhaps coincidentally resurfaced with a vengeance. The rational, logical, sensible me thinks well that is life. Maybe they are both correct and I am a bad person, a narcissist, a psychopath etc (and yes I have spoken to doctors and counsellors about this, their view has consistently been that I am not). One close family member tells me to ignore it. Another, tells me that it is normal family life (it really isn’t, year after year after year of abusive behaviour) and to keep taking it (presumably also keep taking it from them as well.) But the esoteric me thinks that darkness is reacting to my recent promotion. Looking from this perspective, following Paul’s words, I have learnt in recent hours a lot about (1) my esoteric power with what Paul calls entities and their hierarchy, and (2) my ‘rank’ so to speak. The fear running through the dark ranks is something to see and feel. Fortunately I seem able to have the authority to, not being sure of the correct word here, to not let it be an issue, as I wander through the dark ranks all the way to the top. It’s quite a control structure. I can only hope that in time my two family members will chose to rebalance themselves. And yes Paul, I have done what I can following your words, it was quite a learning experience. Ethically and esoterically. The hard simple reality is that all I can do is make the best of it. |
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Post by sammy on Jul 17, 2023 0:39:54 GMT 9.5
Best of luck!
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 9:09:24 GMT 9.5
Thank you Sammy. As an aside, while I haven’t posted the details of the esoterics following Paul’s kind guidance here, I was a little surprised myself at how much progress seems to have been made by me recently. A few hours ago I found myself gaining ownership of a Caduceus (staff with intertwining snakes used by medics as a symbol). I didn’t ask for it, it just happened. I can only imagine what those who don’t pursue esoterics make of it. A man going slowly insane  perhaps. But, it appears that, and Paul can no doubt verify, I now have… 1. The right to use a cartouche. Which seems to have a whole heap of powers that I had zero idea about. 2. A Caudecus, built in part (I think) from my serpent headed staff. 3. Crook and Flail. 4. Ankh. From a journey that started around the millennium. I also today found myself able to get the powers of darkness and light on this planet to combine with me in a triple handshake agreement (ie we all shook hands in a triangle) which directly led to my Caduceus being formed. Overactive imagination while daydreaming, perhaps. My ego going into overdrive? Possibly. Am I suffering from a Walter Mitty syndrome? Who knows? But fascinating nonetheless. Which leaves the big question, does this change anything? I guess time will tell. My gob is well and truly smacked.  |
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Post by sammy on Jul 17, 2023 12:45:45 GMT 9.5
Thank you Sammy. As an aside, while I haven’t posted the details of the esoterics following Paul’s kind guidance here, I was a little surprised myself at how much progress seems to have been made by me recently. A few hours ago I found myself gaining ownership of a Caduceus (staff with intertwining snakes used by medics as a symbol). I didn’t ask for it, it just happened. I can only imagine what those who don’t pursue esoterics make of it. A man going slowly insane perhaps. But, it appears that, and Paul can no doubt verify, I now have… 1. The right to use a cartouche. Which seems to have a whole heap of powers that I had zero idea about. 2. A Caudecus, built in part (I think) from my serpent headed staff. 3. Crook and Flail. 4. Ankh. From a journey that started around the millennium. I also today found myself able to get the powers of darkness and light on this planet to combine with me in a triple handshake agreement (ie we all shook hands in a triangle) which directly led to my Caduceus being formed. Overactive imagination while daydreaming, perhaps. My ego going into overdrive? Possibly. Am I suffering from a Walter Mitty syndrome? Who knows? But fascinating nonetheless. Which leaves the big question, does this change anything? I guess time will tell. My gob is well and truly smacked. Grats on finding the balance within yourself! A good projection for your journey onward! Well done! |
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Post by paul on Jul 17, 2023 15:23:39 GMT 9.5
> I found myself gaining ownership of a Caduceus Try putting your staff next to Sirius. What happens? >able to get the powers of darkness and light on this planet to combine with me in a triple handshake agreement Possibly relevant: Yesterday it seemed to me that there was a decision to improve the subplane alignment of surface-dwelling humans and some inner-earth groups. It seems that the chakra above the crown chakra can be vibrated to trigger immediate alignment of the subplanes. (That chakra is sometimes called "the point within the circle") So it seemed to my view that millions of humans were clustered and had their "bells" rung. ... Alignment of Earth humanity allows the Galactic Logos to manage the planet more directly. Is He breathing down the backs of our necks? Does that alignment permit the triangle? >Crook and Flail A crook to gather the sheep and flail to thresh the wheat. King David apparently took for his temple a threshing floor - used for the previous religion of Tammuz The Ankh allows reversal of energy flows. Might be useful |
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 16:19:11 GMT 9.5
> I found myself gaining ownership of a Caduceus Try putting your staff next to Sirius. What happens? >able to get the powers of darkness and light on this planet to combine with me in a triple handshake agreement Possibly relevant: Yesterday it seemed to me that there was a decision to improve the subplane alignment of surface-dwelling humans and some inner-earth groups. It seems that the chakra above the crown chakra can be vibrated to trigger immediate alignment of the subplanes. (That chakra is sometimes called "the point within the circle") So it seemed to my view that millions of humans were clustered and had their "bells" rung. ... Alignment of Earth humanity allows the Galactic Logos to manage the planet more directly. Is He breathing down the backs of our necks? Does that alignment permit the triangle? >Crook and Flail A crook to gather the sheep and flail to thresh the wheat. King David apparently took for his temple a threshing floor - used for the previous religion of Tammuz The Ankh allows reversal of energy flows. Might be useful I am tired and sore this morning, which might affect things but let’s try. 1. Staff next to Sirius. There is some sort of “pull” light blue and white figure of eight energy flow. It’s gentle yet powerful. 2. Does that alignment permit the triangle? I don’t know Paul. All I know is what I experienced. I don’t have the overview you have. But timing wise? 3. I have been using ankh’s for decades. I naturally resonate to them. |
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Post by paul on Jul 17, 2023 16:41:50 GMT 9.5
>1. Staff next to Sirius. There is some sort of “pull” light blue and white figure of eight energy flow.
You are the third person I know in the last couple of weeks to have a staff from Sirius
Light blue and white are the standard colours for the Sirius lodge
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 16:50:46 GMT 9.5
>1. Staff next to Sirius. There is some sort of “pull” light blue and white figure of eight energy flow. You are the third person I know in the last couple of weeks to have a staff from Sirius Light blue and white are the standard colours for the Sirius lodge That is comforting to know Paul. At least I am not alone. I should clarify one earlier point, for accuracy. Bear in mind that it was quite an event and details can be missed. 1. Initially I thought that this staff was an evolution of my serpent headed staff. 2. Now I am less sure, as I can select either, which would suggest I have two. That said, and I repeat, it is comforting to know that there are others going through similar experiences at this precise point in time. |
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Post by paul on Jul 17, 2023 18:46:50 GMT 9.5
Allocation of a staff seems to indicate approval of increased authority
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 19:03:30 GMT 9.5
Paul wrote “ Alignment of Earth humanity allows the Galactic Logos to manage the planet more directly. Is He breathing down the backs of our necks?” I have been pondering over this. Now assuming Paul is correct here (I am not doubting you just explaining my train of thought for spooks etc), this suggests that there is sufficient concern above over what we are doing at a government, political, corporate, international body, and individual levels, to require intervention. Something as you know I have been concluding myself for some years now. It’s a pity that we don’t seem to have the wisdom or foresight, as a species, to effectively progress forwards off our own efforts. I had thought, as you know, that this intervention would come after my deathbed audit report, but you did once mention the possibility of real time auditing and reporting. Can I ask, the others who have recently received staffs, are they also planetary auditors? I just can’t for one second believe that my own opinion is sufficient for an entire planet. Sammy Thank you. I have lived perhaps 56 ish years of my 58 with people who have medically diagnosed mental health issues. Though I have not always been aware of the diagnosis until quite late in the day. It can wear you down. You get isolated, manipulated, and abused, but it is what it is. I do my best to keep myself sane. Pre cancer and covid isolation I did a lot of walking, extreme sports (triathlons, marathons, adventure racing etc). Nowadays my body breaks way too easily even with gentle exercise. Paul As I wrote the words in response to Sammy, I realised that my own energy banks are refilling. Hopefully it will be same with others in similar situations. Do you think that now would be a good time to ask for a cheeky £12 trillion so that I can get immediately to work in gently curing the ills of this planet in a very real concrete way?   |
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Post by paul on Jul 17, 2023 19:26:16 GMT 9.5
>the others who have recently received staffs, are they also planetary auditors?
Both of them have felt their increased authority - in the planet and beyond.
They do not see themselves as auditors but it is likely that they also operate as sensors for various logoi
> my own energy banks are refilling
This is much easier with proper alignment of subplanes
>ask for a cheeky £12 trillion
As you may have observed with lottery winners, great wealth results in a flood of predators.
It is better to work without attracting attention
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 19:59:12 GMT 9.5
>ask for a cheeky £12 trillion As you may have observed with lottery winners, great wealth results in a flood of predators. It is better to work without attracting attention I agree. For most that is the wisest sensible route, and a reason why I don’t want to know who they are. In my mental exploration of what I could do with stupid money, I often encounter its dark side. From blackmail, family manipulation for access, through to kidnapping etc. it could also seriously corrupt you. However there is also purpose in using money to reinvigorate. Egs: 1. Strategic investments designed to help push humans forward. Egs, new technologies to aid planetary recovery, national food and water security. 2. Promotion of decent wages and true work life balance over profit at all costs. 3. Leading by example, in gently removing the excesses of the global financial system that harms. I won’t list them all in detail, as it would be pointless, as it is purely an academic exercise. But thoughtful use could offer many global benefits. But would drive bankers a bit mad at first. The reality is we live in a money controlled world, and the ‘easiest’, ‘quickest’ way to make solid improvements in individual people’s lives globally; and in nations, is to use the systems in place. Though adaptions are obviously required where tribal eating or institutional corruption is endemic. My government would obviously do well due to the tax take and immediate investments. Bankers and related professionals would benefit from increased fee income. The UN and some other global organisations eg MSF (doctors without borders), would be empowered quickly. Other nations quickly following on a case by case basis. Then there are the other cross global investments eg oceonographic research. All underpinned by decent wages and good work life balance for individuals. Idealistic, I know. Naive maybe. But it’s more about better lubrication over reinventing the wheel. I can start today.  Don’t worry I don’t seriously expect £13 trillion to fall into my lap, no strings attached. (Wonder when I will get to £50 trillion). Serious point Paul. It is important to translate esoterics into hard reality. That can be done by empowering individuals eg by staffs, or by getting stuck in using real life systems in place. We have a money addiction crisis that is directly harming swathes of individuals, so evolving the financial system while keeping it intact, is speedier than the alternatives. |
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Post by paul on Jul 17, 2023 20:04:11 GMT 9.5
>It is important to translate esoterics into hard reality.
Do physical organisations drive Earth humanity? Perhaps consciousness is the key
Consider how popular it is amongst younger Chinese to "lie flat"
"9-9-6 means working from 9am to 9pm, 6 days a week. This work schedule is very common in China, especially in the tech industry. "
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 20:25:03 GMT 9.5
>It is important to translate esoterics into hard reality. Do physical organisations drive Earth humanity? In many ways yes. Each has its own energy ball (corporate culture). Yes consciousness can be a powerful force, but is all too easily subsumed by hard realities in organisations. How many good men and women have, and will be, corrupted by power? Manipulated and blackmailed? Etc. You can raise up leaders and managers, but they remain within a system that all often defeats them. Hence using the existing tools of investment, a bit more wisely (eg decent wages), and having investment focused on a true stakeholder approach over profit at all costs, is necessary. Just now there are far too many good words to tick boxes over reality. That is best changed by gently refocusing physical organisations. Silly example. You have £30 billion to invest in I don’t know say Coutts. That is about their published level of assets under management. Putting ethical limitations on relative client assets aside for a moment, you overnight have doubled their size. But they have to invest in the best interests of the customer (and I know the bad stuff in the news, their customer reviews on Trustpilot are mainly one star the last time I looked), so funds flow to places that pay well etc through investor insistence. If you gave eg UBS £1 trillion to invest, and were strict about where it could go, things would improve. The most challenging would likely be the Wall Street banks. At another level, the physical organisations of schools, churches, fraternal societies, workplaces, doctors, international organisations etc, do drive humanity. Look at eg what the WEF does. Again, you can raise individuals up, but they remain open to power corrupting. Hard work throughout the system can force evolution through action, then inspiration. |
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Post by stewartedwards on Jul 17, 2023 20:32:56 GMT 9.5
Put it another way Paul.
You recognise that people are currently being spiritually empowered.
Why?
How can they/we most effectively use this empowerment?
There are plenty of spiritual leaders out there who do very good work. That is not where the focus is needed.
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perhaps.
